Is there a character you’d love to include in a story, but haven’t (yet)?

Thank you for the question! *hugs*

Well the first that comes to mind is Fiona/The Black Fairy

Then my brain jumps to season seven and the awesome amazing Jacinda/Cinderella who I already love to bits only after one episode.

There has to be others. Oh Pan! I don’t ‘think’ I’ve written him. As a side note I’d like to write more Cora, I feel like she’s only been background up until now if I have used her.

Ok my brain isn’t providing anymore names right now but there might well be others. Once has so many and they are usually fascinating. So many avenues to explore. For instance a season 2 Hook could be really interesting imo.

hyacinth and hydrangea for the flower asks meme!

hyacinth: do you prefer to write angst or fluff?

Well it’s not a story without some form of conflict – basically ‘something’ has to happen to get the characters moving across the page. That conflict imo needs some kind of emotive hook otherwise the characters (and therefore the readers) aren’t going to care. Also there’s angst and there is angst. Erm I don’t think I’m explaining this right. Probably fluff as I do like to fix things.

hydrangea: what inspired you to begin writing in the first place?

What way back when? I don’t know, that’s before my memories kick in. I was really little – writing is something I’ve done for as long as I can remember. So I really couldn’t tell you why I first picked up a crayon. Anyway, the first story I actually remember finishing was when I was 11 and it was fanfic. I had written lots of scenes before that but that was all they were – scenes/snippets, nothing completed.

Basically when I was 11 I’d never really had any friends and high school didn’t seem like it would change anything on that score. I started volunteering in the school library and this older girl was trying to make a fansite. I could make websites from scratch (very ugly ones) and so it wasn’t hard to fix the link she was struggling with. After that we were sort of friends and I got into the show she liked so we could stay that way. We fell out a year later, she was 16 and had graduated, and I was 12 and didn’t deal with conflict very well.

It got quite messy and it ended with me leaving the site we supposedly ‘co-ran’ and basically leaving that fandom which I was cool with. I’d found a new fandom by then which I actually liked. So yeah, that’s sort of how I developed my writing. Randomly until 11, fanfic until 16, original works until 26 and then a mix of original and rumbelle for the past year and a bit.

dahlia

dahlia: what time of day/night is best for you to write?

Thank you for the question! I started typing out an honest answer which is probably waaaaay more honest than you intended. So as a simple answer anon earlier rather than later. When I’m tired my willpower is low and I find it difficult to do anything let alone write. I’m attempting (badly) to write first thing in the morning, I think if I can make that a routine that’s what will work best.

Rumbelle. Who is more protective:

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There are so many versions of Rumbelle I’d be here all day if I ran through all of them. I’m going to go with my headcanon for them which basically springs from the early seasons. Hope that’s ok 🙂

Who asks the other on dates: Belle. She’ll say “fancy doing x, y or z later?” or spot an advert for something and ask if he wants to go, or she’ll hear about something (*cough* ok mostly read about something* she wants to try and she’ll bring it up. Rumple is more the ‘accidental date’ kind. In that they’ll just happen to walk in the direction of the beach and see an amazing sunset, or he’ll just happen to have a table booked when Belle says she’s hungry etc. He doesn’t like to presume, so he always waits for Belle to make the first move in terms of wanting to spend time with him.

Who is the bigger cuddler: Rumple. Belle likes snuggling a lot but Rumple’s just a big teddy bear (so long as they are alone that is!). He reaches for her in the night, if she stays, and she wakes up in his arms no matter how they fell asleep. It’s not something he dares do when he’s awake so she makes sure to hug him as often as possible. The happy soft sigh and how he nuzzles into her hair always makes her heart skip a beat.

Who initiates holding hands more often: Definitely Belle. Rumple loves holding her hand and it’s not even something he minds doing in public. His reputation only matters when it comes to the safety of his family (Rumple believes a healthy dose of fear about him helps with that) but they get enough disdainful looks as it is. Belle doesn’t like those looks either because Rumple goes on a “I’m a beast sweetheart, no matter what I look like in this realm, and my claw in yours …” (she always interrupts then and reminds him for the Nth time that she fell in love with him in the old world). They’ve settled on a middle-ground of linking arms and are both happy with that.

