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I am absolutely living for the comments I’m getting on this gifset I made a few weeks ago. I don’t know how it’s going round but I’m loving it.

I wish tumblr had a way for me to unobtrusively go “I see that and you are sweet and afdksjfs” because <— it me right now.

The comments aren’t even aimed at me, it’s flailing over the angst (because that ship is made of pain) and it’s still making my day. Something I made is having an impact on people, even for just a few seconds.

Most of tumblrs updates are not improvements but adding tags to the activity window was amazing *chefs kiss* (not that I didn’t click on each reblog and check manually anyway because ahem of course I did).

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Opened my email and had 10 unread in the last half hour. They are all from fanfic.net

Somebody just favourited a bunch of stories I wrote what 16 years ago, 17? Half a lifetime.

I guess it’s true what they say. A story can always be new to someone.

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galactic-pirates:

Aaaaand just deleted that gifset. I’m going to rework it to express the dual dynamic between cursed/not cursed as otherwise it is a bit of a headscratcher as to why James isn’t Person C.

aka I thought about it too much

Ok reworked and reposted. I’m happier with that now I’ve made the distinction between Oxford during simpler times and after John was cursed.

It’s a complicated dynamic that’s for sure!

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I still can’t stop thinking about that OT3 roles gifset I just made.

I totally get why James should have been Person C but it’s like the fanfic I’m writing.

I planned out that soulmark AU the other day and in my planning there was a lot of comparison between “canon” and “this AU” in how the characters reacted to the same event. For instance a big one was John and James getting together. Now we NEVER see that in canon so everything about that is just my headcanons anyway.

However, in ‘canon’ I pegged John as the one that took the initiative on that. He’s rebellious against his father, he’s strong and used to pushing back. He’s daring and willing to do a lot of things everyone says he shouldn’t. Whereas James was infinitely more restrained at first. Oh James is perfectly willing to buck society but he wanted to think it all through first and be 100% sure John felt the same way before he did anything. So it’s a good job John made the first move as James would probably never have done so.

But in this AU their upbringing was slightly different. James’ mother made an extra effort to let James know that his differences didn’t matter to her and that she loved him no matter what. He still had to hide them from society at large but he had the certainty that his mother gave him, that it wasn’t anything to personally be ashamed about. Whereas John’s mother crushed his rebellious spirit out of her fear that if John ever did pushback against his father, that William might discover his secret. So John isn’t as strong, his first instinct is to back down (as opposed to canon where he uses his height to intimidate). Even in canon John was quiet but in the AU he’s more subdued and a lot more conflicted.

So these OT3 roles are the same. In canon James probably is mostly Person C because John is cursed and off the rails (and Helen is Person A no matter what) and so it falls to James to try and rein them both in. However, I guess I’ve been thinking so much about their happier days (as I’ve been planning this Oxford-era soulmark fic) and James loves the mystery. James can’t be the voice of reason too much because Helen can convince him in seconds, she just pricks his curiosity and then he has to know.

I guess I just don’t see John having quite the same fascination with abnormals and science as Helen and James. I mean I think John has to have some interest – all of The Five were scientists – but I don’t think it was his passion. I think John’s passion is Helen and James. He loves science because he loves them.  I view John as the follower I guess, that’s why he’s Person C.

I mean James “pretending he’s too sensible for crazy bullshit” does kinda line up with him making token protests, being the voice of caution, and then just jumping in anyway. Practically speaking what is the difference between Person B and C? I think it’s whether they get into messes on their own. Cursed John is Person B and James is C. Not cursed it’s how I put it with James’ curiosity getting him into trouble, so he’s Person B and John is person C.

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So that soulmark fic I talked about the other day?

Yeeeaaaah I started it /facepalm, and planned it. It is definitely going to be a thing. Dammit I didn’t want lots of WIPs and now I have 3. I was trying to start and finish fics before starting another one. Well whoops my hand slipped and accidentally a scene.

I’m still sticking to the finishing before I post rule. I’m not getting sucked into that madness again.

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I don’t know why but I suddenly got the itch today to write a soulmate AU. I don’t usually go for that trope even in reading because the whole “fate” thing is a bit off-putting to me. I like it when people choose who they love. It might not be easy, some days they might regret it, but they choose every day that this is the person they want to be with and they put in the work to make that future with them.

