Just watched the new Tomb Raider movie. I confess I enjoyed the older Angelina Jolie movies more. They were just more fun.

Although I suppose the timing was different. Jolie’s Lara was a seasoned adventurer and had the skills to match, this new one was like an origin story so I guess it makes sense that she spent most of the movie screaming in pain.

I’m sorry I guess I just like slick escapism more than gritty quasi-realism /shrug

Right let’s do the time warp again let’s do the plan and then make it happen. It worked for NaNo prep, even if NaNo then torpedoed.

I have until January 13th. In that time I want need to:
– finish post-season 2 Garcy fic that I promised Ripper
– finish the Celeb/Fan AU Garcy fic that I promised Ripper
– finish Chapter 11 of Painting Layers of Love (I know I can’t even say it’s been 84 years because it’s been so long *cringes*)
– finish that lingering novel draft
– make heavy inroads into my RBB art
– do the art I have planned for this months AMR

The celeb/fan AU is written I just need to look it over as I wasn’t very happy with it, so some potential redrafting and then post it.

This post-season 2 fic I wanted to have done before the wrap-up movie aired on the 20th (in 4 days!!) so I doubt that’s going to happen but I have no idea when/if I’ll be able to see it, and I can avoid spoilers for a while so I guess a slight delay is ok? *cringes*

The PLL chapter is planned but not started. That novel is only half-written so a long long way to go with that.

I have the basic line art for the AMR drawing but nothing else yet, and I have nothing but the idea for the RBB piece.

So that’s where I need to be and that’s where I’m at.

I’m throwing myself at the post-season 2 fic first and in a few days/hopefully when I’ve made some decent headway I’ll reassess work order priority. Obviously the AMR art needs to be done before the end of the month and cleaning up that fic should be relatively quick so I could just do that and take it off the list.

Ok, here’s hoping I can actually concentrate. Let’s do this thing! 🙂

Don’t you hate it when a TV show is better in your head? So when you want to watch it, what you actually want to watch is the version in your head and reality disappoints and you know that, which kinda stops you from watching it at all.

Don’t you hate it when you rewatch a show so many times because it is so genuinely awesome that you get a bit over it? It still feels like coming home, like a warm comforting blanket but the magic thrill is slightly less due to too much exposure.

Don’t you hate it when you really want to watch something but don’t know what? And all you can think about is option A or B above and so nothing feels right?

I just know what’s going to happen now. I’m going to roam about for half an hour, going ugh! throwing up my hands, getting super frustrated, and then I’m going to pick something. Self, can’t we just skip the annoying part and have a nice evening please? kk thanks *rolls eyes at self*

Ok I’m on the 4th scene of this epic fanfic I forgot I was supposed to be writing.

There are 14 scenes on the plan.

I have nearly 4.5k already (not all from today, about 1.5k is todays) and the fourth scene isn’t finished so it’ll probably be about an average of 1250 per scene? (trying to guesstimate length, I suck at this) so that’s what about another 13k perhaps?

Before the 20th. Which is in 6 days.

Oh yeah that’s over NaNo-pace

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I’m toast.

#I suck I’m sorry#the deadline kinda snuck up on me#why did I forget I was supposed to be writing this?

Rogue One always makes me cry a little.

I know it’s realistic for good guys to get killed, I just hate it.

I always start sniffing when the space battle begins and I start mentally counting how many fighters the rebels are losing 🙁 it’s not just the main characters that saddens me, it’s everyone. They are all fighting for the same cause and just yeah, it makes me sad 🙁

Usually I cheer when they take out those two star destroyers but I must be extra sappy tonight because all I could think was even more death. Honestly it was very brave imo for them to make a movie where the tagline could have been “pretty much everyone dies” or “we’ll spend two hours making you care about them and then kill them all”.

In less depressing news I’ve decided I want a Bail Organa movie because this guy is a legend.

– Coruscant is in flames. Everything is confusing. He instantly acts to protect the Jedi, reaching out to try to warn them.
– He picks up Yoda and Obi-Wan. He personally rescues Yoda the second time fresh from his battle with Palpatine.
– While doing all of this bold as brass he goes to the senate chamber, right in the heart of Palpatine’s power.
– He offers without hesitation to adopt Leia, even though at that point he had no idea whether Vader/Palpatine would be hunting for the kids or not. There was a definite possibility it would put a target on his back.
– He’s obviously an instrumental part of the rebellion/alliance as seen in Rogue One and he raised Leia to be well – Leia, as awesome as we know her.
– I don’t know much about his background or what is even canon anymore outside the movies, but in the movies he seems to just be a politician? I think it’s important that he’s not a fighter. He doesn’t have the skills to pick up a gun and take down the bad guys but he still does whatever he possibly can.

Bail Organa guys.

You know they could even combine it with a Obi-Wan movie during the Tatooine years and the formation of the Rebel Alliance. I’ll just try and ignore the fate of Bail Organa and Alderaan as honestly him leaving Yavin 4 for Alderaan knowing what’s going to happen soon after 🙁 🙁

Myka has such faith in HG “she left that locket as a clue”. Can I headcanon that when this is over Myka gives it back to her?

