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Ok it’s been a day…

It’s only been a day? For real it feels longer. I only watched Picard yesterday? Sounds fake but ok.

So it’s been a day and I am getting mad all over again because THE ENTERPRISE!?!! Really?

It’s visceral how wrong this feels and I’m struggling to articulate it.

Kirk had the Enterprise first in terms of The Original Series. Chronologically obviously Archer was first. Naming the first ship Enterprise, and that becoming a flagship thing makes sense. TNG is literally named ‘The Next Generation’ so of course. It was literally designed to show the adventures of the next Enterprise and crew. With Pike (and SNW) we technically have had 4 series surrounding the Enterprise. Four.

Seven originated on Voyager. That was a literal ship of outsiders because they were stranded far from StarFleet. I know a ‘maverick’ Captain of the Enterprise is hardly unusual. I mean it’s the spot for the absolute best and I don’t deny that’s Seven but at this point in the Trek timeline it’s a handicap. The Enterprise is nothing but legacy and history and baggage. I’m unsurprised because rumours are at least the working title of a spin-off (if not the actual title) is Star Trek: Legacy – like no just no.

It’s a cage. It’s a box. It’s a prison.

Seven is her own character. It does her such tremendous disservice to shackle her command to the Enterprise and the inevitable comparison to all the other Captain’s. Hell the Stargazer for all that was a legacy ship of sorts would have been a much better choice. Doesn’t have the same weight.

If nothing else Strange New Worlds will hopefully still be airing. Do we really want two shows about adventures on the Enterprise, at the same time?

Let her be free. Give it a ghost of legacy if they must. Make it be the Stargazer, or the Excelsior as Captain Harry Kim has got promoted to Admiral, but not the Enterprise. Just because Seven is a ‘legacy’ character doesn’t mean she can’t tread new ground. Really the only legacy thing I want them to do is actually develop and have some continuity with the dropped plot threads. Laris who? I will never be over that.

I mean with how bloody badly they treated Seven and Raffi this past season I don’t even want a spin-off anymore. But if it’s going to happen they are already off to a bad start.

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magicmumu2 asked: 

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Thank you for the ask! ❤️

Share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

I’m not really writing at the moment at all. I’ve been in a bad place mentally for most of this year. I had such big plans too which is gutting. My first priority was to finish my NaNo novel from last year. I do love that story. It’s Book One of a steampunk trilogy. Inspired by Bering and Wells 😉 I’ve not got very far towards finishing it, there’s at least 30k left as it’s going to be long. I think 100k when it’s done. No idea when I will be in the mental space to get back to it.

I have been trying to do art. Though that hasn’t been going all that well either. The Year of the OTP gave me so many ideas, and I got a Leverage Bingo card (more ideas) and I already had so many. Plus with how season three of Picard went I am fairly desperate to make something Saffi related to ease my heart. Seven and Raffi deserved better dammit.

A big problem is actually picking the project. I am better with deadlines. Case in point today I did actually post for the Bering and Wells Big Bang. Unfortunately the Bingo deadline is nearly up and I have mentally written it off already 🙄

So many ideas and so few spoons. Plus I keep putting stuff off in the hope I will develop my skills, so when I do the thing, I might actually do it justice. I had a bunch of Saffi ideas last year that I never drew because I wanted to improve first. A year later (still not improved due to lack of practice as I have not done the courses I said I should do first) and yeeeeah no further forward.

Anyway I was supposed to be saying about what excited me about a WIP and this is a ramble in actually trying to work out what the hell that could be. My apologies.

I suppose what I like about the art WIPs is breaking out the supplies. I have a lot of mental resistance to starting but it is so satisfying seeing something I made on paper. It didn’t exist and then I made marks and now there’s a picture. Probably not a very good picture but it’s still making something from nothing. I get a bit of a thrill from that. It’s like magic 🙂

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purlturtle asked: 

🪄 and 🤲 for the fic writer’s asks please!

what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you’ve finished a fic?

I’m not so good at any of this 😂 I’m much better at moving the goal posts. Like I’ll say “finish X” but then once I have there’s another story, another task etc. I never feel like I have done enough, or done it quickly enough, or done it well enough. And that’s just doing the task. Sharing the thing… so much anxiety.