Still I think I can work with that. A world where soulmates aren’t the most important part of the match. A world where prejudice and society comes before whatever the soulmark says. So people can choose not to love who the soulmark points to, or they can love them and not be with them, or they can be with them but only in secret because society would judge them uncaring of the soulmark that binds them.

The soulmark says this could be your future. It doesn’t say it has to be. Not even soulmates are guaranteed happy endings. Sometimes you never meet them, the mark scars over as they died. Sometimes you meet them in a crowded room and can’t be certain who it was and they are lost.

Some see the soulmark as something precious that the world was gifted, something beautiful and look how they screwed it up. Others see it as a pointless curiosity that might be a nice bonus if it works out but really there are more important things.

People hide their soulmarks. Not everyone but enough that those with ‘odd’ marks can keep their secret. Such as those that were born with not one mark but two.

I don’t know if I’ll write this or not. Thus far I’ve written every Sanctuary idea I have had (or it’s scheduled) but I’m unlikely to be able to keep that up forever. It’s interesting though.

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Went to watch The Bad Batch and ??? It’s 75 minutes long?!?! I was expecting it to be like clone wars and clock in at 20-30 minutes.

Google says subsequent episodes will be like that but whoah on this first one. I was too busy to watch yesterday and I haven’t budgeted enough time today as it’s much longer than I thought. Tomorrow for sure!

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violetfaust:

galactic-pirates:

Bucky needs a new superhero name as he’s not the winter soldier anymore.

I don’t quite know what as he doesn’t have any other aliases (apart from when he took his turn as Cap) so it would be new canon (not drawn from the comics) but I still feel strongly that he should have another name.

I suppose so long as they don’t refer to him as the winter soldier in universe maybe it’s alright. I just feel like that was who he was brainwashed to be – that wasn’t a choice he made. Bucky chose to be a hero as a howling commando, he chose to follow Steve. I just feel like he should be known for his choices not for the “villain” he never actually was. He didn’t want to be that guy.

He’s the White Wolf (the name they gave him in Wakanda).

YES!

The Falcon and the Winter Soldier should have become

Captain America and the White Wolf.

Marvel you missed a trick.

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Me – eventually cut down the number of ‘favourite episode’ gifsets to three.

(somehow none of the three is Revelations which is probably my actual favourite episode ???)

Me – takes hours to do just one

Me – is three actually sensible? or should I just go with this one?

Me – but, but, but, but, what about the others? I like too many episodes :/

/headdesk

At least I have already realised that doing the 8 I had initially decided on was totally a no go.

I’m somewhat confused as to why I didn’t go with Revelations. I think I couldn’t decide how to handle it (as it’s a 2 parter) and I sort of covered some of it in my ‘favourite story arc’ set. I really don’t recall. Clearly I had a reason at the time, right?

I think what I’ll do is I’ll finish this episode set. Then I still have the location, quote and free choice sets to do to round out the week. After I have done those if I still have time I’ll circle back and do more episode sets.

When I cut down the number I already decided that I should do a “personal top 10″ in the future. There’s only one slight problem with that – I already have 11 on my ‘cut down’ list. Maybe I’ll have to do top 15 instead, might just be able to keep it to that, possibly.

This show man haha.

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OMG OMG OMG you guys.

I finished Fall of Camelot!!!

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(you know you’ve been on tumblr too long when success looks like this gif ^^)

Seriously when I decided I would try and finish it so I could start something new for Camp that was back on *checks* the 8th of this month. I had the first scene and a bit already written. I was a little bit dubious but I’d estimated it would be about 20k when it was done so I figured it was doable.

It clocked in at 53k pretty much. More than 30k longer than I’d thought and I still managed to write The End. Now I almost wrote this much in a month last November with Our Darkest Hour but otherwise it’s probably been 5 years, and it definitely has been five years since I last finished an original story.

Now it sucks. I mean it’s the most awful first draft to ever be drafted. I should really burn it in fire but it’s a start. Later this year I can tear it to pieces in revision. It’s a step along the road – I finally made the first step (again). You know I never thought I would. It had been so long and I’d barely written for years. I thought I was done, that I’d never get back to here.

The last time I was writing a lot (original and fanfic) was when I was in my heady obsession days of rumbelle. At the moment I’m thoroughly entranced with Sanctuary (and OT3: Haunted). Apparently I require an obsession for my writing muscles to start to flex, even for completely unrelated work.

Anyway I get one day to go over my planning documents and then Thursday (the 1st) is the start of Camp NaNo and the beginnings of a brand new novel. Let’s see how much I can do next month 🙂