Denial isn’t working anymore I can’t avoid it any longer I’m sick. Only a stupid cold, nothing major, even if the amount my face hurts begs to differ.
It’s interesting though, kinda, the impact it has on the body for instance my resting heart rate has gone north of 140. Now back in the day I used to have a resting heart rate of 120 but after some med changes it went down to 90. So this 140 is a little funny to me.
Sorry I’m rambling. Waiting for the kettle to boil :p
After flipping a coin several times and rambling on for ages and going round in circles I have made a decision!
On Friday I will go look up as many books on the reading list for the Early Medieval History as is sensible. That way I can banish my idealistic whimsical fantasy related to it, and hopefully replace it with what the reality of studying it would be like aaaaand then maybe I’ll have an answer.
It kinda boils down right now to what do I want to study more – linguistics or early medieval europe history? They were both my initial first choice picks and I think I’m kinda stuck on the fact that I can’t do both, and so I’m looking at the alternate choices of what I’ll have to do if I pick one over the other and just getting myself extremely confused.
Extremely confused /headdesk
For anyone remembering my panicked rambles, I have settled the scriptwriting question – that is over!
Now I have a new problem.
Do I want to take a class on linguistics, about how language can be used, controlled, corrupted and change over time?
OR
Do I want to take a class on gender and perspective in fiction?
Influenced by the choice above, so if I choose the linguistics class I can’t take early medieval history and vice versa.
Do I want to take a class on the history of the cold war?
OR
Do I want to take a class on early medieval history covering over 800 years of various empires?
—-
Honestly I do not know! The more I read the information, the more I want to just take everything but that’s not an option *snorts*
Just to bash the UK for a second to be honest this is the problem with our university system. Because we have to pick essentially I guess what we major in before we even start, we can’t then change our mind and take other classes. I mean I’m sure that all systems have their faults and it is likely to be a case of ‘grass is always greener’ and I’m just moaning because I don’t want to pick. I hate choosing!
Seriously though I would have taken the history course but I can’t do exams and a lot of mandatory classes have exams. Alternatively I might have taken American Studies but that has a mandatory year abroad and I hate leaving my house as it is. So I wound up on English Literature which doesn’t have either of those problems except for the fact that I much prefer the others.
This is literally me right now because I do not know the answer. They are equal in terms of how they are taught and what the assessments are like, the debate is purely on topic. Ahhhhhhhhh!
emospritelet replied to your post “timelordthirteen replied to your post “So I spoke to a graduate from…”
I’d say go with your choice. You know you don’t want either of the other choices so the script writing module sounds like the least worst option, and you may find it suits your style far more.
You are right! I am quite technically orientated, I did programming before I turned to English, so that part of scriptwriting doesn’t bother me. I think I just need to pull up my big girl pants so to speak :p and stop agonising over it. I need to make a decision and then draw a line because there’s only so much “well what if?” back and forth I can do.
*hugs* thanks for caring!
timelordthirteen replied to your post “So I spoke to a graduate from my uni course today. They told me one of…”
If it sucks can you just withdraw and then take something else next semester? Is it the teacher that sucks or the entire topic?
urban-trek-thru-middle-earth replied to your post “So I spoke to a graduate from my uni course today. They told me one of…”
Can you talk to the person again to find out specifically why they hated it? Was it all group work, and they’re a loner? Was it continuous assessment, and they prefer a single, cramming exam? Can you speak to other people who’ve taken the course? I once got hired for a job to replace a friend who resigned cus she hated the place, and I loved it. So, you’re right to question if you’ll have the same experience.
jackabelle73 replied to your post “So I spoke to a graduate from my uni course today. They told me one of…”
Did this person say WHY the class is bad? Is it the teacher? Is the material too difficult? Is it irrelevant to your goals? Thinking about those issues might focus your decision.
Thanks you guys! Sorry I wasn’t ignoring you, I made the post right before I went to bed to try and get it out of my mind so I could sleep (yeeeah not successful).
