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New Year, New Start?

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The January blog topic for WriYe is quite open to interpretation I feel. The prompt is:

“(Re)starting fresh, for a new year, new story or after a writing break.”

Now I am both late to this topic and perfectly on time. You see the new year is a boundary time, it’s where you can put the past in the rear-view and ‘start again’. Obviously you can do that at anytime but with the turn of a calendar, and potentially millions of other people doing the same thing, there is a certain weight to it. If 2022 didn’t go well, then that’s ok because 2023 is a fresh start! That kind of thinking.

I struggle with boundary times as they make me reflective. I get torn between the hope of the possibility that maybe the future will be better/different, and being depressed and hopeless over how the past hasn’t been what I wanted, and that another year has gone by and I’m still no closer to my dreams etc. So I guess essentially what I’m saying is the whole “new year, new start” thing is something I feel very keenly. If life is about chances, then I guess psychologically speaking a new year does feel like a new chance. Every year when I do my retrospective and then my plan, I say that I want the upcoming year to be different.

So why did I say I am both late and on time?

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You have been spared.

I rambled a whole miserable post, full of whining, and then I posted it to my locked private side blog rather than subjecting the world to it.

As much as I wish someone would understand, I don’t really like to go in for attention-seeking. It is what it is. Why make it everyone else’s problem?

So random POSITIVE thought of the day – I love AirPlay.

I know it’s Apple and the internet loves to hate that but it is so damn cool, and so convenient. I have been screencasting off my iPad to my TV regularly and I love it. I have some art courses and it’s so nice to watch the video parts on the shiny big screen. I am grateful for that. Technology is amazing sometimes.

There. Much better than spreading the misery /nods

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Ok so I finally decided to watch the last episode. I got behind on SNW as it wasn’t available in the UK. Then I was in the middle of renovating/moving and so utterly exhausted. After that I decided I was so behind I might as well eke it out as a special treat 😛 I mean there’s only 10 episodes… that’s not a lot.

Anyway I got partway into it before a question occurred to me of “is this a callback to something that happened on TOS?” and a google said it was a parallel to the episode ‘Balance of Terror’ and so I took a pause of SNW and I’m now watching that first.

This is FASCINATING.

Idk whether to call it official fanfic or cinematic mastery but I am just 🤩 this is the sort of thing I love.

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I’m watching Deep Space 9 episode Meridian and I am disturbed.

Like this episode just feels like the creep meter is off the charts. From that alien’s literal first question to Dax being do the spots go all the way down to Quark trying to clone Kira into a hologram for some aliens perverted fantasy. I mean like gross 🤢

I still have half the episode to watch and I am hoping that the episode will redeem itself somehow but I’m not holding my breath. I remember there was a Voyager episode and I was just waiting for it to come right and then it never did.

Do you think it’s the era? I guess maybe we have more awareness of creepiness now.

I think what always makes it so weird to me is that it feels so creepy and yet the characters don’t mind it? Like Dax was going to give up her life for that guy. The Dax in my head would have brushed the guy off diplomatically, or maybe left him wondering if he had been insulted but not entirely sure, and if he had pressed it further then he would have been kissing dirt. Instead she was all over him ??

When I was watching Once Upon a Time I phrased it as feeling like I had “fallen into an alternate reality” because it just did not make sense.

Really though it’s like a “does not compute” error. I have that IRL a fair bit when things aren’t logical. So then I wonder if maybe I am missing something, and that it is actually ok despite feeling very not ok?

Anyway I suppose skeevy holo guy at least didn’t get what he wanted. But I don’t like how that was played for laughs. Surely the misuse of holo suites for things people wouldn’t consent to should have been a real ethical issue. I mean Trek is about the ethics right?

Year of the OTP – January Edition

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So the prompts this month are:

first kiss | mission fic | fake dating | “whenever I look at you…” | snow | historical au

Now I refuse to open my fanfic ideas list because I’m not doing that anymore. I know I had some fics that probably would have worked but NOT. DOING. IT. (maybe if I say it enough I will stop being tempted idk).

Anyway some of these prompts do just work much better for fic because they are hard to capture visually BUT some would be absolutely fine for art.

The PROBLEM is what I already have on my plate. The Bering and Wells exchange, the Leverage Bingo card, the ton of projects that have been on my list for months and I haven’t got to yet etc. Do I really need new ideas for projects that jump the queue? No. Do I have them anyway? *stares at the camera like I’m on the Office*

I have 3 potential thoughts (ok I may have found some references for all of them).