Obviously I make what I make because I personally like it, so I’m the target audience. I can’t say I always enjoy the process because it is often a struggle, a crisis of confidence as I never feel good enough, but I want it to exist. I also hope that it brings somebody joy. For all that I don’t share my work for the attention I am only human and after I post I desperately want some kind of recognition. Screaming into the void is lonely. I worked hard. I want somebody to see that, I guess I just want someone to care. Which is needy probably and not very healthy because it depends on other people.

So to summarise I don’t really deal with this very well at all.

what do YOU get out of writing?

A poison nightmare?

Sorry that’s a little snarky and also more than a little negative. I can’t do so many things. I am a depressed, anxious mess. Writing is simultaneously my hope for a future, and so much pain and fear. I am terrified I can’t do it and I will never be good enough, I will never get to where I need to be. I have lots of ideas and I want to see them realised. I would like to share them with the world. But are they actually any good? Even if the ideas are, will my skill ever be at a level where I can do them justice?

I once said that if I couldn’t write, then I was less than nothing because writing was the only thing I had left. It was my one chance to make a future for myself. But honestly as time goes by the hope gets chipped away and I have no faith left.

Obviously this is written with original work in mind because all of this mess in my head ^^ is why I quit fanfic. I was using fanfic as a crutch. Telling myself that so long as I was doing something, that was better than nothing, but really I was avoiding. Hiding. Not to say that fanfic didn’t bring me joy because of course it did. But it took a hell of a lot of time and effort and as short on spoons as I am, I knew I wasn’t spending them wisely.

Writing is hope, it is dreams, it is life. So what do I get out of writing? Mostly fear, so so much fear, with a side order of self-hate. I want it too much and everytime I fail, it gets harder to conjure up the self-faith to persist and try again.

#not the answer you wanted I am sure but I am always honest

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regionalpancake:

quasi-normalcy:

ralfmaximus:

quasi-normalcy:

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Jack Crusher is like…the textbook definition of Mediocre White Guy We’re Supposed to Hold in Awe

“This is my original character; he’s the son of Captain Picard and Dr. Crusher; he’s an awesome rogue who drinks whisky and loves classic starships and gets all of the girls, and he can knock people out with one punch and get away with it because he’s so cool, but also he has daddy issues and childhood trauma. His eyes glow red when gets angry and he also has superpowers. And he’s also part Borg and part Changeling and part Pah’Wraith and part Armus. He’s dark and brooding and Seven of Nine likes him.”

A bunch of Trekkies who’ve spent the last six years calling Michael Burnham a “Mary Sue”: “Yeah! Finally! Real Star Trek!”

UPDATE: He’s the Borg Queen’s specialest drone, whatever that means! But he can get out of assimilation through force of will and the power of flashbacks to the last 2 days or so spent kind of bonding with his father. Starfleet waived that whole “Academy” requirement (and indeed that whole “post-secondary education in general” requirement) because of how AWESOME he is! Seven of Nine lets him sit on the bridge as her “special counselor” even though he’s only been an ensign for a day because he’s SUCH a Badass! Q comes back to announce that he’s going to put him on trial for the crimes of humanity!

I’m not joking by the way; literally all of these things actually happened in the series finale.

It really does feel like somebody’s AO3 fic with a $90 million budget.

That’s unfair! Lots of AO3 fics are good.

Dear fanfic writers,

The next time you doubt your work, when you second-guess your ideas, your understanding of the canon, or your skill as a wordsmith…

Remember that Star Trek: Picard Season 3 was a babyfic AU with a bonafide Mary Sue author self insert (whose mummy was Beverly Crusher and whose daddy was Picard) who was such a Very Special Boy that he made ensign in a year, and who strode confidently across the bridge and commanded “lay in a course for the AUTHOR’S NAME system!!”

Remember that. 

And then post your stuff to AO3

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Imposter syndrome is out.

Writing with confidence is in because look at what people got paid for!!

Write with joy ❤️ and yes post your stuff to AO3.

(via regionalpancake)

#I laugh so I don’t cry#if you ever need to feel better about yourself creatively this may help

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Ok Picard finale.

Spoilers below.

My expectations were very low. I had made a list of cynical predictions. I was scared as deep down I was worried it would be even worse. I really thought they might kill off Raffi and I just did not want to see that.

