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There has really been a phenomenal amount of progress in the last couple of decades. Mostly I take the technological advances for granted, I’ve just absorbed them into my life and it’s the way things are. However, occasionally it hits me and I marvel at the changes in the world.

I’m of the generation that when I started with computers, if I wanted to move a file from one computer to another it was via floppy disk. I can hear the screams of people a few years older than me, yelling how lucky I was that tech was available.

Today I’m putting a presentation together that I have to do in class tomorrow. Yesterday I took some high fidelity pictures on my phone and I need to put them in the presentation. As I’ve grown I started with film cameras that had to be developed, then when I did move digital it was a specialised camera and massive, and the photos it produced (I still have them) are grainy and low res compared to todays phone – which does a million other things AND fits in my pocket!

Anyway back to the pictures. I don’t have to find a cable, I don’t have to deal with making the PC and phone talk to each other – it’s all in the cloud and it was stored there automatically. I didn’t have to do anything, I just took the photos, forgot about it, then today I boot up icloud and they are there for me.

A few months back I moved my music collection to the cloud, no more synchronising that takes forever and sometimes fails. I find a song I like on my phone and it’s in my library on the computer and vice versa. No matter where I am, or what device I’m on, I can pick up where I left off.

I don’t know it just super amazes me really what I take for granted so much of the time.

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jackabelle73 replied to your post “WIP Wednesday”

Thanks for posting this… I appreciate your willingness to talk about your difficulties and insecurities in your writing, b/c it reminds me that I’m not the only one. I’ll try to write up my own WIP Wednesday post later, assuming the munchkin sleeps long enough to allow it. Good luck with meeting your goals this month! You can do it! *waves pom-poms*

Thank you for this comment!

I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I read a book which was entirely about the author’s mindset and it had a section on admitting your feelings. It said though that there was a ‘shelf life’ for authors complaining about such things and that people would get sick of it. I always have that in mind, and I feel very self-conscious about posting anything negative/moaning.

Obviously it slips out sometimes, alright probably far more than it should, but seriously only a fraction gets posted. The number of posts I write and then cancel draft, or save to draft and then later delete is crazy. I guess I want to talk about what I’m doing because I’m insecure, I’m filled with self-doubt and I crave reassurance but there’s only so much that can be asked of veritable strangers, and I fear that I already ask far too much.

This creating business is a scary one and it can feel really lonely out there on that ledge, where one ventures when one dares to try.

WIP Wednesday

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So I totally missed Skin Deep day and TMI Tuesday on account of having a crap day in real life. Anyway, my WIP Wednesday this week is all about these two dorks ^^ and having “I hope that” in the gif is super appropriate because well this is all about my hopes for the upcoming months.

I tried to do WIP Wednesday last week but I couldn’t muster up the positivity. You see I do have an idea I want to do for AMR this month – a third instalment in the In Your Arms verse – but I started planning it for August’s AMR and my faith in myself to get shit done is at an all time low really.

BUT

It’s halfway through the month and while I have zero words written I do have a plan, and not 12% of a plan either, it’s more like 65% probably.

So that is (hopefully!) upcoming.

Then in my “drawing every month challenge” – January was the Big Bang, so that’s a Rumbelle drawing to be posted in March. Then March itself is going to be Rumbelle and so is April! I have the pieces picked out, I just hope I can do them justice, I’m a bit nervous :/

Yeah so I guess this is like my kinda homage to Skin Deep day, in that Rumbelle stuff is planned and is (hopefully!) happening. Side note: I do still have that half chapter of Painting Layers of Love that I should work on and finish. It’s problematic which is what made me take a break to begin with but when I can muster up the mental fortitude I’ll tackle it.

So yeah whoo Rumbelle! Hehe 🙂

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mariequitecontrarie  asked:

For the Fanfic Asks: F and G.

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

“You’re supposed to be dead.”

“I’m supposed to be a lot of things.”

from Between Two Fires and this original novel that I have rewritten half a dozen times now and just can’t make work. I think I will hang on to these two lines until I can get them into a novel somewhere, I love them to pieces.

Why? I don’t know it just sounds awesome in my head. Maybe it’s because dead is dead but they are walking around and so there’s an immediate mystery, maybe then it’s the cryptic leading smirk of the second comment (because there’s definitely a smirk there). It’s sort of like a shrug, self-deprecating yup, I’m supposed to be a lot of things – there is just such a world in those two lines, layers of meaning and heartbreak because it’s a betrayal, not just of love but of everything the betrayed (Gold in this case) believes in.

