Soooooo I may have just rewatched some Warehouse 13 because

Bering and Wells!!!

I figured if that didn’t inspire me then nothing would. You see I love The Librarians with ever fibre of my being. I am utterly enamoured with Pike and Number One. Killjoys makes me laugh and flap my hands with glee. Stargate comforts me. See the pattern? They all make me happy because there’s nothing wrong with them. True Stargate’s potential was fairly limitless but I was satisfied with what I had.

Rumbelle made me crazy. Once was an absolute gift because it provided so much (all those alternate characters versions, the time travel, the what if? branching paths of some episodes etc.) plus of course the itch that hadn’t been satisfied which meant for countless imaginations of my own. Those characters needed more and I was but a humble servant to those stories.

I still haven’t seen past season 3 /hides

For all I go on about Bering and Wells you’d think I would have but the season 3 finale gave me such intense feels that I took a break, and unfortunately in Sam’s world ‘taking a break’ means it will slip off my radar and I forget. I have two speeds, nada or 60. I’m either binge watching an entire season, or I won’t watch it for two years. Consistency has never been my strong suit.

Anyway, I just watched HG Wells introductory episode again (2.01) and then I was going to continue with her next episode (2.07 if memory serves) but then I remembered the Warehouse 12 flashbacks. I think it’s actually canon that Wells and Woolly were totally the inspiration for Holmes and Watson 🙂

My mind is filled with “forever cursed to meet at gunpoint” and “you’ll owe me one” and “standard issue in 1890″ as Wells grappler saves the day and “how do you say goodbye to the person that knows you the best” and “you’re going to take a deep breath and you are going to save my life” – solving puzzles, saving the day, it’s Bering and Wells!!!!!

The last time they were in my head I read a list of tropes and got a “omg they were roomates” AU, a “fake dating AU” and an “arranged marriage AU”. The episode Buried also made me really want an Archaeologist AU. None of which I did anything with because I was supposed to be writing something else. Now I’m thinking Pirates AU. HG Wells Pirate Queen has to team-up with Archivist Myka to find Poseidon’s Trident.

Here’s hoping that some of these thoughts actually turn into words this time…

I absolutely adored the time travel fake married/family adventure episode but Dark Matter being set int he 27th century is kinda problematic. I really would like it to be another galaxy like Ida or Othalla or Pegasus etc. One that the Ancients explored, and seeded with life after Pegasus.

I mean they seeded Earth (and maybe a couple of other planets?) but the reason humans are spread across the Milky Way is because of the goa’uld. Whereas the Ancients were co-habiting the galaxy with the Pegasus second-generation (hence why they were well-known as the Ancestors) and so stargate usage etc. probably did it there (+ Ancient interference).

BUT the Ancients were known experimenters (and their ethics not so much) I mean the reason the wraith exist is because of a human colony being exposed to the Iratus bug as part of the Ancients looking into how to become immortal. So it’s not a big leap to imagine them seeding a galaxy with life and purposely not seeding it with Stargates so as to see the difference in human development.

Then the smoky bad possessing aliens could be ‘others’ from the ascension plane. Like Anubis, he got ‘stuck’ and so didn’t reform a body when he descended and so he needed to possess people. The Black Root ships were in a galaxy far away and so the explosion was like the power of a black hole for a supergate (like how the Ori invaded).

It fits and makes sense (to me at least) … except for the 27th century part and they are the same galaxy as Earth (we visit) etc. so it is definitely our galaxy and there are no stargates.

It makes more sense really for Dark Matter to be future Star Trek except that doesn’t work due to aliens – Dark Matter doesn’t have any. Still I can very easily see the Federation crumbling and becoming the GA but then I was cynical about the Federation long before Discovery hung a lampshade on it for me.

aaaaand I’m rambling again. Sorry it’s just sarashouldbestudying suggested I “embrace my inner five-year-old” and write what made me smile and I do enjoy smushing my favourite things together. It’s just proving hard to make them fit logically :/

So far re: writing attempts I have about half a page of Christopher Pike in crisis re: fate and recklessness because if he knows his future then “this will be fine” but erm what if it’s not? I am drawn to that. I have a Judson panic re: time-travelling Flynn headcanon but I digress.

I also have a few notes re: Dakara re-origination machine and the infinity stones. Also how the Aschen and the Vulcan’s are cast from the same mould, and I can kinda see Jaffa and Klingon’s the same way. Unfortunately I can’t think of easy crossovers for the other Star Trek races which kinda sinks the whole Stargate/Star Trek mash-up my mind was musing on.