Who remembers anniversaries: Rumple. Belle tries but in between cursed years and time spent in other realms she thoroughly lost track. Rumple smirked and enjoyed surprising and spoiling her tremendously for the first year. After that Belle had written down the dates he used and (in between curses) did her best with them. Unfortunately because of all the frozen time sometimes the dates moved leaving her to huff in frustration. Rumple says everyday is a gift with her in his life. Belle always has to kiss him for that and has settled for sometimes doing a “just because” special time for the two of them.

Who is more possessive: Bizarrely it’s Belle. I say bizarrely because most people would say Rumple. However the only time he’s ever challenged Belle’s autonomy has been when he’s been terrified for her safety. Rumple only wants Belle to stay if she wants, and secretly he believes she’ll walk out one day, and decide he’s too much trouble. Whereas Belle stakes her claim in a few different ways. She’ll commit Rumple to help with things without asking but she’ll also guard him against the unreasonable. The time the Charming’s asked for help four days in a row they found themselves being given a pile of books (as Belle just had to help a little) and a firm admonishment not to come back for at least a week unless it was life and death.

Who gets more jealous: Neither of them. They aren’t jealous people. Rumple just wants Belle to be happy. He would give her his blessing to be with someone else if that would make her happier. Belle I think has the capability to be jealous. I think if she saw someone putting the moves on Rumple she’d make it very clear that Rumple was hers, but that has never happened. If Rumple thought about it (which he hasn’t) he would say nobody wanted to proposition the Dark One, and Belle would probably say something about it being their loss.

Who is more protective: Rumple – slightly. It’s quite close though. Belle won’t stand for anyone badmouthing him around her. Legitimate complaints are fine (she does know what he can be like) but out and out insults are not. She draws a line and doesn’t hesitate to tear strips off anyone who crosses it. Rumple is obviously more concerned with physical safety. Belle understands his point and they’ve had several fights because she doesn’t want to stand on the sidelines – she wants to be his partner in all ways – and he’s just terrified. Usually Belle can get through to him by quite logically pointing out that the safest place in the world for her to be is right by his side.

Who is more likely to cheat: Neither – never!

Who initiates sexy times the most: Rumple would say Belle because he doesn’t believe he initiates. Belle would dispute that and say he most definitely does! It’s not verbal or physical but the heat in his eyes, the flutter of his spinner fingers, how he moves – she knows when he’s interested and all it takes from her is a heated kiss, a close embrace or a wandering hand and Rumple loses all reservations. Once he knows she wants him, he never disappoints.

Who dislikes PDA the most: Rumple. He’s a private man and he doesn’t like the disparaging comments. Belle doesn’t like them either but she likes to prove publicly to him sometimes that she isn’t ashamed of him.

Who kills the spider: Rumple. Belle knows she should be afraid, and she isn’t really, but she just doesn’t like how fast they skitter away and how sometimes when she reaches for them they crawl onto her. It reminds her too much of the tower or the asylum where she was imprisoned. Fortunately she only has to start to say his name with intent and he’s by her side. The spider gets dealt with, she gets a hug, and all is well.

Who asks the the other to marry them: Well in an alternate world where 3B never happened I would still say Rumple. It wouldn’t be done in haste, in desperation to hold onto the one good thing left in his life, so in many ways asking would be 10x harder. Rumple is terrified, sick with nerves and totally out of inspiration. He wants it to be special. This is the final moment that mends things between father and son as after Neal sees him like this he knows without a doubt that his Papa has returned.

It was the phonecall to Belle that started the process as Neal was surprised Rumple could still love like that. He loses all hesitancy seeing his father unable to form words he’s so panicked. Neal consults with Emma but it’s Henry that comes up with the idea. In the movie the dance led to ‘the beast’ letting Belle go, how about ending it with asking for forever? Rumple transforms the cabin and Belle smiling through tears reminds him she promised forever once before and jokes saying “nobody breaks a deal with me remember?”