1) Historical AU
Sanctuary OT3. Not going to lie I’m taking inspiration from Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey. It’s the hood and the shadow, I don’t know my brain just went “hmm?” when I was looking for possible historical eras. As obviously the issue with Sanctuary is it has as canon all of recent history. A fan favourite of Regency doesn’t feel so far removed from the late 1800’s so it’s not as cool, hence looking for something else. This is probably more mission-related in concept than overtly shippy. It’s just how my brain imagined it.

2) Historical AU
I know same prompt but I was thinking about my ships and my brain is very much “Bering and Wells” at the moment. I have the piece for the exchange (which isn’t this) and so it’s not like that ship is neglected in art but ehhh. I was feeling Ancient Egypt perhaps with Warehouse 2 vibes. Not going to lie probably going to pick up some inspiration from Assassin’s Creed: Origins. This one is also going to have a kiss.

3) Mission + Snow
Then there is a Sanctuary concept of Helen surrounded by abnomals near the mouth of a cave in a snowy mountain. My problem with this is my brain is only really seeing Helen, so it’s not very OTP. Perhaps this one won’t count for the challenge and will just go on my regular idea list (of which there are MANY) idk.

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So that’s my thoughts. Whether I will do any of it, let alone all of it, is uknown at this time but we shall see. Maybe One Day TM haha.

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Breanna really is the best part of Leverage: Redemption. I mean I like Harry, great addition, but Breanna owns my soul.

Watched the “Work Study Job” on Thursday. It had been a baaaad depression day and seeing Breanna be brilliant was just a balm. I loved how she sort of blinked and we all panicked when that professor asked her a question and then she came out with super intelligent stuff. That wasn’t the con baby that was all Breanna.

I rewatched the “Train Job” after because Leverage was making me smile and I needed that. It’s another great Breanna episode where she is brilliant and soft and sweet and watching her blue screen with Emily was adorable.

I now have a major need to see more of Breanna’s brilliance. Like Hardison was epic as the teams hacker but look at what he is doing now – out saving the world in space. I think Breanna could similarly do anything they wanted. Geniuses, the both of them.

Although when Breanna said about library cards being free I pouted a little. My frustration with my library is most of the books aren’t there. They are at the big library in town (or occasionally other branches in the county but mostly in the city) and I can’t go to that city library. It is the most unfriendly place for anyone with sensory issues. The entrance is at the back of this huge glass building and the massive lobby area has stalls in it a lot of the time, the crowds are unbelievable and the noise is horrific. Now I can ask for books to be sent to my local library but that isn’t free. True it is only 60p per book but for researching anything that adds up super fast. So I don’t use the library.

Back on the topic of Breanna and higher education. She said it was a racket and I don’t entirely disagree but I do miss my university library. I guess with Breanna’s skills she could make herself a student ID and gain access.

Maybe I will watch the “Card Game Job” later (I think it’s called that? the one with Spirit Ruse) as it’s another great Breanna episode. I could use a pick-me-up today :/

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Random thought of the day.

Voyager. Early seasons The Doctor did a search for a name. Why did nobody say to him “hey you know there is a very famous hero known only as ‘The Doctor’. They carried a sonic screwdriver, you have a tricorder but otherwise…” 😂

Fandom Asks for 2022, presuming I can remember what actually was last year

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You know what, I get no asks so I ask myself because why not? If I feel like doing something then just do it. Fun can be had. There are no limits. This is my tumblr and I can ramble as I please haha.

So there were 25 questions and I’m just going to see what I feel like rambling about because I do just feel like rambling this evening. I’m having thinky thoughts about fandom because I miss it. I’m in one of those “fuck it, there’s no point” kind of moods. I made plans for the year and I am doubting myself. I don’t think I can do it. I don’t think I have the skills or the spoons. I wasn’t good at fandom shit either but hey I had the excuse that it was just for fun, so it didn’t matter. I mean it mattered, and it ate at me that I was never as good as I wanted, but it didn’t mean doom.

Thinky thoughts!

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Why am I being targeted by the pr0n bots? One of them just @ me on someone else’s (not a person I know!) horny post. Like why? Stop spamming my replies. Stop trying to follow me. I don’t deserve it 🙁

2022: Fandom Year in Review

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So this year was a ride due to moving. Let’s see what I actually did 🙂

Fanfics written/posted: 4
Fanfics started: More than 4 haha
Fandoms written in: 4
Number of fanfic words written: 134,636
Fanart completed: 2
Gifsets posted: 27

Most Popular Fic = Dancing on Broken Glass (with a whopping 44 more kudos than the next closest fic)

Most Popular Gifset = – How it started vs how it’s going (Star Trek: Picard, Seven/Raffi) – 340 notes, 34 more than the next highest which was also Trek 🙂

Most Popular Fanart = Winter Advent 22 (Amanda Tapping, Stargate and Sanctuary mixed media) – 59 notes, so a 54 note difference

Links and rambling on everything under the cut 🙂

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