I did what I said I was going to do and started from the beginning, going through and marking where it wasn’t right and fixing it. I’ve moved paragraphs about, I’m adding at least 2 new scenes (I’ve marked where they are going). Helen’s reaction has completely changed (less denial, more internal screaming).
And it’s helping it flow. I’m finding it easier to write now. I’m still nowhere near done with the fixing but already I feel better about it. Why didn’t I do this a couple of weeks ago? Honestly I actually said this about Our Darkest Hour, that I was re-reading the prior scene before beginning and tweaking things and that maybe I shouldn’t, but it helped get me into it – well if it helps then roll with it stupid!
Anyway, I’m now actually feeling a bit more like this story might happen. It won’t be done when I wanted but I’m slightly more hopeful that it will be done at some point. So yay! 🙂
Words Written: 1,135 Current Total: 13,830 (this will still shift as I alter more things)
Ok words were a struggle and all over the place today.
This fic is giving me fits. Part of me thinks I should just start over from the beginning. I’m not getting the vibe I want from it. Revision usually comes after the first draft (need to see the whole picture, to know how to fix it accurately) but there’s also something to be said for crooked foundations building bad houses.
If I know it’s not right and I’m still near the beginning, isn’t it better to stop and fix it now? I’m just frustrated because I had wanted to finish this month and I don’t feel that far forward. I was hoping basically for a repeat of how awesome November was and yeah not happened.
Part of the problem I think is I keep running into stuff I don’t know, researching as I go and then it feels all disjointed. Like it doesn’t flow because I’m dripping information into the wrong scene. Also the pacing is off.
I started and scrapped three scenes today. It’s been that kind of day. Annoying.
Still I guess if I can’t move forward, then my only choice is to go back over it and try and fix it. I’ll attempt that tomorrow.
Words Written: 576 Current Total: who knows at this point
I can’t believe they played the “these are the voyages” music – that’s for Enterprise! I was like ??? wrong ship dudes. Still that was pretty cool, I mean that is the iconic Trek music.
Little bit sad that Tilly didn’t get more of a hero moment. It was mainly Michael’s show with a side order of Book. Don’t get me wrong that was cool but I just feel bad for Tilly, her first time in the Captain’s chair and that’s what happens. I really wanted her to kick more butt somehow. She was great in keeping it together, and firm about what needed to be done. I guess the vibe I got was more teamwork, rather than that of a Captain leading.
Don’t think I’ve said this before (though it’s been obvious for ages) but OMG are they ever going to confirm Detmer and Owosekun as girlfriends? Because they are totally girlfriends. I thought maybe at first I was reading too much into it and it was just platonic but with the mirror!verse hinting at Detmer/Michael, and then the finale – nope girlfriends.
I love that they saw Gray and I also LOVE that they totally took it to eleven with Stamets actually saying out loud “yeah I have a kid” and Culber was such a dad to Adira and Gray. Their family is the best and Stamets is never going to forgive Michael – is he going to forgive the Admiral? I mean the Admiral agreed with Michael after all, perhaps that’s why Stamets hasn’t tried to transfer off Discovery because what difference does it make? When the head of Starfleet made the same call, anywhere in the fleet would be the same.
You know when I saw gifsets of Michael knocking him out and Stamets pleading “my whole life is in that nebula” I kinda hated Michael a teeny bit. Now I’ve actually seen it in context, I get more why Michael made that call. Stamets was just reacting emotionally (which was completely understandable!) but his only thought was for Culber whom he’d already lost once. So I see more both sides now. I hope Culber talks to Stamets about it and can help him with it because the bitterness/resentment will only hurt him in the end.
That was certainly a ride and a fourth season – and a fourth new Captain for Discovery – as Michael now finally has the big chair. I am a bit curious as to how season 4 will pan out but I imagine something will happen, as it did in the first episode of season 2, which will kickstart next seasons storyline.
