FYI (not that anyone cares) but I won’t be posting calendar pages next year. I’ve been too tired, stressed and miserable to put together a new calendar so I’ve just reprinted this years with next years dates.
But 2023 (which is so not a real year *cries*) will be Warehouse 13 I swear it. I have some of it collected already. It will happen.
I haven’t done one of these in years, mostly because I really didn’t do anything for a long time. I’m not finishing this year on a particularly strong note as I sort of spluttered and shuddered to a halt in October and haven’t managed to restart the old engine 🙁
Anyway here’s a detailed breakdown and some mini statistics.
Fanfics written/posted: 14
Fanfics started: 17
Fandoms written in: 3
Number of fanfic words written: 211,726 (including WIPs)
Fanart completed: 4 (or 5 if I count that sketch which I don’t really)
Gifsets posted: 32
Most Popular Fic = and the Brighter Side of Life (with a whopping 52 more kudos than the next closest fic)
Most Popular Gifset = Car Stealing Etiquette (Black Widow / Cap: Winter Soldier Parallel) – 672 notes, a whopping 488 more than the next highest, thanks Marvel 🙂
Most Popular Fanart = The Proposal Part Two (Warehouse 13, Bering and Wells exchange) – 51 notes, so a 42 note difference there.
Links and rambling on everything under the cut 🙂
Continue readingI kinda want to take all my Christmas decorations down because it feels like they are mocking me.
On the other hand I feel sick and just want to crawl into a corner and hide forever. I have the fury to start tearing it all down, I am not so sure I have the energy to pack it all away and a giant mess would be infinitely worse.
Someone asked me yesterday morning how Christmas was going. I said “not great but had worse, probably doesn’t make my top 5.”
Well I wish to update my assessment. I’m now thinking definitely top 5, probably in the top 3 of worst Christmas’ ever. I mean the year we had pneumonia sucked but at least mum and I were together.
I sobbed myself to sleep last night and I have a stress headache the size of the Grand Canyon. I’m venting in the hope that I don’t open my mouth because oh boy would that make things worse. I’ll try and tag so people don’t have to see as I don’t want to spread misery. I just feel so alone 🙁
#ignore me#I’m just fucking miserable#I’m trapped and powerless and frustrated
purlturtle said: If you’re okay with internet hugs, please feel hugged, my friend.
galactic-pirates said: @purlturtle *hugs back* thanks for the kindness. I really appreciate it.
I just bought a book.
I haven’t done that in a while because I’m not the most diligent of readers (I want to read, I just don’t remember to make time for it). Also I’ve got a lot of freebie downloads from BookBub offers, plus access to some ebooks via the library. However, there was a particular book I wanted to read so I’m on the kindle page and I’m hesitating. I balked at paying full price for this book.
Not going to lie I then froze in realisation – I’m part of the problem. My dream is to one day indie publish. If nobody buys my books because they just want them for free/through the library, then I’m not going to get very far. I know why authors give away the first book in the series free – it’s to entice readers, you like the first one, you hopefully get hooked and buy the rest. However, I’ve fallen into the trap of just reading all the free books, and actually so has my mum, and I’m sure a lot of other people as well. Books have value and that value is being lost which is very sad.
So yeah something to think about.
“We all had dreams once, Liam.”
That line is just stuck in my head. I find myself repeating it to myself multiple times a day because I have dreams, or had them, and I hate this time of year at the best of times because it makes me feel very retrospective. Yet again I haven’t made progress towards my dreams. Renewal dates loom. Do I continue to dream or call it hopeless?
All this moving house uncertainty is just making it worse. If it happens then it’ll work out better in the end but right now there’s zero happening. We’ll try relaunching the house with a new estate agent in January and hopefully we’ll be able to find something suitable (as everything we have liked so far will have been sold by then). But I have done no writing since October 7th, no art, no Lego, no nothing.
“We all had dreams once.”
🙁
#I am sad today#ignore me
I know I’ve been quiet on and off for a long time but I just noticed it had been 10 days since my last post (aside from that one weird post the person who hacked my account made last night. how does that happen and why? I mean what did it get them? so weird!).
Anyway, I’m moving house which is what has been consuming my life. It’s been building for quite a while but the decision to actually do it was a very snap one. It hadn’t been talked about and then it was suggested on the Tuesday, we had estate agents round to value on the Saturday, and put the house on the market about 10 days later. We are officially on RightMove and have 2 viewings tomorrow afternoon.