I stopped with the Pike in crisis because I WAS DOING IT AGAIN!! I have such a habit of characters ‘thinking’ and so they rarely talk to one another. I totally didn’t realize I did that until a beta pointed it out and now I can’t unsee it. It makes my work passive, as it’s a lot of statements and not a lot of forward momentum, which means it’s not a page-turner. It’s something I need to work on. A bit like how a few years back I head-hopped all the time but now I’ve trained myself to stick to proper perspective.

Briefly I considered a small one-shot with Dutch and Johnny, not the one I mentioned last time, but instead a canon piece for season five where they talk about Johnny’s mixed up feelings thanks to The Lady’s brainwashing/amnesia/delusion thing. I can kinda summarise that in one sentence though with Dutch saying something like “You are the heart of the team for a reason Johnny Jaqobis, you have a lot of love in you. You don’t miss being married to me, you miss being married. The delusion stuck easily because you do love me.” “Just not like that.” and Johnny was easy to mix up due to missing Pawter so much and Dutch being so important to him. They are family and so making them family was something he wouldn’t fight.

So yeah I kinda don’t feel like writing it as I have said it now. Plus I suspect we’ll see this on the show anyway. I haven’t seen the latest episode yet (tonight!) and there’s 6 more to go after it so I’m sure it’ll be addressed.

Anyway all of this is just saying that I’ve been trying to do the writing thing. It’s just nothing has stuck yet.

“The battle must be fought anew everyday.”

You know what screw it I’m going to jump in on that writers month thing.

This could become a very embarrassing post if I don’t actually write anything buuuuut I need to rediscover the joy of writing, I have such a negative association with it right now, I need to remember why I do this word thing.

Sooooo anyway 🙂 the idea I have for tomorrow’s prompt is Brotp Pike and Number One. Pike is in a cell because of… #noidea … and he’s being all Pike about it because he made his choice and willing to accept the consequences blah blah. Number One is sneaky and smart and she does something #noidea which means Pike gets released and the whole mess goes away.

There’s a lot of #noidea there but thinking about it is making me smile which is a very good first step. I love Pike and I love Number One and I love their dynamic which is probably 90% made up because we got all of 5 minutes screen time (gimme that spinoff!!!) but hey-ho I don’t care it feels real to me.

Alternately… now I have started thinking about it, that prompt “first time” is very versatile. I’m thinking Killjoys Brotp Dutch and Johnny which has a completely different dynamic to Pike and Number One. Pre-canon, their first warrant as Killjoys. I can not remember if it has ever been referenced but erm *googles* I know we saw how they became Killjoys (which had Brotp fake marriage which was great btw) but not what came after. Hmm…

I’ll see what I feel like typing tomorrow I guess. Could be this, could be something else, let’s just hope it’s not nothing.

So me and writing: a ramble by me

I love writing. I’ve been attempting to tell stories all my life but wanting (needing!) to write doesn’t actually mean I’m any good at it. No please don’t worry, this isn’t one of those self-deprecating posts, it’s just an observation.

Back starting 2015 really I tried to ‘get serious’ about writing. It was a struggle but I was kinda doing it. In retrospect rediscovering fandom May 2016 helped I think because it gave me positive feelings about writing. I was doing writing that I wasn’t super stressed about. Anyway November 2016 life happened and I got overwhelmed and slowly stuttered to a stop.

Ever since in desperation I’ve done a bit here, and a bit there, but always with the litany of negativity. As I wasn’t doing much of any writing I felt all my writing should be original, or on my neglected WIP, as words were obviously at a premium, but the more I berated myself, the less I wrote at all.

aaaaannd then I started a university course English Literature WITH Creative Writing which was not very good timing. Writing was like pulling teeth anyway with the constant “who are you kidding? this is awful!” kind of screaming at the back of my head. Now feedback is good, it’s necessary to improve, so I know there’s a glass half-full way to look at it, but regardless it did feel a bit like a kick in the teeth to come bottom third of my year group.

Which brings me to today. At the start of summer break I set myself writing goals, which I have not even touched as everytime I went to do it (or even thought about doing it) I would cry because I just couldn’t, it was too much.

So what I’m going to do, what I’m going to try and do, is recapture that positivity and learn to love words again. I really fear for myself and my course if I don’t.

No limit writing. Just whatever comes, just do it.

Of course no limit writing has it’s own problems because there is such a thing as too much choice but I’ll have to see how I get on.