So actually in a lot of ways going into the finale expecting it to be terrible, I wound up almost pleasantly surprised. It was still not good but it was much better than my worst fears, so I ended the episode as a bit of a puddle of relief. It could have been so much worse.

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I have two things to say about the finale, #1 seven calls raffi, first as a joke, number one in bed and then it sticks, and #2 I’m pissed we didn’t get to hear her say her ship go line

I am guessing they didn’t want to “lock themselves into a line” in case the spin-off does happen and the creative team for that wants something different/they wanted to save the iconic first time for the new show.

Although as I said in my ramble I want a spin-off so badly just not like this, not how they treated the characters. I do not trust them so I do not want. I would much rather no spin-off than the queer-baiting and outright character assassination.

So big nope. I mean if they make it I will have to watch (at least at first) and then just be stressed and upset. As I have zero faith they would do it well.

I mean would they continue with the shit awful lighting? Maybe if they gave the spin-off to the SNW team it might be ok. I mean that show has its definite issues too. Although for the most part I do love it but at least I can see everyone.

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Ok I am undecided about the Picard finale. Up until now I have almost welcomed spoilers to soften the blow a bit. US gets it tomorrow, I will get it (UK) day after.

But I am so damn heartsick already I don’t know if I can take it. If I login and see something truly terrible…

Is it worse to see, to then have to wait, and then have to watch knowing what is to come?

Or it is worse just waiting, not knowing how bad it is, and then watching it unfold with no warning?

I really don’t know 🙁

Honestly I am trying to remember the last time I felt this damn upset about a TV show. It’s been a while. It’s disappointment really more than anything else. I mean whatever happens the characters will live on in my heart happily. But just ugh. What’s happening on screen is… they deserved better.

Strange New Worlds: Season Two (Trailer)

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#this made me smile this made me laugh this made me happy for 2 mins#I can actually see what’s going on they have lightbulbs! no honestly in all seriousness this is the antidote I needed#it’s comfort it’s happy and I am counting the days#slightly worried Kirk will take up too much screentime but that atm is my only concern#my faves are coming back I just like ahhhh I love them

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Ok buckle up it’s story time. I’ve been musing on the whole Jack Crusher thing on Picard and I have joked (as I have seen others do as well) being a fanfic OC, coming in and making everything be about him. Not to put shade on fanfic OC’s at all but what is fun in fanfic hits a little different on screen in canon. But anyway I am getting off topic and possibly digging myself a hole I don’t mean. So moving on!

It made me remember Warehouse 13 because for reason beyond all understanding they suddenly gave Artie a son in the show finale. A son that he hadn’t known about, and I can’t quite recall how old the son was when he learned. The implication seemed to be that they had one adventure snagging an artifact and there had been pretty much no contact before or since which I guess explained why this phantom son had never been mentioned before??? Except not really because damn Artie makes you look seriously bad. I suppose it was “oh the warehouse is dangerous” but ugh anyway I was more annoyed that this plot thread had just been dropped in the finale! Like why? Can’t do anything with that. It was so weird to come up with something so huge and then show ended, nothing to see here.

So obviously my fanfic writer brain started chewing on this and wondering how to make it interesting. So yeah true fanfic OC time because why the hell not? It is undeniably fun. Also I never wrote this so it exists only in my brain for my own amusement, and now potentially yours by summary if I ever get to the point.

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Thoughts on SNW’s S2 Trailer!!!!

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“I’m from space”

KIRK YOU GREW UP IN IOWA

I am guessing it’s time travel but c’mon 🤣

So there’s a new character (lady with curly hair).

Love that Number One did the voiceover. Think it’s somewhat hilarious that she’s back with zero nod to the fact that she ended the finale being taken off figuratively in cuffs. Feels like she could be back with nothing more than a “good to have you back sentence” and honestly I am ok with that. She’s my favourite character so it would have sucked to have had her off screen for any episodes.

Love that Ortegas got to do some fancy flying. Hope they get more to do in season 2. They are almost my fave (very close second).

Spock did make me laugh out loud with his “I want the ship to go now” comment 😂

Honestly this looks amazing and just the antidote I need. It’s like comfort and happiness and I am counting the days ❤️

Only thing I am a bit meh over is Kirk. Hope he doesn’t suck too much screentime.