Who buys the other flowers or gifts: With Belle’s father running the flower shop they don’t tend to exchange formal flowers and Rumple conjuring up a rose lost some of it’s allure when he admitted the truth about Gaston. Belle likes wildflowers anyway, they bring the outside in and help her feel free. Rumple leaves a small posy for her at least a few times a week at the library. Belle early on put her foot down about gifts, it’s Rumple she wanted and not his magic or his wealth. They mostly share their time and their interests. Belle will give him a book she enjoyed so they can talk about it together, or quite often she’ll read to him. Just quiet time snuggled together.

Who would bring up possibly having kids: Rumple. He didn’t mean to he was reminiscing about Bae and let slip “our children one day” he was immediately horrified but before he could stammer apologies Belle beamed. She hadn’t known how to bring it up and she’d been unsure how Rumple would feel. He had a grandson now and starting over might not hold any appeal. She wanted a life of her own, she wanted to travel etc. but she really wanted a family with her true love. They don’t start right then as they are happy being a couple but decide within a year or two for sure.

Who is more nervous to meet the parents: Neither because there wasn’t the opportunity. Colette was dead before Rumple and Belle met, and Rumple met Moe the same day he met Belle for the first time. Malcolm/Pan was dealt with and there was never any introductions done. Both Rumple and Belle hope Fiona/The Black Fairy will stay in her dark realm.

Who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: Rumple wishes with every fiber of his being that it was him, he would never want to kick Belle out of the room, it should be him but it’s not. Belle is always the one that walks away needing her space. He at least convinced her to use a spare room and not the couch, he was concerned she would be cold and uncomfortable.

Who tries to make up first after arguments: Rumple which sometimes leads to the argument lasting even longer. Belle doesn’t mean to get irritated it’s just if she’s already angry over whatever they were fighting about, her patience with him is very limited. She loves him dearly and they always wind up in a big mess of apologies when they are both ready to make up. Once that’s done they have a reasoned discussion and fix whatever the issue was, it’s relatively rare that the discussion sparks another argument but it has happened.

Who tells the other they love them more often: Rumple. At first he said it quietly, just whispering like she wasn’t supposed to hear. It was like he thought that soon he wouldn’t be able to say it, so he wanted to make sure that she knew. He never goes anywhere without saying “I love you” and never ends a phone conversation without it either – no matter who is listening. It’s the one thing he doesn’t budge on. He’s not worried if Belle doesn’t say it back but he doesn’t want her to have any doubt as to his feelings.

Never Have I Ever – Belle and Gold meeting at work?

Oh good one! My instinct was to say I hadn’t written this but then I thought I had and started linking to a couple of fics. Then I re-read what you’d said and realized my first instinct was correct. I have fics where they met at work but that meeting isn’t chronicled in the fic. Unless of course just one of them being at work counts but I’m sensing no – I’m overthinking this aren’t I?

Anyway I don’t think I have.

That means I need to do the next part of this ask game and say how I’d write it if I did. Hmm well I am quite fond of my prosecutor!Gold and cop!Belle verse so I could maybe write when they met. That was when Gold got assigned Belle’s case against Cora Mills. Honestly that’s the only thing that’s coming to mind right now. I have lots of ideas on my list but none where Belle and Gold are colleagues when they meet. Hope this suffices! 🙂

Ask Me? Fic Author Never Have I Ever

Have you ever considered revising one of your Rumbelle fics and trying to publish it professionally?

That depends on what you mean by ‘publish professionally’. I have no intention to shop around for an agent and try and get signed by a trad publisher. The small outfits aren’t worth it and it’s more likely to win the lottery twice than get signed up one of the big five as an unknown.