Oh and new uniforms! I’m not overly keen. They don’t look as easy to move in as the form-fitting blue ones. At least though they are still jacket and trousers (I side-eye the one-piece Picard-era uniforms so much). It looks like season 4 won’t be until 2022 so I’ll need to be patient. Looking forward to it though!
You know I said I was going to do daily writing status posts again.
And I haven’t.
I also haven’t been writing very much.
Is there a causal link? I don’t know. The lack of writing means I’m not making the post, but if I knew I had to make the post would I then write? This feels like a “if a tree falls in the forest and nobody hears it, does it still make a sound?” type question.
Anyway I am still working on Choosing Fate. It’s a hot mess right now. I know I said that about Our Darkest Hour but this is way worse. I’m a bit annoyed with it to be honest because writing fanfic is supposed to be my ‘easy’ project and this is being frustratingly difficult. I’ve had soooooo many days where I’ve only written a sentence or two (as I’m trying to avoid zero days). The only reason I wrote a chunk today is because it’s challenge day on WriYe and I make special effort for those.
So today in Choosing Fate Helen and James strolled along the seafront, trying to get to know one another better. I wasted a fair bit of time researching Victorian seafront holidays haha. It’s 1875, I keep catching myself going “wait, did they have that back then” and having to go check.
Tomorrow probably more of the same but maybe we’ll skip along a day or three. They are there two weeks after all and it would get boring if I tried to show too much of that. They need to get back to London – Helen needs to meet John.
I love Michael I seriously do but her questioning Saru’s objectivity?
Bwahaha that’s just hypocritical and hilarious.
Michael is like the least objective person around a lot of the time. But then she does kinda seem to feel like she has the monopoly on what the right thing to do is. Like when she breaks the rules it’s fine because she knows best but others? Nah.
To be honest I think that’s a hero trait. I’ve been thinking about Once Upon a Time last few days, I don’t know why, and the heroes in that had the same kind of hypocrisy. Please don’t get me wrong I do love Michael, I’m just calling it how I see it.
Tilly in the Captain’s chair whoo *pumps fist* the admiral wasn’t sure about it but I’m certain Tilly will prove herself. Everyone underestimates her because she’s friendly, and nervous and babbles a lot; they don’t think she’s as smart as she is or as capable. But Tilly has hidden depths, a core strength. This is her challenge, this is her hour.
It’s amazing how much Saru’s actor can emote through the makeup. Stripped back to human he actually looks far more like Saru than I expected.
I love how snarky Tilly is. How did they transport onboard though? I thought shields blocked that, I know they were only at 50% or so but that should have been enough. I mean my understanding was the shields are the same at lower % but they can’t take many more hits before they run out of power. So I don’t really get it.
Anyway that’s an annoying cliffhanger. I hope Tilly finds a way to get the ship back or she’ll forever think she’ll make a terrible captain with this her first experience out the gate.
Ok I’m still not over how Jim Brass just popped up on Star Trek Discovery, with Q like powers, and then made a stargate and peaced out.
The bowler hat kinda made it.
I like how Saru didn’t ask he just went “then she is deceased” because cosmic deity with portal power does seem like something to keep on the down low. The tribute at the end was nice though I wish Michael had passed on Georgiou’s sentiments regarding the crew but maybe they knew? As she did tell Tilly in person at least which was nice.
Though if he sent her back in time to just after Discovery jumped (aka just reversing her leap to the future) wouldn’t she then be in the history logs? But if she went to a parallel universe then wouldn’t that be just as bad? I guess the Section 31 show will answer that one.
Oh and I know it was the Terran evil mirror universe but I really didn’t like how Culber didn’t react to Stamet’s dying, didn’t try and save him or anything. Their love should transcend universes.
I know it’s the 20th. Trust me I know. I’ve been panicking about how far we’re into the month for days now. But it’s ok because I finally started on January’s drawing… (it’s really not ok)
OMG I know I say this everytime but this is literally the worst thing ever. I sort of have a pose in mind but I can’t get it right. I went looking for more references and hopefully I can sort it out.
