I just want you to be happy, even if it isn’t with me.
Neal Cassidy (via still-searching47)
#the true meaning of love#wanting happiness for the person you love no matter what#that’s true love
^^^^^
Main reason why Neal was too precious to be killed off.
(via sarashouldbestudying)
Love isn’t selfish. The old cliche, if you love someone then let them go. Neal wanted what was best for Emma, not what was best for him.
I love this quote. It’s true love in a single sentence.
I was just reading the last post I reblogged and it reminded me of a conversation I’d had with someone recently. They asked me the other day if I liked going to see movies with other people. I said that in terms of actually watching the movie, going with them added nothing.
I come out wanting to discuss:
– motives, feelings, interactions between characters.
– I would have whole theories about the fictional universe.
– the musical score, and how parts of it repeated in certain segments to link/echo different scenes.
– wardrobe choices, or wardrobe mirroring, so characters complement or clash.
– how scenes were shot e.g. closeup or wide and why that choice was made, and how it changed the complexion of the scene
and I do this naturally, without really thinking about it. This is just how I watch. My instinct is to dissect. I don’t do it for everything. I mean there are some things that I just enjoy for what they are, and when they are done, I don’t think about them anymore. However, those are things I can take or leave, I don’t really care about them.
With anything I care about my focus is always on the characters. I’m a big fan of suspending disbelief and treating the characters like people. That means I don’t get to argue about what happened, it’s fact. The characters get the lions share of my attention. However, I’m not ignorant of cinematographic choices or how they are designed to manipulate us to think/feel certain ways.
The other people I go with on the other hand come out saying “well x character was hot” “that was a fun explosion” and they are done. They don’t think about things like I do, or anywhere near the depth that I do. To be honest I don’t know anyone in real life that thinks like I do. In fact, I think I could probably exhaust most people, by my willingness to discuss things in depth.
This is why I blog, so I can talk at my screen all the things that I think and get it out of my system without bothering anyone. I’m a writer though, maybe I’m predisposed to analyse everything and find meaning.
How do you do it? I’m being sincere.
I want to be positive. I adore Rumbelle. I love Bobby. I love Emilie.
But I can’t stand the writers. Or the writing. 99% of what I see on my screen infuriates me. Spoilers just make me angrier.
But I love Rumbelle. How do I enjoy that when I only get 1% of what I want? If that.
Booze
Fanfic
Bobbys eyes
All three plus a side of denial.
Headcanon
I appear to have written a bit of an essay, on how headcanon works for me – oops. Basically it’s just headcanon though. If I can explain it, I can accept it.
Nothing has happened on the show thus far, that I haven’t managed to explain to myself, so that it makes sense. I created an image of who the characters were in my head, back in season one/two and that’s fixed. I make everything I watch consistent with the characters personalities. I give them motives, reasons. I link back to other stuff in canon. Every time they come up with a new flashback, I fit it in the timeline I’ve built in my mind, of when stuff happened.
I basically create my own coherent narrative. When it out and out doesn’t make sense, I have to do some mental athletics but there’s a way round most things. If it makes sense in my head, then I’m ok with it. The writers own the show on the screen, they don’t own the show in my head.
I read spoilers but I don’t worry about them. Without context it’s hard to know anything for sure. I find it interesting to be honest because obviously I generate theories based on what information I have. I then get to see how far off base I was. I write long rambling blog posts dissecting motives, and speculating on the impact decisions will make on other characters/events.
The show gives me raw material. It is pure potential. Sure, sometimes, it feels a bit like I’ve slipped into an alternate reality because what happens, just doesn’t match up with the characters. That’s when the mental athletics start. We only see a fraction of events on screen. I fill in the other 99%.
I love the show because of it’s potential, because of the rich deep characters and the fascinating world. It’s only 40 minutes an episode, and that is split between a massive cast. Even if the writing was perfect, I’d be adding a ton. It’s what I do. I watch and I imagine.
So I’m positive about the show. Sometimes it’s the canon they gave me, not the canon I would have liked e.g. when they killed off Neal. I watch a show and I suspend disbelief, I go for immersion in as much as I ‘believe it’s real’. Obviously it’s not, but I can hardly complain about the writing, because that’s what happened, those are the characters.
I make it work. If I get angry, I get angry at the characters for the choices they make, and then the anger usually stops because once I understand someone and why they did it, then I can’t be angry anymore. With understanding comes acceptance, for me anyway.
