I just watched the thing I’m using as inspiration for my May Day Menagerie fic and I made 5 pages of notes. I guess it was good practice for Once returning because I always take notes with that. It means it takes about twice as long to watch each episode but it does make writing a review easier afterwards. I have a brain like a sieve, and I would forget everything otherwise.

I don’t know how it got to be March 4th. The end of February went well but I’ve barely written anything so far this month. All I’ve done is add an extra scene to my Rushbelle marriage of convenience fic. I thought I had finished it but then – well blame Worry 🙂 I wanted to have some fic to post for tomorrow but *looks at pile of blank documents* yeah I got nothing.

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I hope you don’t mind the question, but I see you really like Regina, and I was wondering what you’d think of a theory from season one/two that I used to see get talked about. It was the idea that while the Dark Curse was in effect Regina couldn’t love anyone, due to the wording of the curse and because no one could be happy. So she was desperately trying to connect with Henry and love him, but couldn’t until Emma broke the curse. Thoughts? (Sorry this is so random! :P)

Hey! I never mind any questions and I particularly love questions like this. So you’ve just made my day 🙂 Yes I do love Regina! She’s my second favorite character on Once. I really love her layers and could talk about her all day. Anyway, you asked about something specific!

Got to be honest not heard this theory before, but I do like it. All magic comes with a price and the price of the Dark Curse was a “hole in her heart” which nothing would be able to fill. Regina tried to fill the hole with Henry but you are right, they weren’t happy. Rumple said it myself “no more happy endings” and villains don’t get happy endings, why would the dark curse be any different?

However, also more honesty, I don’t actually agree.

It’s a good theory, backed up by the show and everything. Just personally I think magic gets blamed for a lot whereas I think the truth is a lot more complicated and closer to reality. It starts with 18 years. Regina cast the curse, and then there was a bit of excitement with Greg and his dad after that just 18 years of something similar to Groundhog Day.

We see in 3.09 – Save Henry I think it is a tiny glimpse of how that started to take it’s toll on Regina. In the beginning watching cursed!Snow tend to comatose!David was thrilling – she had her revenge, she had won “for once”. Then as time ticked on, her smile turned forced. Nobody remembered anything, or even knew how long it had been – she was the only one awake in a world where everyone was basically sleep walking. Well aside from Jefferson which is a whole other post, as is the nonsensical nature of the dark curse. I’m trying not to get off topic.

So point one, 18 years of living life on repeat. Point two, Regina really did love Henry. She couldn’t give him up despite knowing who his mother was, despite knowing the danger that was to the dark curse. She took a memory potion to forget her worry because she had no-one else to share it with, but she kept Henry. If she hadn’t then Emma would never have come to Storybrooke and would never have broken the dark curse. Regina would have got what she said she wanted but she put Henry above all that. She chose Henry.

I suppose given what I just said about 18 years, having somebody not bound to the curse, somebody to be different would certainly be helpful for sanity. That wouldn’t require loving him but Regina could have handed him back and got a different kid. She could have left town and kidnapped anyone she pleased. She didn’t, she kept the one child who could be her undoing.

Which comes to the question of connecting with Henry, which I’ve separated from loving him. Loving him was easy, knowing how to love him well and connecting with him was a completely different story. It all comes back to Cora. We are all products of our environment. Regina never wanted to turn into her mother but it was difficult because as much as Regina hated her, she also craved her approval. Now Regina wasn’t doomed to repeat Cora’s mistakes, she could choose to raise Henry differently and I think she tried but she was alone – “the pain of being alone.”

How could Regina break old habits if she wasn’t confronted by anyone? People can’t change in a vacuum. Season two was Regina’s lowest point. She lost absolutely everything and she had to face some hard truths about herself, and about the choices that she’d made. That was when she changed. The breaking of the dark curse did start the process because that changed everything, it was a catalyst for a lot of things but I don’t think it was to blame for Regina not being able to love very well.

Thank you for the question! I hope that was an ok answer 🙂

Camp NaNoWriMo: Rumbelle Style

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It is 2017 but apparently the new banners aren’t in yet. The site has relaunched though and I’m too impatient to wait.