Ahhhhhh evil man made HG shoot at Myka!! That is cruel and unusual. Myka is the one person HG couldn’t hurt 🙁 “now there’s someone in the chair you care about maybe your memory will come back” – Skye’s has their number doesn’t he? Barely threatened Pete for a moment, he went straight for Myka.

“You are going to take a breath and you are going to save my life”

I started this post talking about Myka’s faith in HG and yeah that is some faith. HG is doubting herself but Myka isn’t, or at least not verbally. She is supporting HG, giving her the courage to go on.

“There is always an alternative to killing” – if this doesn’t hammer home how much the Warehouse changed HG nothing will.

“You’re not the bad guy ok. I believed in you and I was right so get off your, your cross and help me figure this out.”
“Old times, Wells and Bering, solving puzzles, saving the day.”
“Bering and Wells”

Ahhhhhhhhhhh

I’m screaming. The flirting. Their smiles and the banter and now I get the tag. The show gave it us. Oh yes I am proud #bering and wells. I ship it so hard!

*sniggers* they are tied together with rope, feels like one of those ‘ah they were ropemates’ moments hehe.

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

I was just smirking at how they were all ignoring HG and figuring she was about to save the day and *ugly sobbing* THIS IS NOT OK!

“You should be safe now”
“But you are out there.”

HG’s smile, it’s one of complete acceptance. She chose to sacrifice herself to save Myka. I’m dying here. This hurts too much!!! Myka’s expression, she’s devastated but she manages a grateful accepting smile of her own, to tell HG it’s ok before she closes her eyes while the warehouse burns.

OMG ewww what just happened to Mrs Frederick? Totally did not see that coming though I guess she was tied to the warehouse as the caretaker and she was kinda immortal with it? Certainly didn’t age.

But anyway back to the important bit my heart! Artie said “not yet” and looked at the watch so maybe it can turn back time? If they can save HG … still nothing will erase her sacrifice.

Can this shipper please have the cake and eat it too? That beautiful heartbreaking agonising moment and then the happy ending? Myka and HG belong together ok? I’ll accept nothing less!

(I am spoiler free btw and yes I know that this show was cancelled 4 years ago but I reserve the right to rant at the TV people anyway. My message to them is simple – “Don’t go breaking my heart”. Please let them say “I couldn’t if I tried”. Still I suppose I’ll always have what they have given us so far if nothing else .. and then there’s fanfic)

I CAN’T BELIEVE THEY DID THAT!

NO

I CAN’T BELIEVE THEY CALLED THAT HUMANE!

I am beyond appalled. Not just at what happened, the utter dismantlement of basically a persons soul (their memories, everything that makes them them), stripped away and stored for their own benefit. I am even more appalled that yet again Artie thinks it’s a good idea and that nobody verbally objected.

Can I headcanon that Myka was biting her tongue? That maybe her enthusiasm to get the coin was partly righting the wrong, in addition to protecting HG?

Ahhhhhhhh!

(Yes I might be watching while venting)

“It would be like burning down a library with a friend trapped inside”

OMG let’s unpack that. 1) Myka still thinks of HG as a friend, 2) she respects her and 3) “we don’t trade lives” – the friend thing again, if she truly felt HG was nothing more than a resource at best and an enemy at worst she wouldn’t argue. Instead Myka is willing to risk everything to save her.

“I will not destroy HG Wells”

“There is no discussion”

Ahhhhhhhhh – seriously my shipper heart. “You’ll be gone, you’ll be dead. The price is too high”

“How do you say goodbye to the one person who knows you better than anyone else?”
“I wish I knew”

Seriously I could quote this entire scene. I ship it! I ship it hard! Myka has tears and HG is willing to die to protect the world her bronzing-induced madness nearly made her destroy.

Can I headcanon that the reason the last thing HG wanted to see was the sky, was because if she was looking at Myka her resolve would slip? After all Myka is the only one who can talk her down/change her mind.

OMG poor HG /cries. She flinches when Sykes hands her the water because her last memories were of being a hologram and not able to touch anything – seriously back to the rant THE HUMANE OPTION REALLY??

I am so glad I saved this until after I had done my work because I am emotionally compromised. I have too many feels!

I’m not sure what I missed while I’ve been in essay hell. Probably a lot, as while I whined on here I didn’t really scroll, so anything that wasn’t at the top of the dash when I refreshed was buried.

If you want me to see anything in particular then chuck it my way. I’m a little brain dead right now but I don’t go back until mid-January

so I have time to look at stuff for a change 🙂

I’m about halfway through writing my final essay and I’m running out of things to say…

seriously how on earth am I supposed to double the length?

I suppose I could always take Sara up on her suggestion and try to tell them Thanos vanished the other half 🙂 (a day later and I still find that funny hehe)