I’m used to liking secondary characters. Hell I made it through five seasons of Alias and I couldn’t stand Sydney or Vaughn but I absolutely loved Jack, Irina, Sark, Marshall, Weiss etc. I accept whatever tiny little morsels I get from the show. Do I wish it was more? Hell yeah! But, I work with whatever I get.
I’m with this show until the end.
Beautifully said! (Canon divergent) Headcanons are definitely life-savers. If you make them strong enough and air-tight to a degree, they can easily become more believable to you than the actual show. This is how I have survived two and a half seasons of OUaT and the last season of The Flash. Excellent point, @still-searching47 !!
Oh thanks!
I’m not sure what you mean by canon divergent. I would describe my headcanons as canon-compliant because they don’t contradict canon. I suppose they are canon-divergent in a way because the show has never said one way or another, about those things. It’s like canon-extra. Wow, terms are hard heh. Can we get a dictionary? 🙂
Basically in my mind so long as the show doesn’t contradict the explanation I come up with (and if it does, I create a new one), then my headcanon might be true. That’s what I meant by making canon work for me, I work with it, to make the canon make sense. It bolts on, doesn’t replace. I believe in the actual show, not an alternate version.
Although I do create alternate versions as well – I love canon divergence! 🙂 This show is filled with moments where you can go “what if?” and then speculate about how stuff played out differently. I love doing that, playing cause and effect. I watch a lot of TV but there’s only a handful of shows that I think about after the episode ends, only a few that have enough depth and potential to stay with me. This show is nowhere near perfect but it has that depth, which makes it my favorite currently airing show.
@still-searching47, I absolutely love your approach to it. The showrunners may have created this show, but they don’t exclusively own it. Not anymore. As soon as they put it out there for us (the audience) to consume, it became ours. There’s a quote about writing that I heard somewhere, that says something like: ‘The writer only writes half the story. The other half is written by the reader.’ (Don’t remember who said that or I’d give credit.) I think it’s a very similar situation with TV shows, especially the ones with uneven characterization or problematic plots, like OUaT.
I’d also like to add that when you not only watch a show, but you’re also involved in the fandom–like I expect that everyone reading this is–then the show canon is only a fraction of the experience. Not only b/c you can fill in the rest of the story in your own head, but also b/c the show experience extends to discussions with other fans, the wait each week for script teases and sneak peeks, reading fanfic and appreciating fanart, and the friends we all make b/c we have this show in common. All of that combines to make the total fandom experience, and keeps me enjoying OUaT and Rumbelle no matter how much damage the writers do.
This ^^ just this ^^ 🙂
You just said what I tried to say, in a far more eloquent and succinct fashion. I just liked the post but I’m reblogging as well because yes this ^^.
I’m procrastinating and really shouldn’t be writing this but this is too gorgeous to pass up. It’s Rushbelle, sorry, not sorry 🙂
Professor Nicholas Rush hates conferences. He loves his work but he hates having to explain himself. If people don’t understand, then it’s a waste of his time trying to explain it. He accepts that level of idiocy from his students, but from his peers, it’s just frustrating.
Rush especially hates conferences, when they are just blatant ‘jollies’ such as holding the conference in Hawaii. It’ll be 90% procrastination and 10% math, he would have preferred to stay home but the university insisted he went. His reputation within his field was worth it to them.
The afternoon he arrived, he made the best mistake of his life – he went for a walk on the beach. There, walking on the sand, was a sea nymph come to life, a mermaid walking out of the water, an angel fallen from the sky. Rush has never been a poetic man, numbers mean more than words, and she has perfect equation written all over her. Her smile is brighter than the sun and the warmth sinks through him, easier than the heat of the sand through his shoes.
Please make them meet 5 minutes later in the shop both buying swim gear. Pretty please.
Ask and you shall receive 🙂
Ten minutes later and Rush had found a store that sold swimming gear. He wrinkled his nose in distaste. Did all of the trunks have to be Hawaiian print? They were loud, colorful and nothing he would wear in a million years. Didn’t they have any solid color trunks?
“Excuse me,” Rush said to the assistant behind the counter. “What do you have in a solid color?”
He held up one of the distasteful pairs, this one had palm trees all over it, against a set of crashing waves. Honestly, who would wear something like this, unless they lost a bet, or it was for money? They were ridiculous.
So quick. So perfect. So ..so..i need to lie down now. Thank you soooooooo much.
Oh no, I hope I didn’t kill you with the fluff heh. It’s probably a good idea for me to stop now anyway. I’m supposed to be working and if I wrote more, then that would just be more procrastination.