Yes it is that time of year. April is Camp NaNo. For anyone that doesn’t know Camp NaNo is different from regular November NaNo in two crucial ways:

  1. You can set your own word count goal
  2. They have these things called cabins

It is because of these cabins that I am making this post. Every camp session I run a cabin, they are for 12 writers and they have like a messageboard thing allowing communication on the NaNo site. I’ve always found it’s easier to write knowing I’m among friends, rather than sitting alone banging my head against the keyboard. I’ve been doing Camp NaNo for years and it always sucks if the cabin is a ghost town so in my cabin:

  1. I post daily facts everyday for inspiration purposes
  2. I post a daily word count challenge
  3. Time zones permitting I run word sprints

Generally I’ve found that so long as somebody’s talking, then the cabin picks up in activity anyway. Right so why am I putting this in the Rumbelle tag? Because I think it would be really cool if it was a Rumbelle cabin. Got a fanfic you want to finish? Taking part in @maydaymenagerie? Just wanting a boost in the writing stakes? I said to my anon yesterday that everyone should have a writing cheerleader and I think we can be that for one another.

If you would like to join then sign up and/or create a project on the Camp NaNo site. Then reply/reblog/message me with your NaNo username and I will send you a cabin invite. Any questions or anything let me know 🙂

I think I’ll do this, since studies are over this year 🙂

I’ve been toying with this but my muse is dead and I have no big projects to work on right now. 🙁

It’s not for another month. Besides, you don’t have to work on a big single project – I’m not. Camp NaNo is a lot more relaxed than regular NaNo, it’s not even rebelling to work on lots of projects at once. I’ll be counting all the words I write during April, so long as it’s fiction it’ll get added to the total. My project as it were will be to finish as many things as I can manage.

Camp NaNo actually has sections for scripts, revision, short stories etc. November NaNo is kinda billed at “writing a novel” in a month, but Camp is more about just making progress on things, and getting stuff done in a supportive and friendly environment. Plus you can set your own word count goal and you can change that goal as many times as you like up until the 20th of April. I just experimented and it accepted 1000 words as a goal. So there’s no real barrier to joining in the fun 🙂

Ok sales pitch is over heh.

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Join our cabin!

2017 banners are in:

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We now have 5/12 spots in the cabin filled and it’s only March 2nd. April is off to a good start already 🙂

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Just saw someone asking about Camp NaNo so I thought this might be a good time for a reblog, we’re nearly at the middle of the month anyway. We still have 3 spaces left in the cabin if anyone else wants to join us 🙂

March Status Update

A summary post of what happened last month fic-wise, and my plans for the forthcoming month, because I can’t hit a target, if I can’t see it.

Previous Status: July, August, September, October, November, December, January, February

Works posted in February:

Under My Skin (Lachbelle, WIP)
    – Chapter Two
The Price We Pay
    – Three Prompts (First meeting / Rumple meets Gaston / Staring)
    – Three Prompts (The Better Consort / Dented Mug / Question of Safety)

Counting Stars (AU family fluff, Complete)
    – Chapter Three

Belle and Gold Dance (Drawing, Fluffapalooza)

A Little Insurance (A Monthly Rumbelling fic)
Another Second Chance (A Monthly Rumbelling fic)

Sweet Masquerade (A Monthly Rumbelling fic, nsfw)

Painting Layers of Love (AU romance, WIP)
    – Chapter Nine

Bless the Broken Road (A Monthly Rumbelling fic)

Fall All Over Again (Season Two canon-divergence, Complete, nsfw)
    – Chapter Five

Coming up definitely in March:
– More Painting Layers of Love
– Finish Under My Skin

What I hope March might bring:
– More than one chapter of Painting Layers of Love
– Finish a bunch of stuff due in April so I can start new things!

February started off not great but improved massively as the month went on. I’m hoping that’s going to continue and bode well for March. I’m not inspired for either of March’s Monthly Rumbelling prompts and I’m deliberately not looking at them, so I don’t get inspired. That takes something off the list which is really useful. Basically March is going to be the month of prep because April is shaping up to be really busy.

April brings Rumbelle Order in the Court. I’ve already written one idea for that, but I have three left. Similarly April’s Monthly Rumbelling prompts are very inspiring and May 1st I need to post my May Day Menagerie fic. I only have two WIP’s now and in March I’d like to take that down to just one. This will enable me to focus more on Painting Layers of Love, because that fic deserves it and I really would like to update it more than once a month. March might well be fic-lite if I’m writing things to post in April but we’ll have to see.

Fall All Over Again!Belle – do you still believe trading a life for a life was a fair deal?

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I really want to say no. The right answer is to say that it was wrong, that murder is always wrong, but if I say that then it’s like saying I think Rumple should have died and I just can’t. It was a horrible situation and what’s done is done, it can’t be changed.

Cora was dangerous, and she’d done terrible things and hurt a lot of people, but then I hate that argument because the same could be said for Rumple. It would have been a whole lot more convenient for everyone if Hook had made it back to Storybrooke. He’d tried to kill Rumple, he’d tried to kill me, so using him as the sacrifice for the candle would have been appropriate.