I do however have the intention to indie publish and I’ve done more than consider it. At the moment I’m in the planning stage. I’ve picked three fics (2 published, 1 that’s in my WIP folder) and I’ve sketched a series arc linking them together. They would need to be massively expanded obviously into full length novels but the core details are already in place.

That’s the most concrete step towards adaptation that I’ve done so far but I’ve identified several other fics that I think would be good starting points for solo novels, or work well together either combined into one book or into a series. Obviously especially as an indie author it’s much better to publish a series rather than a standalone so ideally I’ll make everything work together somehow. There’s more marketing options for series, it helps hook and retain readers etc. I could go on heh.

So basically yeah I’ve given it a lot of thought.

Ask Me? Fic Author Never Have I Ever

10. Have you ever written for a fandom without reading other fanfic for it?

Nope. I only write for a fandom if I’m really into whatever it is, and for me the last sort of bastion of “zomg I love this so much” is to create for it. I’ll have gone through all the previous levels of:
– browsing reviews
– looking at promo pictures
– finding the fansites
– watching fan videos on youtube
– reading fanfic
– reading metas

and all the other phases that I’ve forgotten but then it gets to writing reviews, writing headcanons and making stuff.

I’ll never say never though. For instance if I ever did a fic challenge, like “post all the shows/movies that I love and you pop one in my askbox, I’ll write a short fic” – that sounds like fun now I’ve thought of it, but in that case then yeah I might wind up writing for something I haven’t read as I haven’t read for everything that I like. Although I usually wind up searching for fic eventually 🙂

Ask Me? Fanfic Author’s Meme

Fanfic author ask meme – In your opinion and without looking at any numbers, what’s your most popular fic?

Painting Layers with Love hands down. It actually kinda scared me for a while (alright it still does sometimes) how popular it is. Please, please don’t get me wrong that isn’t a complaint in the slightest. What I mean is that’s intimidating. Being invisible is kinda reassuring in a way. If I screw up then who will know? But if everyone is watching then urk it sort of piles the pressure on.

That’s possibly why I haven’t updated it in forever, I’ve got myself into this cycle and it’s hard to break. I’m scared to write because I don’t want to mess the story up. It’s important to me on so many levels to do this story justice, not just because it’s popular but because the characters really resonate. I mean I suppose they should I wrote them, but I put more of me in this story than I have put in probably any other story. It matters that I get it right. Then I panic because I haven’t updated in ages and so the update better be damn good, and it needs to be now! Cue more panicking and then I just go and do something else because damn I’m scared and I can’t think.

I really just need to sit down and bite the bullet and start typing. Getting started is always the most intimidating part.

Ask Me? Fanfic Author’s Meme

Hey there! Hope your day is going well so far. I’m going to steal the question you asked me today (hope that’s okay). What is next on your writing agenda? Any new projects or ideas that you haven’t mentioned yet? Have a great day!

Any questions are always ok! You are so good to send me a question every week, I don’t know if I’ve made it clear before how much I appreciate that but I really do *attack hugs you* and heh I did say I loved this question! 🙂

Alright then *rubs hands together* I feel like I should insert that picture now, of the guy standing in front of the board which is covered in pictures and string. *gestures to it* welcome to ‘the plan’ duh duh duh.

Right remember that plan I posted a couple of weeks ago? It was my grand design of “getting back into writing” yeah that kinda, well this is why my plan resembles a conspiracy wall. The oneshot has exploded and is either going to be a long oneshot or a short multi-chapter. Either way I’m not posting until it’s done. As I said yesterday the shame of my unfinished WIP’s cuts far too deep.

Anyway /facepalms this isn’t answering your question is it?

I kinda mention everything. I’m useless at secrets and I ramble about things far too often, so I probably don’t have any secret projects or ideas. I have just less than a month before everything kicks off for the start of university. In that time I WILL (not want to because failure is not an option):

  • Write and post tiny (oh please let it be tiny) GoldenLace Runaway Bride
  • Finish the exploded oneshot which is a combined Magic Teacher/Runaway Bride prompt with bonus savior Rumple and shady Blue. Hopefully it’ll be good!
  • Update my three WIP’s (oh please I need to do this so bad, the guilt, the guilt I tell you!)