I don’t really know people so there isn’t anyone else I can talk with. It’s a scriptwriting class and they said that they signed up to do it because they wanted to learn how to craft dialogue, but then they were actually told not to include much dialogue … that’s the unnerving part because I’m not sure how you can write a script without dialogue as I thought (aside from the camera stuff/stage directions) that the dialogue was the main thing?
Basically I can choose between Creative Writing: Scriptwriting OR Prose OR Poetry. I would never do poetry and prose is basically what I did this year on the introduction course and I didn’t get on with it that well. I don’t like, nor do I write, literary fiction and that is what my uni wants. They want the flowery literary turn of phrase and that’s just not me. I thought I’d get on better with scriptwriting because it’s more plot-centric.
I’m agonising because uni in the UK works very differently from the US. There is no option to drop a class and take something else next semester. It’s very regimented. I need to take 6 classes next year, 3 per semester (you aren’t allowed to load on one and take it easy on another). Most of the classes only run for a single semester so either semester 1 or 2. Also 40% of my degree comes from my marks next year. Obviously 16.6% of 40% isn’t very much so if just one class goes badly, so long as I pass, then overall I’m not screwed. I will be a much bigger mess when I’m picking classes for my final year as that’s worth 60% and we only take 4 classes.
The main problem is I have really disliked this year and so what I want is now I have some measure of choice (restricted but still options), is that I hope I can pick classes that I won’t dislike quite so much. It would be lovely to actually enjoy class for a change.
So TLDR: I’m just scared of getting it wrong as there is no undo button. There is no way to change it once the choice has been made. I will have to live with it.
So I spoke to a graduate from my uni course today. They told me one of the classes I was planning on taking next year is awful and now I don’t know what to do :/
On one hand we are different people. They hated it, I might love it. On the other hand some of their claims were a little unnerving.
On the third hand that class is in “Option group C” and there are only two other choices and I had thought this one the best of the lot. So do I take a class I’ve been advised against because I dislike the sound of the other options or…
I feel like there is no right choice to this dilemma. If this class sucks then I’m screwed, if I take an alternative which I don’t want then I’m screwed. The only “good” answer is if it doesn’t suck but I have no way to know that.
Honestly this is why I hate picking things because you always wonder. This is very much going to wind up being “the road not travelled” and that unsettles me. I would much rather just be told what to do so I can abdicate responsibility and therefore if it all goes horribly wrong it won’t be my fault.
But sadly somebody decided that I’m an adult so yeah… /headdesk
anonymous asked:
Hi! Thank you for being brave and making a post about fic art again! You’re kind 🙂 How about you? Do you prefer a surprise gift if someone make a fanart for your fic? Is there any of your fic that you want someone to make an art for? 😉
Hey anon!
Always happy to help if I can, so no worries 🙂 I’m sorry that more people haven’t responded for you :/
Wow erm honestly I think I’d be moved to tears if anybody made me anything. It wouldn’t matter what it was, the fact that they thought to do it at all would just be incredibly touching. So I wouldn’t say that I prefer a surprise gift, what I would prefer is for the person to do whatever they were comfortable with. Honestly just the knowledge that somebody was inspired and cared enough. I would be very touched and honoured.
As for a specific fic? Obviously I have some fics that are closer to my heart than others but … actually you know what I will name something. I was just going to say “should anybody wish to make something, to do what it is in their heart to do” however I have scoured people’s blogs for their answers to this question before. I’ve wanted to make them something that they really wanted and so while I do 110% believe that people should make what they are inspired to make, I do understand the desire to know what a person likes.
So I’m going to go with In Your Arms because they are just so soft and sweet, from the start of the fic where they sit in the coffee shop of the library and hold hands, to holding one another under plastic stars in a faux blanket fort, to the blinding kiss in the same coffee shop library. Even just them walking along the street, they link arms and it’s like a modern day spinner!Rum and it’s just all so soft and sweet. That verse is probably my second favourite out of everything I’ve written, I don’t know if it’s wrong to say the world I conjured captured me from the moment I started but it did /shrug.