Truthfully my biggest regret is that I didn’t do it myself. What I find most horrifying is that Mary Margaret tricked Regina into killing her own mother. I know logically that it’s likely that neither myself or Mary Margaret could have got close enough to Cora to put her heart back in her chest. I know that Regina was called back to her vault, due to Mary Margaret’s intrusion, and would have stopped it if Mary Margaret hadn’t lied. None of that makes it right.

Rumple won’t tell me much, he says it’s not his story to tell, but Regina obviously had a complicated relationship with her mother. Now there’s no chance of it ever being resolved, and … I know Regina once tried to kill her mother but there’s a big difference between choosing to do something, and being tricked into it. I feel bad for her, and I feel guilty because I’m so relieved that Rumple’s still here with me. I can’t imagine life without him.

leni-ba replied to your postFall All Over Again (Chapter Five)

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I’ve been hoping for this for months now. WHEE!!! It was amazing and I loved it and I’m going to miss a Lacey that acknowledges her love of Gold, but this was perfect. 🙂

Giving Lacey the ‘I’ll never stop fighting for him!’ line was a stroke of genius. I love it when there’s very little difference between her and Belle.

Also, answering Emma’s call with dirty talk made me laugh. I’m sure Emma thinks she’s safe now, but it’ll probably

happen again. I don’t see Belle being any less demonstrative, and honestly, someone who calls a wife from her husband’s phone should be ready for sexy answers. lol Will Belle fulfill Lacey’s promise not to let Gold out of bed for a week, or is she feeling awkward after all this?

I was all set to refute the “hoping for months” line because I didn’t think it had been that long, but you are right *hangs head in shame* Anyway, I’m so thrilled that you liked it and that it was a satisfying ending and everything. I’ve always been in the ‘we are both’ camp for Belle and Lacey. That was fun to play with as this was a cursed!AU really. I don’t think Belle has anything to feel awkward about. She has all the memories, so she knows exactly what happened when her cursed person was in the driving seat so to speak.

I think that Belle would certainly like to follow through on that promise, but to be honest I don’t think even Lacey would have because they know the reality. Rumple/Gold has other people in his life – Neal, Henry, and he has things to deal with that aren’t going to go away like the Regina situation. It’s only natural to want to keep a loved one in sight after a near-death experience, so I imagine that Rumple and Belle will be joined at the hip for a while, dealing with whatever happens as a team.

I have so much headcanon for this verse it’s crazy. I would love to write more because there’s just so many different angles – cursed!AU of Lacey and Gold’s marriage, Season One AU because what happened after Emma woke Belle? Then a continuation from this because this Rumple and Belle are much closer than they were in canon, much more of a partnership due to working together to break the curse. I’ve always wanted to read/write an AU where Belle was on the rescue team for Neverland. So many ideas, so little time 🙂

Thank you for the amazing comment!

Hey! Great job on Fall All Over Again. I read the end today and it did not disappoint! What are you working on/thinking through?

Awww thank you! *hugs you* that’s really kind. I’m so glad you liked it!

I have so many ideas it’s crazy. Right now I obviously have my three active projects. The two WIP’s – Painting Layers of Love and Under My Skin; and the prompt verse The Price We Pay which has 5 prompts still to be filled. However, you already know about those so that’s not that interesting.

So what is up next? Honestly even if I just talk about event fics for the next couple of months we’re getting into double digits. I have nearly another dozen ideas I’m itching to dive into on top of that and I haven’t picked my “next big project” out of that list yet. It’s hard to choose because I love all the ideas. Heh reading down the ideas list trying to pick just a couple to talk about is making it even harder.

Oooh I know, I’ll just write a list with the working titles I have which should get across the basic premise.

  • Divorce and Escorts
  • Lachacy Community Service
  • Cops and Prosecutors
  • Rushbelle Marriage of Convenience (already written this one)
  • May Day Menagerie fic (super secret due to anonymous rules)
  • GoldenLace Bonnie and Clyde
  • The Winning Bid
  • Secret Agent AU
  • Nightwalkers (There has been a murder in Storybrooke)
  • GoldenLace Enchanted Bowl (from the bowling prompt I just adopted)
  • Once Upon a Lifetime sequel
  • From the prompt ‘Please don’t make me socialize’ (Single mom Belle)
  • Rushacy University
  • Rule Number Three (Enchanted Forest AU)
  • Ripple Effect (Rushbelle AU)
  • + 5 April Monthly Rumbelling ideas

The top four are for Rumbelle Order in the Court so I have until the deadline of April 11th to work on the remaining three, and obviously it’s May 1st for the May Day Menagerie. As for everything else? I don’t know how to choose.

PLOL Belle: (sorry if this has been asked before) but would you consider having Nick sit for you and paint him? I think it would be perfect.

