Why is actually getting started so difficult?
I open the document, I even think I know what the first line of the day might be, but rather than starting typing I procrastinate by flicking around the internet on my other screen.
Why self? Why?
Category Archives: Stream of Thought
THIS IS NOT A DRILL
After spending *cough* rather longer than I would have liked, staring at my screen and procrastinating, given the whole “2019, let’s be better” thing one is supposed to attempt on the 1st…
There are words!
Better than that – there are words on Painting Layers of Love
*falls over*
I can’t even say it’s been 84 years because it’s been much, much longer than that. We’re talking like approaching 2 years here. Anyway, I’m taking the 2019 Finish What You Start challenge.
#TeamDoThing
2018 Creative Year in Review
I haven’t done any fic status updates all year because I haven’t been writing. I quit doing regular summaries after April 2017 and have only done two since. However, it’s the end of the year and time for a little introspection 🙂
February:
– Coming home to you (Fitzsimmons, Agents of Shield) (Drawing)
– Blind taste-testing at home on Valentines Day (Rumbelle, Once) (Drawing)
– Finn and BB-8 (Star Wars) (Drawing)
July:
– The Wedding Job (Rumbelle, Once)
August:
– Time (Agents of Shield)
– The Spy Who Dumped Me (Haylexis, Castle) (Photo-manip)
September:
– Ghost of a Memory (Garcy, Timeless) (prompt fill)
– Taboo Love (Garcy, Timeless) (prompt fill)
October:
– Monstrare, Monere (Warehouse 13)
December:
– Start of Something (Garcy, Timeless)
– Friends in Time (Garcy, Timeless)
– Jedi Rumbelle (Rumbelle, Once) (Drawing)
Stats:
Words Posted: 24,207
Stories posted: 7
Verses created (multiple fics, same verse): 1
WIPs finished: 0
WIPs still to complete: 1
Art (drawings/photo-manips): 5
I haven’t been this furious at a fictional character in quite some time.
How dare Jennifer do that to her mother? Well to her whole family but it’s her mothers tears that are killing me 🙁
I mean she’s going to have to go home at some point right? The longer she runs, the worse it is ESPECIALLY because she is in danger. I just don’t understand why she’s running from her family. They would help her first, lecture/ground her second. Sure the consequences suck but as she partly ran because she felt they were too strict, I expect that there will be lots of talking. Any anger will be because they were so frightened.
And I’ve circled back to how can she put her family through this?!?! again because really? I don’t get it. It is very very cruel. I guess she perhaps isn’t thinking from their point of view, she probably hasn’t thought “my mum might think I’m dead” but that is the reality her mum is living and my heart breaks for her 🙁
I’m tired so I’m going to watch the Librarians two Christmas episodes for the … well I don’t even know, I just really love the Librarians ok?
But first! You know about 2 weeks ago I outlined a plan? I had a list of things to do before January 13th? I thought perhaps if I put it in list form like that, make it nice and concrete, it would happen and so far it’s working!
The Garcy Celeb/Fan AU (now titled Start of Something) = done!
The Garcy post-season 2 fic (now titled Friends in Time) = done!
The art for this months AMR = mostly done? I’ve definitely broken the back of it so I’m sure it will be done but no it’s not quite finished.
That leaves:
– RBB art
– lingering novel draft
– Chapter 11 of Painting Layers of Love
I have 3 weeks, here’s hoping I can make them count 🙂
#accountability status update#I like putting things in black and white
*snorts*
My wordcount for fic this year prior to that Garcy fic I just posted = 10,008
My wordcount afterwards = 24,207
That’s the same and almost half as much again – in one fic. You know you haven’t written anywhere near enough when that can happen…
Oh and it turned out to be 14k and not 12, but still less than the 17k I guesstimated last week.
An early christmas present arrived in the mail this morning – my NaNo wristband. It reads “The sword with which I slay the beast called doubt” and I don’t think I’ll ever take it off.
Lately I’ve been going through my blog archives. I’ve done 2016 so far (May-December) which is when I was most prolific with my fic writing. The thing that struck me the most wasn’t how much I wrote (though I am jealous of past!me), it was how I stuck to my routine like glue.
– Every week I did a summary of fics posted
– Every month I did a summary AND a plan outlining what I wanted from the upcoming month
– Without fail for that entire time pretty much I posted every single week, on a Tuesday, it was my thing.
I know from reading my #Sam talks writing posts that I didn’t write every single day, but I wrote every week – I had a writing routine! I can’t really stress that enough because of how opposite things are with me right now, I’ll go weeks/months without writing fic and I hate it. I feel like I’m losing who I am.
Continue readingI was right. Spite is an excellent motivator. Nearly 2000 words and it isn’t even lunchtime yet.
ETA (4:20pm): Getting on for 4000 words now.
Spite is good, spite is helpful, but I’m starting to run out of steam. Contemplating whether I should try and power on through and (miracle on miracles) finish this today, or if tomorrow is good enough.
I have 4 scenes left. I have well and truly broken the back of this fic and thankfully it’s not as long as I guesstimated originally. It’s just shy of 10k right now, so I’m thinking it might top out at around 12k.
I’m thinking maybe I’ll have something to eat and see how I feel. Breaks are usually bad for me as I struggle to start again BUT I can kinda taste the end, and finishing things is so sweet, kinda all downhill from here you know? Plus – spite.
Really nothing helps typing speed more than fix-it fic I swear.
“I’m avoiding spoilers!” I said yesterday.
*reads comment on the AU fluff I posted yesterday*
Oh 🙁
Seriously is nowhere safe?
It hasn’t even been 24 hours since it aired. I thought there was a 3 day etiquette to these things at least. Ugh.
Status Update!
I’ve broken the back of the AMR drawing. I am not going to admit how much time I’ve spent *cough* but I have learned tons so that’s what took the time really. After all speed comes with practice and I’m still fumbling around.
I know I should have been working on the RBB but this was like practice? I now know so many more things which should hopefully make the RBB art much much better *cross fingers*
My Timeless post-season 2 fic is still at 5k *rolls eyes at self* I’m just going to dodge spoilers for the next week or so. If the wrap-up is good I’ll probably lose all motivation. If it isn’t I’m not sure I want to know. Although having said that spite is helpful for typing speed, gives me a lot of steam to write.
Nope, no, dodging spoilers. I have no clue when/if I’ll get to watch as I haven’t heard about UK broadcast, maybe netflix will add it at some point? They have season 1 but not 2, so maybe? Idk how it works. So I won’t be able to avoid them for forever but maybe at least until I finish my fic.
Anyway now I’m pretty certain I’ll be able to finish this drawing for the end of the month I need to swap to writing. My time to do everything is just slipping through my fingers like water, it’s scary! Eeeek.