Seriously I’ve been thinking since practically day three of the month that I should be getting on with this if I want to finish it this month and now there’s 10 days left! Yeah I really should have left myself some more time /cries.
I even went and took selfies of myself in the kind of pose I was thinking of (and I loathe pictures of myself so much) as an initial reference as I thought that would be more accurate. However, there is only one of me and this is a pose that is heavy on the embrace. So that trick which I used to help me with the hand positioning on December’s drawing wasn’t so helpful in this case.
I just want to produce the picture in my head. Why is that so hard?
I’ve just worked out what was bothering me so much about WandaVision. It was Vision with his whole “I don’t eat food” thing when I am sure I clearly remember him cooking (and tasting from the spoon) in Civil War. I think he said it needed more of some kind of spice? And he would go to the store to get it. He was cooking the dish for Wanda to cheer her up and she wanted to go to the store but he had to say it was better she didn’t leave the tower.
So in that context making such a big thing about not eating seems odd to me. Maybe he didn’t taste it, maybe I’m misremembering but it still seems like it shouldn’t be that big a deal.
I could be wrong because it’s been a while since I saw the movie, but I think what was happening in that scene is he was trying to cook something for Wanda, and when she tasted it she corrected him saying what he put in “wasn’t paprika” and he alludes to the fact that he wouldn’t be able to tell
He said in that scene “in my defense I’ve never actually eaten food” when she made a funny face after SHE tasted it. He sniffed it and he didnt really protest when she said “I dont know what this is but its not paprika”, which leads me to believe he has no taste buds and wouldn’t know the difference even if he had. She might’ve been lying to get away but his response tells me it doesn’t matter. He doesnt eat. He doesn’t taste. He doesnt need to.
@jaythefangirl250 @bloopme911 thanks for clarifying that for me! My stupid memory doh.
I have a cursed gifset I need to make in my free time tomorrow.
I know it’s jumping the queue a bit but I know precisely what scenes I need for it so that beats “idea for gifset, scenes not included” which makes up most of the list right now.
I have feelings. Why is it the cursed characters that are always so damn relatable? Bloody hell.
I don’t think watching “Mack and D’s excellent adventure” after WandaVision was the best idea. This was Agents of Shield’s experimental season and this episode is weird as hell.
Mack’s fake beard was terrible. The gore from the robot saw was crazy. But the show still came at me with the feels. Honestly Mack nearly made me cry. Part of me wishes that Yo-Yo could have been there for him but the rest of me remembers post-framework. Mack lashed out in his pain and grief and it hurt them both.
I’m confused as to how Nathaniel survived. Also confused as to how Jemma had worked out how long the jump will be and made some kind of watch? As I thought the time jumps were instant so it was 20 months for Mack and Deke and no time at all for them. But perhaps next episode will explain it.
Deke never really has got the whole operational security thing. He invited his people to the base in the future and remodelled a lab for them to work out of without Mack knowing. His heart is definitely in the right place though. He wants to do the right thing. That scene in the bar with the song though went on way too long though I nearly fast forwarded.
OK I had to watch another to find out.
OMG Jemma managed to work out the pattern in 20 minutes? I love her! Seriously I am so predictable with my faves. I love scientists.
Oh that scene with Elena just grabbing the diviner and then going “oh it’s a prosthetic” was great. May having to be Elena’s emotional guide was great. I love May and her reaction was just brilliant. Friends and comrades. Sparring, fighting to a breakthrough is just so them.
Jemma making Fitz a video broke my heart. Oh Yo-Yo is like Quicksilver now, that’s cool and helpful. I love that Jemma got Sousa a new prosthetic leg. He’s properly one of the team now. I feel bad for Coulson he’s having a self crisis over what he is. I hope he watches some Star Trek and hears Picard saying to Data about how we’re all machines just in different forms.
I am a bit worried over how much the timeline has changed. Surely that’s created a new reality by this point? Or several like what happened in Endgame with the avengers time adventure. How will they get back home to Fitz?