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*blushes furiously* I … I might … I might have sort of already … I could never show him! I know that he’s always been so nice about my paintings. When he showed me *shivers* well I now know that I’m painting what I intend. However, everything else that I’ve painted I saw before the accident. All I have is how Nick’s face felt, when he let me map his features with my hands. What if I got it horribly wrong? I don’t want to offend him …

(OOC: Don’t worry 🙂 Gold will see that painting one day)

PLL!Belle – Would you let Nick watch you paint now that you know he isn’t lying about your art?

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Oh Nick wouldn’t want to do that. I’m sure that would be really boring for him. I know I would only make a mess of whatever I was trying to paint, I’d be so self-conscious. Besides my art is private, especially the unfinished pieces.

(OOC: I’m going to have to make this happen now!)

Do you have any tips for someone planning on doing something kind of like nanowrimo (basically writing something everyday to get to 50k words at the end) for this up coming month? The longest thing I’ve ever finished was a 20k fic and that took over a year of stops and starts. So I’m kind of worried I wont be able to write an original story.

Oh anon I’m touched you are asking. I hope I’ll be able to help you!

My number one tip is tracking.
I believe the NaNo site offers a way to do that year round now with their goal trackers. To write 50k in March that averages out at 1613 words a day. Sounds scary right? I mean the problem isn’t doing it once, it’s doing it every single day. Life happens, build up a word debt and then the totals start getting crazy. Been there. I know that panic, but it is avoidable. How?

Break it down
I don’t know how fast you write. That is the first thing you should work out. Get a timer of some description and when you are prepared, set it to go for 15 minutes and start writing. At the end you’ll have an idea of how many words you can write in a certain time frame. That is your baseline.

I mean March is tomorrow so you might have to go by memory but find your free time basically. What do you do now that you could cut down on a little for a month? I don’t know about you but personally I could cut down on scrolling tumblr, cut down on watching TV, I could definitely cut down on playing games on my phone. That gives you writing time and you’ll know how much you need to find because of your baseline.

Now I said to write for 15 minutes because that’s long enough to get into the story and make some progress, but not so long that attention starts to wander. You might well be able to focus a lot better than I can, but 15 mins is kinda my maximum. The trick to writing a certain amount, within a certain time frame is focus. Far easier said than done, but this is when tricking the brain comes in.

Like I said saying “I have to write 1613 words a day!!!” is super scary. Saying “I’ve just got to write for 15 minutes” is not that much of a big deal. Do that a few times and then you’ll have your words. You don’t have to break it down by time either. One of my favorite ways to break a chunk of words down is to roll a dice and write that many hundred words. I mean you can even follow  a word crawl if you like, which breaks it up for you. I actually wrote one for Once Upon a Time if you are a fan of that anon.

Back to tracking
Right I said my number one tip is tracking. That isn’t just to scare the hell out of you by working out the “average words needed per day” it’s also a good tool for encouragement. During NaNo season I update my word count fairly obsessively because I like seeing the numbers go up.

Then I’ll see that I’m fairly close to my next thousand and I’ll write a little more to get there. Then I’ll see how much I’ve written that day and I’ll be near a pretty number for that and so I’ll write a little more. Each goal is usually only a few hundred words away. A few hundred at a time is less of a big deal.

Preparation
This is kind of a “your mileage may vary” thing. Some people like to write by the seat of their pants and see where the story takes them, other people like to write full scene by scene outlines. I don’t know what kind of writer you are anon and neither approach is wrong. However, what I would say is whether you are a pantser or a planner always end a writing session knowing where you are going next.

Write yourself a note saying “next time person A slaps person B” or you know whatever. That’s just a random example. This means when you sit down to write for your next session you aren’t going “urk I’ve got no clue what to write” because oh boy that is a big time waster. If you always know what you are writing then you can just dive straight in and get on with it.

Last couple of things
Forgive yourself. Far easier said than done, I am terrible for this but it’s important. Bad writing days happen for everybody. If you don’t write one day then try and let it go, so it doesn’t drag you down. Also don’t feel you have to catch up in one day, catch up over a few days so it’s not like trying to climb such a big mountain.

Friends. We all need cheerleaders. If you haven’t got a writing buddy anon then feel free to hit my askbox anytime and I’ll be that person for you. I believe that you can write anything you want. The first time I wrote 50k in a month, I hadn’t written much of anything in about a year. That was actually also my first original story. While practice does make it easier, everybody has to start somewhere. You’re worried you won’t be able to do it but you won’t know until you try. Plus no matter how far you get, you’ll still have more than you started with and you’ll have learned things. You can do this! I believe in you.