We don’t know where we’ve moving to (well general area of about three counties I think) and we’re vacillating between searching for a big house that can be essentially split into two separate ‘apartments’ or finding two houses that are next to each other. We’re leaning towards the latter which means we are looking at buying new build which is decidedly scary. We have found some options and will probably try and view showhomes and tour the developments/surrounding areas in the next couple of weeks.
I’m mentally exhausted and covered in bruises (I really bashed my left leg in particular, it is so tender it burns when anything touches it). We did a complete reshuffle upstairs to present the house better for market. So I had to move rooms and half my stuff is in storage which I’m sad about (and it’s also bloody expensive! yikes, that’s a good racket that business).
Crazy, crazy time and guess what – it’s NaNo on Monday! /facepalm. I have done almost zero writing this month (and last month actually) so nothing writing-wise is going at all according to plan. I will be very sad if I lose NaNo again after winning last year and breaking my lose streak. However, at the moment it admittedly feels slightly inevitable.
Everything is likely to get worse before it gets better. We might have to go into rented for a short time which will majorly suck. However, I’m trying to focus on the end result – my own space. That’s the goal. If I get my own house out of this then it’ll all be worth it.
Marvel really had Captain Carter say “I want to go back to the time Steve is in” and then after the Watcher told her no she looked at Natasha, smiled and came back to her own time. Nat and Peggy is one hell of a crackship, but I am here for it.
At the same time, the post credit scene heavily implies that Steve, aka Peggy’s canon love interest, is somehow back in her time. Now, in the main timeline, who is the person from Steve’s past that gets brought back? Bucky. Interesting…
Honestly Marvel’s What If? take on Captain Carter is healing so many wounds. I did not like what happened in Endgame with Steve going back in time. That was wrong. He left Bucky, he left Sam, he left all the Avengers and the life he’d made over what a decade? To go and mess up the life that Peggy had made for herself and (presumably) branching a new timeline because I refuse to believe that he could just sit and watch history play out. Just do nothing as Hydra infiltrated Shield and Bucky was tortured. I hate it. It erases a decade of character growth and what about Bucky?!? What had they got to the end of the line? No, just no.
Anyway, in What If? the dynamic between Peggy and Steve is just what it should be, and I don’t mind that Peggy expressed a wish to go back to her time – because this was pre-Winter Soldier events! She was yanked out of the timeline by the watcher when she was on the boat (which happened at the start of that movie) so she’s still very much in the adjustment period. Even then though it was a fleeting pang and she went back willingly – like you said she thought of her friend/possibly something more with Natasha.
I’m very much there for Peggy and Natasha too. Can I offer OTP: sword and shield, or CaptainAgent as suggestions? I don’t know what other people are using. Perhaps Peggy in her world needs to get her Natasha a red shield, as she saw how effective it was with last-survivor!Natasha. Then they could just be SHIELD haha.
I’m kinda bummed we didn’t get a Red Shield carrying Lego Marvel Black Widow minifig now in the collection of 12.
Personally I’d have replaced the gross zombie!Cap with her *shudder* but then I am very anti-zombies because I’m the worlds biggest wimp. Anyway considering the gold Gamora was only in the last episode, and didn’t say much, I do feel that badass last-woman standing shield-carrying Natasha Romanov would have been a better choice.
Natasha is one of my favourite characters though so I am probably pre-disposed to think that. Don’t get me wrong I do like Gamora it’s just I have feelings about last-survivor Natasha.
I should see if there is fanfic to read…
This morning I was obsessed by the idea that Pete’s ex-wife was called “Amanda Martin” and Rebecca and Jack’s boss was called “Charlie Martin” and I was imagining that she was his daughter. Then I realised that I’d misread the wiki and Martin was her new married name and so that idea went in the bin.
Now I can’t stop thinking about “what if Valda and Sterling are actually the same person?” The Regents are all regular people, with regular jobs and so why couldn’t Valda be an insurance investigator, turned Interpol agent? It would explain how he had agent-like skills.
Of course that would cross Leverage into Warehouse 13. The most notable casting clash is of course Artie who was Dubinech in Leverage (a bad guy). There are probably others. Still that can be ignored, in a planet of billions some people are going to look a bit alike. What can’t be so easy ignored is Parker in a world of artifacts… I’m scared. Plus can you imagine Hardison? Word of God said that Eliot was part of the Stargate program, so he’s used to secret conspiracies. The other two *shudder*
Anyway, I’m not feeling an itch to do anything about it. Just my brain throwing things at me rather than working on my fic /sigh