It’s a starting point, and it’s also a middle point, the old ‘in media res’ aka starting the story in the middle, so we’re right there and these two lines bring up questions and well I’m biased because they are my lines, but I feel an immediate investment because it’s not just questions – I have the feeling. I can hear the pain (or maybe I’ve just visualised the scene too many times I don’t know) but ugh bury me with these two lines. I just love them.

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

Start to finish. I’ve wished on many occasion to mix it up but my brain just won’t do it, it’s like it knows it’s not done and so it won’t move on. I guess I’m just very linear, my brain just won’t accept anything else.

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I was getting so annoyed earlier because Photoshop kept freezing. This is a relatively new PC it shouldn’t be doing that! It didn’t used to do that!

Turns out “didn’t use to” was fairly important and it was some software that came bundled with the monitor that was doing it. Not a problem I just close it down and everything works perfectly again – yay! 🙂

Also think I ‘might’ have had a slight breakthrough on blending. Not sure. I mean I’m looking at it now and thinking “mmm not so bad” but when I look next week I’ll probably go “ahhhh my eyes! they burn!”

Anyway I’m on track/ahead at least. Did I say here? I’m not sure, but my aim this year is to do one art piece per month. January was RBB which I can’t post until March (but I did it in January!), this month is Bering and Wells. Next month is a secret shhh hehe.

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I was playing Warcraft last night and out of the blue started sniggering. You see it was night time and a dark zone and previously just one of those was enough to set my teeth grinding and make me give up pretty quick.

It has been established for YEARS that I hate dark zones. I avoid them wherever possible and I absolutely could not understand my friend who liked them. They were horrible!

*cough*

I got a new monitor a couple of weeks back and playing on it is a trip anyway because it’s super-wide BUT I can actually see stuff in dark zones now. I assumed Dark = almost unplayable for everyone because I could barely make anything out. Turns out that was just my monitor and dark zones are not as dark as I though – it IS actually possible to see.

/facepalm

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I don’t know what it is with art but when I’m working on a project I lose all concept of time.

I’ll start and the next thing I know it is hours later – that’s hyperfocus I have that with other stuff too sometimes – but what makes art time so screwy is that I look at the piece and I can’t work out what took so long.

Like literally what was I doing for all that time? It should not have taken that long. It’s a real headscratcher.

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So I got Battle of Azeroth on release, 14th August google tells me. I played for like three weeks and then unsubbed as I had life stuff.

I resubbed last weekend because of life stuff and (this is the funny bit) *sniggers* ready for this?

I just hit 120 – twice.

You see my main, my beloved human paladin, had to hit 120 first but this expansion is all about the WAR, so I wanted to see both sides, so I was running my Horde Demon Hunter at the same time.

So yeah finally hit max level whoo hehe except! See there is an except 🙂 I’m only two zones into Kul Tiras, I literally haven’t touched the third zone, I hadn’t actually finished the second one when I dinged. I’m maybe halfway through the third zone in Zuldazar. Dungeons? Two on each side as when I finished the zones I did the dungeon that they led to – that’s it!

Doing loremaster, or whatever they call it these days, seems to max you out way before you are done.

Anyway this is amusing me because I hit max level and it’s a big so what? Because it makes zero difference. I still have the quests to do, the zones to complete. I’m running the storyline. I’ve had the quest in my log to choose my foothold since whenever it popped up and I’ve not touched it because one thing at a time. I’ve not done anything but quest. I have zero clue about islands, invasions, warfronts – any of that.

Basically how anything works is just a complete mystery to me. I’m currently pondering how I can get my hands on a shield so I can swap to prot spec if necessary, Legion totally spoiled me in that regard and I miss it #wantmylegendaryback (I’m still permanently transmogged into Ashbringer because Tirion Fordring entrusted me to be the light dammit, I’m not swapping that for a random fishers pike thank you)

I saw Method won world first by beating Jaina and I’m sitting here going ??? Jaina’s a raid boss? Do we kill Jaina!?!

Oh and my poor pally is feeling the strain because Demon Hunters movement abilities are ++ for quality of life. I love jumping off that big temple in Zuldazar and then just gliding really super far. It’s like having flight when we don’t have flight yet. I don’t even have the flight whistle yet.

Anyway the big thing I care about now I have hit 120 is how much more old content can I now comfortably solo? My mount collection has a mighty need.

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Being an adult is knowing that the hours on the clock are meaningless.

If I need to go to bed at 8pm on a Friday night I shall, as an adult I have that power.

And I totally did. Zzzzz

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I don’t think there’s a gif in the world to encompass my sudden realization.

Deke and lemons.

You give lemons to a girl you like.

Lemons are now making a comeback as the citrus scale for rating fics – we’re calling them lemons again.

Oh my word. Agents of Shield was that an intentional reference?