Five things youāll find in my bag: – iPad – jar of coffee – stress ball – small tub of crackers – painkillers
Five things youāll find in my room: – cuddly toys – computer – Lego – DVDās – TV
Five things Iāve always wanted to do: (always? how about currently?) – learn 3D modelling – learn animation – learn to draw better – learn to code a phone app – learn typography
Five things Iām currently into: – The Librarians – Lego – Drawing – Writing – Marvel movies
Five things on my to-do list: – These 2 damn essays due next week for uni – fanfic WIPās – the long neglected novel – rumbelle big bang art – washing and itemising the last of the job lot of Lego I bought
tagging: erm I feel like I always tag the same people, so how about consider yourself tagged if you want to do it? spread the love a little bit š
āWith plenty of time to spare before Goldās arrival, she took extra care in her outfit and make up; she only had this one shot at impressing him, and everything had to be perfect.Ā
In todayās wondering – what would have happened if Flynn hadnāt made it?
āJudsonās gone, Charleneās gone. If anything happens to me they are the future.ā
āMost of the magic has gone back into the Earth. Heās dying, I think we both are.ā
āI need Flynn to pull it together. Iām too new at all this.ā
So thought experiment, Flynn died with Excalibur by the stone of King Arthur. Problem #1 what happens with his body? (Side note: practicalities like that arenāt a strong point of TV) but taking a leaf from said TVās book, that isnāt what Iām really wondering about.
I was thinking today about Jacob Stone and Eve Baird.
In the season 1 finale when they skip through alternate timelines Stone kisses Eve and she goes āno, no, nope, no, noā (side note: I love it when she does that) and so it made me wonder how they were together for 10 years in that timeline, but our Eve canāt even contemplate it.
So I do what I do when Iām thinking about things, I half remember stuff and then have to rewatch to firm up my memory. First thing – Santaās Midnight Run!
Eve says that she spent 12 years in 12 different countries, and that doesnāt count the army bases she grew up on as a child. Santa says that maybe this is why she feels like she doesnāt belong anywhere (side note: thematically the desk in the library constantly resetting is a great angle on this, making Eve feel like she doesnāt belong).
Second – The Crown of King Arthur!
Itās first meeting time! This is the critical thing, this is what mostly makes the difference I reckon. When our Eve met Stone he was on the ground, she protected him and then he was instantly folded into a team structure. All those years in the military with the anti-fraternisation rules meant her mind considered him off-limits.
Whereas meeting 10 years earlier, when Stone said that Eve was fresh out of military intelligence training, thatās a whole different scenario. Eve wouldnāt have been so hardened, more used to taking orders than giving them AND most crucially they would have met as equals.
Itās that equals thing – that first meeting and putting people into boxes – that ultimately made all the difference I reckon. Our Eve met Flynn, was confused by Flynn, there was the push and pull and challenging one another. They talked in the forest, there was empathy, both of them lived for the job, they are both lonely. Eve is used to control and Flynn defies expectations but heās genuine.
āI like the librarian, heās weird but heās interesting.ā
Flynn might push Eve out of her comfort zone but he says what he thinks – quite literally āhengeā anyone? – and so Eve trusts him enough to contemplate feeling feelings. Once open to the possibility it develops. Whereas in our reality with Stone she was never open to the possibility.
Also I canāt ignore a key fact in that Stone was different in the alternate reality! It wasnāt just that they met at a different time and place in their lives – 10 years earlier – but Stone made a different choice.
In our timeline he never showed up for interview, in the alternate reality he did. He took a chance, he didnāt just say that āI got a job, family business, responsibilitiesā and spend another 10 years writing under pseudonyms. Stone must have had more hope in his heart – been more open himself, heād had 10 fewer years of hiding his true self after all.
Conclusion?
I ship Flynn and Eve so hard BUT I could totally see how Jacob and Eve could have worked in this alternate timeline. In fact I can actually see the potential in our timeline should Flynn ever have permanently been out of the picture.
As time went on Eve became less of a leader and more of just a team member. That was because from the very beginning, their first mission together āweāre not soldiers. weāre partnersā – so Eve had to transition to treating them as equals. It would still need something to smash the box that Eve put Stone in, so she could actually see him in that light, but itās definitely possible.
Stone is the most like Flynn in terms of his knowledge and his approach. Heās a bit more physical and a bit less scatty but no less passionate. Eve never picked a tethering partner after Flynn apparently quit, the most she said on the subject was āwhy not Cassandra?ā after Stone and Ezekiel asked her to choose between them.
I thought a lot about who would be the best candidate to be essentially a librarian for a couple of thousand years (or until eternity). I went back and forth because I was thinking about balance. The library chose Stone, Cassandra and Ezekiel because they are all different. Like the finale said, the library lived in all of them for different reasons.
I wondered for a while if perhaps Stone was too much of a traditional librarian but I think ultimately that just solidifies him as the best candidate. He said it himself, as long as he was around the library would always have a librarian.