Anyway, I was thinking the next scene should be Belle going back to the hotel and maybe Samantha Carter asking where she was, saying that there’s not long left until the next lecture etc. I thought about using someone else from Storybrooke for Belle’s friend, like Ariel maybe, but I couldn’t picture her at a maths conference.
Belle admits that she went shopping for a new swimsuit. Carter blinks in surprise and says “you came to Hawaii without a suit?” and Belle blushes and says no, but the only suit she brought had shorts built into it, because she thought she might try surfing while she was here. The suit was not exactly sexy and she has a swim date later with this really attractive guy. She then laughs and says that she ran into Rush buying a swim suit of his own and maybe he came to Hawaii without one, she’ll have to ask him later.
Please no self, don’t make another thing /slaps self
Oh dear. Can’t even image Rush in palm tree print trunks!
No neither can I really. He didn’t want them, he wanted a nice plain pair. However, Belle said they’d match and he just bought them automatically after that. Thanks for commenting!
I’m actually cleaning this one up at the moment. Making some notes about what I want to add to flesh it out. So if there’s anything you want to be included, prompt while there’s still time 🙂
A summary post of what happened last month fic-wise, and my plans for the forthcoming month, because I can’t hit a target, if I can’t see it.
Previous Status: July
Works posted in July:
– Learning Curve (RCIJ fic)
– The War Within (Alternate season six, WIP)
– Chapter Three
– Chapter Four
– Chapter Five
– Chapter Six
– Chapter Seven
– Painting Layers of Love (AU romance, WIP)
– Chapter One
Coming up definitely in August:
– The next five chapters of The War Within (posted every Tuesday)
– The rest of Painting Layers of Love, so it gets completed.
What I hope August might bring:
– A couple more chapters of The War Within should there be that many (posted on Friday’s)
– The Rush/Carter oneshot because it’s a oneshot and then I can clear it off my list, which always feels good.
– The first chapter of Nightwalkers (based on this discussion thread)
– A fic based on the A Monthly Rumbelling Event if I am inspired by any of the prompts.
I know I said that I hoped July would bring the first chapter of Nightwalkers and that didn’t happen. That makes me sad because I am really excited by this idea and the side of Swanfire I want to include. I planned out the general arc the other day while I was waiting for someone. I don’t know if anyone else ever gets this but I have to write this fic, because I really really want to read it. Is that weird?
Sadly Ripple Effect, my Rushbelle fic, has been put on the backburner for the time being. I really want to write it but not enough hours in the day! As I said in a random writing thoughts post I’m worried about maintaining a consistent posting schedule with multiple WIP’s. Painting Layers of Love wasn’t intended to be a WIP, it was an accidental WIP and I hope to finish it, and get it off deck, as soon as possible. I’m not committing to a regular posting schedule for it because I just don’t know how much I’ll be able to manage.
Finding out what I could manage, and increasing it, was the theory behind adding Friday as an optional posting day for The War Within. 1) I will be able to finish The War Within faster. 2) It will push me to up my game and write more each week, which is something I’ve now inadvertently forced by adding the accidental WIP.
Basically we’ll have to see what happens.
@bookwormchocaholic reblogged your photo:mamabeckett-enchanted-forest-au-after
I didn’t want to reblog again and spam up that gifset with talking about a WIP which is best case scenario still months away from being written. However, your “do it!” made me wonder if you had read my tags that I put on the gifset. Something like that is on my list.
It’s part of a Rumbelle fic, working title Rule Number Three (after the NCIS Gibbs rule – don’t believe what you are told, double check). Basically Belle prompts Rumple to check that Bae is in the land without magic, and discovers he’s in Neverland. He rescues him from there, and then obviously doesn’t need the dark curse anymore – so it never gets cast. Everything changes from then.
It’s incredibly angsty for Swanfire because Snow and Charming are very disapproving. Bae is the son of the dark one, for all that Rumple is supposedly reformed and the consort of the Queen of Avonlea. After twenty years ruling a kingdom, they want a more appropriate match for the daughter. It’s like no matter how much you try and avoid your fate, it still finds you. Henry is born, Regina helps raise him (after she is woken from the sleeping curse, she placed herself under, because she couldn’t get her revenge on Snow) etc.
I have the whole thing planned out, I just need to find time to write it. Although it is quite funny. I realized when I was looking through my Rumbelle WIP plans, that in every single fic Rumbelle share true loves kiss. In this fic, they aren’t the only ones, there’s possibly two other true loves kisses as well. I’m a sucker for happy endings.
Enchanted Forest AU: After returning from Neverland, Bae meets the princess in his secret hideaway that he has made in the forest to keep his father from finding him. Over the years, they fall in love in hidden, secret places and vow to find a way to be together without the cover of the trees and the night sky to shield them.
