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Watching Lego Masters and if I was a gazillionaire I would totally create a build room like that. Look at all those bricks! There’s like a wall full of shelves and containers and ahhhh I’m in love.

But beyond the bricks this show is sweet. There is a team of 9-year-olds competing and I keep going “awwww babies”. There’s a couple of family teams (father/son, mother/son, uncle/nephew) etc. and the kids are just awww-worthy. They are so clever!

Awww and the teams are helping one another now – I love that! They might be competing but they still help. I swear though if any of these kids cry then I’ll cry with them. They are trying so hard bless them.

But yeah that build room and all those bricks. Wow!

The NaNo Report: Day Six

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So I’ve been slacking on doing these on account of there being nothing to report – I haven’t written a word – and it’s the end of Week One tomorrow so it’s really not looking good.

I’d got all my prep ducks in a row, I’d cleared my schedule. I was anticipating having most of Thursday, all day Friday and Saturday, and most of Sunday to get those words down and hopefully build a buffer. At the very least I was anticipating having a psychological success, to get going, which would then give me momentum to carry through the rest of the month.

Yeeeeaaaah No that did not happen.

I spent those days sick in bed or sick and unmoving on the couch. Those days are gone, and so is my psychological boost.

Now back in the day this wouldn’t have been much of an issue. I have never been a particularly consistent writer. Almost every successful NaNo my chart is full of spikes as I’ll slack and then have a manic catch-up day, rinse and repeat. In present circumstances? Well I’m out of practice, if I’ve written 10k this year I’ll be surprised. I have uni which shouldn’t be a problem but is due to my executive dysfunction which has got worse year-on-year. It takes me 5x as long to do everything. I waste an inordinate amount of time and the more I hate that, the more I waste (in other words I suck) so yeah I was really counting on the positive momentum from a good start.

I don’t want to give up, I hate giving up, and the fact is I can’t give up completely because I’m an ML – I have to run write-ins and so words will happen. It’s just I’m despairing at meeting any of my goals and that makes it really hard to dredge up the enthusiasm for it. I love NaNo and I love writing but this is the second year I’ve screwed up (after 5 consecutive wins) and I’m tired.

I think I wanted it too much and now I don’t know how to deal with my own disappointment 🙁

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I love how vehement Myka was that no way she would ever have slept with Pete.

So gay. (*cough* belongs with HG Wells). Not into guys. Just saying.

Like is this even subtext anymore? I don’t think so.

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Ok I’m pretty certain my cold has either mutated or is flirting with becoming an inner ear infection. Most of the cold symptoms went a couple of days ago. I’m still a bit congested and I have one hell of a cough but the vertigo? Yeah that’s the real problem.

Standing up without my vision turning black is my new challenge.

I have so much to do, I do not have time for this /whine

#I’m just fed up#sorry for whining

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I think I might have to make Monstrare, Monere a series because this week on “how the Warehouse is the super scary big bad” they lock HG Wells up someplace unknown (somewhere underground), use an artifact on her to manifest her virtually where they want, for whatever purpose they want…

No wonder Myka returned to the warehouse – she just witnessed an escalation in what they are capable of! Mrs Fredericks creepy breaking and entering takes on more sinister tones. So a) Myka is scared for herself (would they even accept a refusal? What would they do to her to protect their secrets?) and b) how can she just walk away? She became a secret service agent presumably at least partially to help people – protect and serve – and right now the best place to watch the Warehouse (and protect the world from it!) is to be on the inside.

Aaaaaand I just gave away the plot. Still I’m not doing any writing right now so possibly just as well. Stupid wooziness /grumbles

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I’m fed up.

I think I felt better in myself when I was using entire boxes of tissues – then I looked sick! Now I look fine but keep feeling like I’m going to keel over. Seriously what is with this woozy/lightheaded thing? Do not want! Nausea sucks too.

I’d rather have the actual cold back than this /grumble

Then to compound the physical misery I have done no NaNo (well 148 words) and I have a metric-ton of work for uni tomorrow. Although as I don’t feel safe to walk about I might not be able to go which given we’re supposed to get an assignment which has a one week deadline, that’s problematic.

Ugh

#very not happy right now

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Either child-Proof caps are telling me I need an adultier-adult

OR

They are equal-opportunity caps that just don’t want people to take medicine

#fort knox would probably be easier to get into#seriously who designed those things

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Random thought just popped into my head.

The Prestige

Twin brothers – think Rumple with all the showmanship of the imp, and spinner!Rum with all the soft-spoken quiet reserve away from the stage at least.

When one dons the hat of the magician, the other wears the hat of the manservant (think a mix of calculating Gold and physicality of Weaver).

They are very different, yet live the same life. And then they fall in love with the same woman. Cue Belle’s eyes narrowing in that “I know you are up to something look” because of the rapid personality changes and much panic because she can’t know, she’d leave. They are lying to her, it’s wrong, but what can they do? Two men, one life. The only way really is for one of them to become the manservant fulltime when away from the stage rather than switching but who?

The end result being that they eventually tell her / she walks in on them and they are nervous but Belle just rolls her eyes “I figured it out a long time ago. Honestly how do people not know, you are terrible liars”

The NaNo Report: Day Two

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Words written: 0
Total count: 0

Yeah today didn’t happen. I am feeling a bit better than I did this morning so I’m hoping that the day of doing nothing has helped. Stupid cold.

Tomorrow is double-up day and I have committed to running word sprints on discord for my region all day (I’m an ML) and so my dream goal is to catch up to pace (as I’m two days behind) but quite frankly I’ll take pace just to not get further behind, catching up can wait for better days.

I’m just hoping my brain will work. I’m very out of practice with this writing thing. What are words again? 🙂

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Just watched Batman vs Superman movie, and by watched I mean fastforwarded through all the bits I personally found boring.

Overall I really didn’t like it, which is not news because generally speaking I’m not a fan of DC. There are exceptions, I love Black Lightning and I found Wonder Woman was pretty good. (I consider Man of Steel to be 2 hours of my life I’m not getting back hence my liberal use of fast-forward).

To be honest though what I found most annoying about this movie was the missed potential. The setup of Superman being taken to task for the collateral damage, the real cost to the people on the ground, that morally complex question is fascinating and something overdue being explored at length.

I thought the world-weary “I’m older than he ever got to be” Batman was cool. I liked the Alfred who wants ‘grandkids’ so bad.

The movie wrecked it though with all the explosions. Those ‘big epic’ fight sequences were anthema to what should have been the movies message. It’s like one second Batman is laying out the truth of “criminals are like weeds” and “he’s not our enemy today” and then all that went out the window as Batman joined in with blowing the city up???

Also Superman’s death was pointless. Seems to be a theme as his dad’s death in the first one made no sense either. But Diana was going toe to toe with the monster, why not just give her the spear? I mean she was the smart one! After she’d observed it absorbed energy she didn’t hit it with any, instead going for its limbs with her sword and restricting movement with the lasso – superman had a laser staring contest for crying out loud.

Oh and one last thing the crazy Lex Luthor is not a characterisation I like for him but Jesse Eisenberg was so entertaining to watch I didn’t much care. Top job from him.