In terms of other stuff. I have like 30+ ideas on the list (and I swear they multiply when I’m not looking) but because of that very multiplication I’m not committing to what comes next. I’ve said “this is my next project” so many times and then a new shiny has come along and dazzled me and ooops I’ve changed my mind. I want to write ALL THE THINGS and hopefully one day I will!

Procrastination Questions aka don’t answer these unless you have a free hour

I was tagged by the lovely and amazing @bookwormchocaholic and @mariequitecontrarie thank you! 🙂

The last ? you had:
1) Drink:
Water
2) Phone call: Probably my mum but I’m not sure. Nobody ever calls me.
3) Text message: Oh this I can check! My new uni heh 🙂 reminding me about open day details a couple of months ago (people don’t text me either).
4) Song you listened to: Karazhan by Sharm
5) Time you cried: Last week I think but it wasn’t a big deal or anything

6) Dated someone twice: That would require dating someone in the first place
7) Kissed someone and regretted it: Kinda. My first and only kiss, it wasn’t good hence the kinda but at least my curiosity is satisfied I guess.
8) Been cheated on: Nope
9) Lost someone special: Yeah
10) Been depressed: That implies it’s only temporary. It’s a demon I’ve battled every day for years and years.
11) Gotten drunk and thrown up: Never touched a drop so no.

Favorite colors:
12) Blue
13) Gold
14) Grey

In the last year have you…
15) Made new friends: Possibly. I get fuzzy on dates and when I should start counting from. I was @little-inkstone santa and we’ve been chatting periodically ever since so would that be last year or this year?
16) Fallen out of love: Nope
17) Laughed until you cried: Not that I recall and I usually remember that because I hate it, it’s always so embarrassing.
18) Found out someone was talking about you: Kinda.
19) Met someone who changed you: I hadn’t really thought about it like that but yeah I guess so.
20) Found out who your friends are: That sounds sinister so nope.
21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Haha what a random question. I barely have anyone on my FB and I haven’t kissed anyone so nope.