Ok so the fic for AMR didn’t happen last month
BUT
I haven’t lost my chance a) I can write that fic one day anyway and also b) it’s a brand new month, with new prompts!
I do have an idea, I even have some notes for the prompt for this months AMR and I’m going to try and write it. We’ll see how that goes.
BUT
Let’s get upcoming for a minute here because while March is the same sucky mess as always April is Easter break. My uni rather ridiculously (I think anyway) has this four week gap in between Weeks 11 and 12 (and it’s a 12 week semester). So I’ll have all my major assignments to do over April to hand in on the final week afterwards BUT I won’t have any classes.
April is also Camp NaNo. I have rather stupidly opted to run two cabins this year again, the easy fun one for you guys, and then the stress-inducing nightmare for my region (I am seriously thinking of quitting as ML it’s too much). However, leaving aside admin logistics April is Camp, April is free of class – I can do writing in April (I hope anyway).
There are a few things I’m thinking of doing.
– Nightwalkers, the fic I’ve been talking about since June 2016 with all the tropes as detective!Belle goes undercover with Gold at a high stakes poker game to find a killer.
– Gold is a teacher, Belle is a single parent and that’s how they meet. I sort of referenced this in the recent trope rating. I don’t have much of a plot beyond their first meeting and then the idea that they become friends and it gradually blossoms into something romantic. I thought that might be nice for the teacher appreciation day in May which everyone was talking about the other day.
– Art! There’s a Rumbelle piece I have planned for this month which I need to get on with *side eyes self* and then there’s another Rumbelle piece that I want to do in April. I also have an idea for a Regina and Henry piece that I might see if I can have done for America’s Mother’s Day.
So yeah that’s the current state of things. I know that I’m the absolute best about talking about doing things, and then never actually doing them. However, it is my most sincere intention. 2019 has been unexpectedly and stupidly tough for me thus far, on paper the reasons sound silly but it’s how it feels and how it affects me and it’s been difficult. Anyway yeah I’m going to try my best! 🙂
#going to try my best#upcoming projects and stuff
That moment when two people you have never seen before login to your discord and start telling you it’s badly managed….
are they bots or are they people?
Seriously it felt like arguing with a computer but I have just enough doubt that I’m not sure. I can’t tell you the relief I felt when some people I knew were real arrived and I was no longer alone. Seriously I felt my blood pressure rising as I wasn’t getting straight answers out of the … I still don’t know!
Gah, honestly this was the moment when I regret my life choices. Like why did I agree to be an ML? Camp isn’t mandatory, why did I decide to be nice and do Camp things? Honestly wth self? I could have had a nice peaceful April with my fandom friends but noooo I had to pretend I was a person and do people things. Gah!
anonymous asked:
I really REALLY hope you to submit the post, which you asked if fic writers want to be asked before someone gifts them a fan art, again with ‘rumbelle’, ‘rumbelle fic’ & ‘rumbelle art’ tags! Because I’d like to know the opinions of writers too! 😉
Hey anon *waves*
I was a complete coward about that post wasn’t I? Heh. I am very touched that you messaged, I’m not sure it’s cool to admit this but whenever I get an anon message or a comment from someone I don’t know it makes my day, as I feel like I don’t know, I did something right? I’m not making sense but just thank you for the ask! 🙂
I was going to say “ask and you shall receive” but I’m on mobile and tumblr is being a complete bum this morning so I’ll do it when I get home tonight or I’ll just log the PC and do it before I head to uni *rolls eyes at self* 🙂 there were a few responses from some very lovely people but it wouldn’t hurt to open it up for more comments.
I would say though anon that if you want to hear from someone in particular then shoot them a message. Everyone is different and for example say the average response is “surprise is good” well the person you are thinking of might be completely different. I’m not saying conversation about the topic is pointless (I wouldn’t have made the post initially if I thought that), it’s just you can never be sure about people unless you hear it direct.
I hope you have a great day anon!