Eternity is a long time to be lonely. If Flynn really had quit and Eve had picked Stone to tether with. Yeah I think they would have transitioned from supportive best friends to lovers eventually.
(still prefer them as platonic best buds though, this was just a thought exercise)
#have I said how much I love this show today? because I love it#one day I will stop flailing over this show but that day is not today
If it wasnāt for tumblr Iād never have dared watch the Mummy as Iām a wimpy wuss. I donāt do horror films and all the marketing I had seen suggested ahhhh scary.
Anyway it isnāt terrifying, certainly no worse than Pirates of the Caribbean and I watched that. I tend to look away during any really gross bits BUT my point is if I hadnāt watched it then I would never have seen the truth that tumblr used to sell me on the movie.
Evie and Rick are goals
Watching the Mummy Returns and Evie grabbing that sword and kicking butt, and then in the museum, when they shot their way out together.
This is what I said yesterday, established couple solving their problems together. Alternately the tumblr gif quote of āthe couple that slays together stays togetherā š
1) What made you start writing fanfic? Honestly? I think itās just something Iāve always done. I didnāt write a proper fanfic beginning to end until I was 11 but I have notes of story ideas, or snippets (mostly dialogue) from a couple of years earlier. I donāt know when it started for certain because I only have digital files. If it was on paper I no longer have it. Certainly from when I was 9 and possibly younger.
Anyway, I think the impetus was fix-it. There was something not right and I wanted to change it. Bizarrely considering I can look back at stuff from when I was only 9 I had my shipping preferences sorted. Back then I donāt think I understood why I had a vehement dislike for certain ships, I just knew I didnāt like it. Now Iām an adult I can see that what I hated was lack of respect, or power imbalances. My childish fix was usually to split them up and to introduce an OC, who was a good listener, very supportive and probably didnāt have much personality of their own, instead did theĀ āwhat do you wantā dance a lot – I was only 9 *cringe*.
11) What kind of relationships are you most interested in writing? Well I kinda got into that above ^^ I like equality, I like mutual respect. When writing relationships I usually conflate trust and love. I like it when a character that prides themselves on being strong, and never showing weakness, relaxes with their partner. I like that because they donāt have to be strong all the time as they trust that their partner wonāt hold it against them. They can bear each other up, take turns being strong, they can be a team. They can let their partner see behind the mask, see their true self and feel loved for who they really are, not who people assume they are, or who they feel they have to pretend to be.
Itās odd really because the kind of relationships Iām most interested in are probably the ones that thus far Iāve written the least. Doing the wholeĀ āget togetherā thing is just more common in fic and instant attraction is a lot quicker. In terms ofĀ āget togetherā I do prefer friends to lovers but slow burn is a time sink for writing. Anyway, I digress what Iām trying to get to is – established relationship. I suppose it goes back to the couple being a team. I want to write relationships where they solve problems together.
2) Which of your own fanfics have you reread the most? I donāt tend to reread my own work after its been posted, not unless I intend to do something more with it. So if a fic has a sequel then Iāll have re-read what came before at least once. Probably the one Iāve read the most is erm *thinks* probably a toss up between Painting Layers of LoveĀ and Between Two Fires.
9) What do your fic bookmarks say about you? That I am a terrible person who never gets round to reading anything. Honestly I suck and I feel awful about it. Life threw me a massive curveball end of 2016 and I still havenāt recovered. These days with uni I am so brain dead when I get homeĀ I canāt even watch trash TV sometimes. I literally sit on the couch and stare at the wall, I canāt cope with anything more. I probably could read a lot more than I do (I mean Iām answering these right now, so I could be reading!) but I put a lot of pressure on myself. If I read then I want to leave a good comment, and to be honest itās theĀ ābeing too tired to leave a good commentā thing that really stops me, and now Iāve just got out of the habit.
6) Name three stories you found easy to write Hmm.
Short fics usually pour out of me in one sitting because thereās a particular thing I want to say. They are usuallyĀ ācharacter piecesā aka not much plot, just the character reflecting on whatās happened. So I guess Iād say these fics like my two most recent: Monstrare Monere or Ghost of a Memory, were fairly easy to write.
However like I said thatās because of the nature of the kind of fic. In terms of something longer with more plot (aka a proper fic imo) two immediately come to mind: The Beauty and the Tragedy and Between Two Fires. The former just poured out of me in one day, and the latter hits so many of my buttons in terms of what I like the most it was just an absolute joy. For a third? Iām trying to think of a chaptered one, though those are usually difficult at some point as it becomes rather inevitable with the length. Hmm, Right Kind of Wrong perhaps? I did write that very quickly because the show made me angry, I think I rode that anger all the way hehe.
7) Name three stories you found difficult to write Oh boy haha. When I first read these two questions my instinctive thought wasĀ āwhat stories did I not find difficultā hence the rather long answer above, as I had to think it through myself. So just three? Erm. How about True Love Ways, Dream Come True,Ā Painting Layers of Love ⦠and lots more hehe š