General
22) How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life?: Half. 6 real life, 6 people I met through my gaming guild years ago and my mum for lucky 13 contacts heh 🙂
23) Do you have any pets? Nope!
24) Do you want to change your name? Been there, done that, the paperwork was a pain. So I don’t want to because I already have.
25) What did you do for your last birthday? Went to the seaside with my mum, we played crazy golf. Then we went for a game of tenpin bowling, did a best out of three air hockey tournament before returning home and watching a movie. That’s quite often what we do for special occasions. It makes for good together time 🙂
26) What time did you wake up? Which time? There was about 2am, about 4am, then up for good about 6am. That was a good night, usually it’s way worse.
27) What were you doing at midnight last night? Well I’d been laying in bed for a couple of hours by then, so I think I’d just dropped off thankfully. Getting to sleep is such a battle.
28) Name something you can’t wait for: Uni to start next month! I just want to dive into my course! 🙂
29) When was the last time you saw your mum? About five minutes before I started these questions.
30) What are you listening to right now? I have my gaming genre on shuffle on iTunes. I don’t know why I just felt like it.
31) Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Why the name Tom? Is that because everyone knows someone called Tom? Well it’s true I did. The last Tom I spoke to was someone I worked with. He was such a genuine guy, he was so down to earth and witty. I smiled getting his emails and his comments were always spot on. It was a pleasure to work with him and he was going places. He had talent and the drive to get there but he died a couple of months ago. He had one of those natural time bombs, nobody knew it was there, he was perfectly healthy and happy until his heart gave out. I’m still shocked to be honest. I didn’t know him well but why did such a thing have to happen to such a good guy? It’s just so not fair.
32) Something that is getting on your nerves: The persistent ache in my arm. It’s been acting up lately and I could really do without the chronic pain.
33) Most visited website: You are joking right? Tumblr of course heh
34) Hair color: Brown
35) Long or short hair? Short, it’s easier to manage that way. When I’m mentally and physically doing well I like to go swimming. I used to have long hair and I tried swimming with that and even tied up in a swimming cap it had a horrible habit of getting in my mouth, not to mention how long it took to dry. Short is just easier.
36) Do you have a crush on someone: Nope. I mean I aesthetically admire how attractive some celebrities are but I wouldn’t call that a crush as I don’t know them. I’ve never been attracted to anyone I’ve met in real life.
37) What do you like about yourself? Wow asking the hard questions here. Oh man I don’t know, not much, I guess I try and be a nice person. I like other people to be happy and I try and help with that if I can. I try and be there if people need things.
38) Piercings: Nope
39) Blood type: I don’t actually know. It’s not like it matters, I’ll never be able to give blood, it’s easier to get water from a stone.
40) Nickname: Well my full name is Samantha so I guess Sam is a nickname, or is that just a shortening? I’ve never been sure what nickname means. I suppose I did have one when I was gaming as people called me by my paladin’s name. I use that as a pseudonym now so I won’t share it.
41) Relationship status: Single.
42) Zodiac: Is that Taurus? I get confused about all these different things.
43) Pronouns: She/her.
44) Favorite TV show: Of all time? Stargate! (don’t make me choose between the three, though SG1 would probably edge it because Carter). Currently airing? Well *sigh* Once Upon a Time will always have a special place in my heart. It is so inspiring and it has given me so much. I am looking forward to season seven but to be honest a lot of my enjoyment comes from the fandom and what we take from the show, rather than what the show gives us. So if I’m being honest I have to say Agents of Shield. I love that show so much! I’m counting the days until season five and I’m keeping everything crossed already that they’ll be a season six. I just adore that show, I love everything about it!
45) Tattoos: Nope, I’ve never had anything that I can be sure I’ll still feel the same way about in 10 years. If I’m going to permanently mark my body, I need to be sure about it. Plus to be honest tattoos just aren’t my thing stylistically. I think some people look great with them but I don’t think I’m someone that would.
46) Right or left handed: Mostly right but I do some things with my left. Plus I can swap to my left if my arm gets tired, or at least I used to be able to do that. So I think I’m slightly ambidextrous.
47) Surgery: I had my knee done so that I could walk again without agony. I had four toes done because of severe ingrowing toenails (I know that’s gross). Nothing major though.
48) Sport: Nope. I do like swimming but only casually. When I’m feeling alright I like to regularly go and do half a mile or so of laps in the pool. There is a rock climbing social club at the university and I would love to join, but there’s no way I can with my arm. Maybe next year.
49) Holiday: NaNoWriMo! That’s a holiday right? 🙂
50) Pair of trainers: Sure I have a black pair of asics which I wear all the time as my shoes. I have a white pair of asics that I wear if I go to the gym. I have an old and battered pair of white asics that I wear for DIY/dirty chores.