#a fic that I would like to write one day#I actually have this in Rule Number Three#only it’s incredibly angsty for swanfire#Snow and Charming are very disapproving
Synopsis: Alternate Season Six. Storybrooke is visibly under threat once more from Hyde and the Evil Queen. However, not all threats are visible as an old forgotten foe has been manipulating events from behind the scenes. The very nature of darkness is revealed as everyone struggles with the most difficult beast of all – acceptance.
Note: Here’s the promised Friday chapter! I feel I should apologize for the length of Morgan’s quest, I got rather carried away. However, unlike the show, if I spend time on a guest star it doesn’t take away screentime from the main characters – it’ll just make the fic longer. For fans of Stargate SG1, you might recognize the test of bravery and self-sacrifice, it was the Asgard test for the Cimmerians in 2×06 Thor’s Chariot. Enjoy!
On Tumblr: Chapters One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six
~Flashback~
Ten Years Ago (outside the dark curse)“Are you sure about this?” Allison asked.
Morgan squeezed her hand reassuringly, as he warily eyed the cave entrance. He nodded firmly.
“Yes, it has to be done.”After he had found the map, with the location marked with an X, in Merlin’s tower, Morgan had gone home. He had found his wife and told her a version of the truth, that
he had to go on a quest and that he didn’t know when he would return. However, Allison had surprised him, and not just because she had found the map and
confronted him with it.The ‘not Zeus’ headcanon accepted! *Bangs gavel down*
Heh thanks!
The show actually contradicted themselves with Zeus, which is what gave me the idea. They showed the pages of the book, of Hades story on screen, and some lovely soul transcribed them for the show wiki. Zeus is described as a bear of a man, with muscles like tree trunks. That is not the Zeus we saw on screen, who looked practically like a teenager.
Hence it wasn’t Zeus. Hook didn’t ask any questions, just made assumptions and no-one else saw him. Made sense to me. Thanks for commenting! 🙂
I know Stargate SG1 gif, stay with me.
What were Emma and everyone terrified about when Greg smashed into town? That he would see magic and the secret of Storybrooke would be revealed to the world. After all, magic being real is kinda a big deal. The revelation that fairytale characters aren’t just in books, I’m thinking it would be like discovering aliens are real for instance.
However, make something fictional and even if people hear rumors about it, they will just laugh. They’ll say “that’s a TV show, not real life.” and they won’t believe whatever the crazy story is. On SG1 they had Wormhole Xtreme, to help provide cover for the Stargate program.
What if, we have Once Upon a Time to provide cover for the real Storybrooke? Obviously, I know we don’t, I’m talking a fic idea.
Someone, sold the idea to the networks and they ran with it. They changed some things, basically pick whatever storyline went in a direction you didn’t like, because they knew better what viewers would want.
Now, no-one on SG1 was offended by how their alter egos were portrayed. There was a lot of eye rolling at how unrealistic it was, but they took it in the spirit it was intended. Plus, it was the show within a show concept, which enabled them to joke about some missteps the show had made in the past, or make fun of sci-fi tropes etc. It was quite funny.
I’m just picturing movie night in Storybrooke, where the new season is about to start. They crowd around the TV and fight over the popcorn. They are all bickering over what has happened in the past, and their pet theories about what happens next. Teasing one another about how their alter egos do stuff (either because it’s accurate, or because it’s not). Basically just pure lighthearted family banter and bonding time.
Family fluff basically. No roasting of the writers for their choices, just showing the ‘reality’ vs the show, and everyone having fun with it.
I have read some fics with this sort of concept. However, they all had the characters taking offense to how they were portrayed on the show because it had gotten out of hand when they weren’t looking etc. I’m thinking something a lot more fun than that. Nobody takes offense, it’s all very positive and happy. I like fluff heh.
I am so tempted to write this but – so many fic ideas, so little time!
Do you ever see so many awesome gifsets cross your dash, that you want to watch a show you’d never considered watching before? It’s just the gifsets make it look so awesome. (Farscape I’m looking at you, why are you not on UK netflix?)
It’s Mitchell and Vala, yet not. I didn’t ship them at all on SG1 but man those Farscape gifsets are so compelling.
I’m semi-convinced it’s the gifsets that made me into an actual low-key Swanfire shipper. I always liked Neal because he was so damn important to everyone, but I could take or leave him and Emma until all the Swanfire hit my dash, suddenly it was just too sweet and now I ship them.
Tumblr what are you doing to me?