More general:
51) Eating: What right now? Nothing. I had breakfast a while ago and that was yogurt. That’s also my favorite food if that’s what this is asking. I’m confused.
52) Drinking: Water as I finished my black coffee 🙁 maybe I’ll have to go make another.
53) I’m about to: What? I really don’t get what this is asking. Oh perhaps it’s what I’m going to do when I finish procrastinating with these questions, which are taking forever by the way. Well I do have writing to do so probably that.
54) Want: My arm to stop hurting would be nice. Also you know winning the lottery heh but if we’re in the bounds of realism, I’d like a UK broadcaster (preferably netflix) to pick up Inhumans. I saw it advertised at the cinema but there’s no point seeing the first episode in IMAX if I can’t see the rest for a year until the DVD is released.
55) Get married: Honestly not really. I just don’t feel the need for a relationship in my life. I wish certain people would understand that.
56) Career: Ideally I’d love to write books. That is possible, I mean with indie publishing, so long as I have some talent (I doubt this regularly) then with enough hard work and a good dollop of luck, it is possible to make a living. Otherwise? I really don’t know. I hope that the uni can help me with this.
57) Hugs or kisses: Neither. I like my personal space. Unless it’s my mum in which case hugs are welcome.
58) Lips or eyes: What a weird question, I mean they are body parts. I really don’t know. I’m notoriously bad at reading people’s expressions. They kinda work together to produce an effect.
59) Shorter or taller: Well being short does kinda suck. I mean short legs makes my butt look gigantic, I really hate it. Plus it’s so hard to reach anything.
60) Older or younger: Age is but a number. Oh wait these questions are taking a definite turn towards romance. So in that case neither. Although if we’re talking attractive celebrities, I mostly aesthetically appreciate those who are a bit older.
61) Nice arms or nice stomach: See this question tipped me off. I’m not sure it matters, I mean it’s the overall impression so arms and chest work together.
62) Hook up or relationship: Neither.
63) Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant for sure.
64) Kissed a stranger: My first and only kiss. I mean I knew his name so he wasn’t a total stranger but we had just met.
65) Drank hard liquor: Not touched a drop of any kind of alcohol so nope.
66) Lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t think so
67) Turned someone down: Bizarrely yes. There was one time at school because I was sure it was a prank designed to humiliate me (I was right) and the second time with the guy I kissed. We exchanged numbers and he invited me to go over and ‘hang out’ which set off my alarm bells. That was also confirmed when I suggested meeting somewhere public and he stopped talking to me. I just laughed because I knew it.
68) Sex on the first date: Personally no I don’t think I would be comfortable with that.
69) Broken someone’s heart: Nope
70) Had your heart broken: Nope
71) Been arrested: Nope. Haha it’s quite funny actually. When I was at school we had a policeman come into our class for a talk. He asked for a volunteer to handcuff for a demonstration and one of my classmates said it should be me, as that would almost certainly be the only time I’d ever have handcuffs on. They were right, that is (thus far I guess) the only time. I struggled, trying to do moves I’d seen on the TV, and they tightened quite painfully. I mean obviously I did it wrong, clearly slipping handcuffs takes practice 🙂
72) Cried when someone died: Not initially but yes.
73) Fallen for a friend: Nope

Do you believe in …
74) Yourself:
Haha nope
75) Miracles: I wish but no
76) Love at first sight: I really want to say no because it doesn’t fit with how I see the world. I take a very long time to accept things and definitely to trust people. To me love is like the ultimate expression of trust. However, I’ve known it to happen twice. My grandparents got engaged two days after they met and were married for sixty years. My mum’s boyfriend moved in within a month of them meeting for the first time and they are now married. She’s very happy so I guess for other people it can happen.
77) Santa Claus: That would be fun wouldn’t it but no. I mean it could just never happen because if people saw unfamiliar presents under the tree they would freak about somebody having been in their house. Although I do like the answer that newspaper man gave when that child asked, about how the spirit of Santa is in all of us. That was nice and I do like to help people.
78) Kiss on the first date: I don’t see why not but it would depend on how both parties felt. These things have to be right.
79) Angels: Nope

Other
80) Current best friend’s name:
I would probably count my mum as my best friend. I don’t know if that’s pathetic, it probably is, but I don’t really have any friends in real life and I can talk with mum about anything.
81) Eye color: Brown.
82) Favorite movie: The Princess Diaries is my absolute go-to feel-good movie. I don’t know why I like it so much but I’ve watched it so many times I can practically quote the whole thing. I do like other movies which are a lot more ‘me’ but they change periodically. Like right now I would probably say Cap: Civil War, whereas The Princess Diaries is a constant. That has been true since I saw it for the very first time getting on for two decades ago. Wow I feel old now.

I’m going to tag @little-inkstone, @rowofstars and @worryinglyinnocent but please don’t feel obligated. This did take a very long time. I might not have started if I’d known how long *rolls eyes at self* but hey it’s Saturday and I was procrastinating anyway 🙂