Summer (Review)

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(Warning this review contains spoilers)

I made sure I watched this movie when I was home alone as I wasn’t sure how I’d react. I knew that the plot had Shaun as a carer for his friend and I’ve had some personal experience with that. Thankfully though it didn’t really dwell much on that aspect, and there were constant flashbacks which provided welcome relief. Daz saying he’d “had enough” and witnessing Shaun’s compulsive cleaning because he didn’t know what to do with himself, that was difficult viewing. The hospital appointment, not wanting help, that was familiar. I’d say they did their research.

Anyway, Robert Carlyle must be very strong. The actor that played Daz looked to be about the same size as him and RC held him one handed over his shoulder, then he picked up Daniel later (Will Scarlet actor). With the first scene, I would have brought the wheelchair over so there was no carrying required, but perhaps Shaun didn’t think of that.

Ratings are very strange. I mentioned in my review of Face that I was surprised it was an 18. Well this had some full frontal nudity, and the language was loads worse, but it was only a 15. How does that work?

This movie was basically just heartbreaking. The flashbacks to Shaun as a young child, and as a teenager, were bad enough on their own because I wanted somebody to help him. Unfortunately I know our education system and especially all those years ago, there just wasn’t the support. There’s not really the support now. They don’t like anyone that doesn’t fit in their boxes.

I was so scared and sad for Shaun when he was looking at the pills. Shaun lost everything really didn’t he? He always had a good heart, giving Daz his dinner without a word when they were kids, but he had a bad reputation because of his frustration and anger issues because of it. The hate he had from Katy’s parents was so sad. At least for a while he had Katy but then I’m guessing he went to jail for the arson and then he never saw her again.

When he got out he had to live with the fact that Daz was paralyzed, because he left him to run from the cops (from a crime he’d committed). Thankfully Daniel arrived and made him think twice about the pills, but Daz was Shaun’s purpose. I suppose now looking after Daniel is his purpose but still it’s not good. What happens when Daniel moves out and hopefully makes something of his life? The ending was quite unsatisfying in terms of hope, there really wasn’t any.

This movie was just miserable really. I’m not sure whether to recommend it or not because Robert Carlyle does give a fantastic performance, but it’s miserable viewing. I know not all movies are meant to entertain, some are meant to provoke thought etc. but there wasn’t much of a light side to this. It was just sad.

Rules: Tell us your favorite character from ten different fandoms and tag around 10 people.

@rowofstars​ thanks for the tag!

Different fandoms? So I can only have one character per show/per franchise? Oh man that’s hard! How am I supposed to choose? Also lists are scary because I have a brain like a sieve and I always forget the obvious.

Under the cut because gifs are fun 🙂

1) Samantha Carter (Stargate)

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Nicholas Rush was a very close second.

2) Rumplestiltskin (Once Upon a Time)

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Regina was a very close second.

3) Leo Fitz (Agents of Shield)

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With practically the entire cast right behind him. I love this show!

4) Two (Dark Matter)

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5) Spike Scarlatti (Flashpoint)

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Jules Callaghan was a very close second.

6) Ash Morgan (Hustle)

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Stacie Monroe was a very close second.

7) Catherine Willows (CSI)

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8) Irina Derevko (Alias)

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Jack Bristow and Marshall Flinkman were very close seconds.

9) Ellie Bishop (NCIS)

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This used to be Ziva David but the writers destroyed her character. Kensi Blye is a very close second.

10) Amita Ramanujan (Numb3rs)

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I hate it when I’m at the point in the fic where I think it’s the most rubbish fic in the world. It makes it really hard to keep going. *pokes fic* I’m sure you have some redeeming features right? *looks at it dubiously* you aren’t as bad as I think right? Yeah … I hope.

In Your Arms/To Be Loved! Jamie, Belle, and Neal: So would you three consider ever moving in together? Or is it too soon for that?

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I’d like nothing more. It’s a perfect dream. A life with Belle? Coming home, sleeping beside her every night, being a family? That would make me the luckiest man alive but … my head and heart say different things. I love Belle, and she loves me, I don’t understand why but I believe her.

Loving me will bring her nothing but pain and hardship but I can’t push her away for her own good, because Belle is like a shining light and it would be like saying I know better than she does and I don’t. The decision will always be hers. She deserves better than me. I want a life with her desperately but I also want her to be happy. I don’t know what to do.

It’s probably also too soon. We haven’t been dating that long after all and decisions made in haste are often mistakes. It may feel right now but when reality bites? I don’t dare broach the subject but I’ll try to tell Belle all of this if she asks. I don’t have anything to offer her, so the least I can do is be honest.

Can I pick door number all of them? Seriously, both 1 and 2 sounds amazing and the other fics you have planned are right up my alley!!! Everything you do is so wonderful!!!!! But (and feel free to reject this!) what if in 2 Belle and Gold start their affair, both trying to pretend it’s not as big a deal as it is, and then Gold’s taken. Belle spends months worrying about him and wishing she’d been brave enough to tell him the truth. When he’s saved she’s worried about overwhelming him (part 1)

(part 2) so she doesn’t tell him right away, but makes it clear through her actions that she feels more for him then just a way to scratch an itch. But Gold doesn’t believe her actions or words at first, thinking she’s just reacting to him almost dying and being her kind Belle self. There’d be angst and misunderstanding and she’d think he was pulling away while he hero-ed and then the climax on the roof would happen and the truth of their feelings would come out!!!

I’m sorry, I’ll stop writing your fic now >.< This idea clearly ran away with me!!! But please feel free to ignore it all.

You don’t have to apologize! Never apologize! I love chatting with you and your idea sounds great! 🙂 I didn’t have anything past “mutually pining and pretending they don’t care” and so you’ve completely solved the ‘how do we get from scenario 2, to their happy ending’.

I mean the ‘canon’ fic wasn’t all that different. They were both mutually pining idiots before Gold was kidnapped, just in the original vision they didn’t have this affair which obviously adds complications/layers to the situation. Although quite why I’m talking “canon” about the backstory for a fic which I haven’t written is quite bizarre. After all, I haven’t written it so in theory the fic we’re spinning now, could be the actual story.

Anyway, time seems to be running away from me right now. I have no idea how it got to be May. I have at least half a dozen fics I’ve promised already but I’ll certainly put this on the list. Hopefully it’ll be a nice surprise for you before your next birthday heh but given time’s disappearing act lately…

SAM!!! WHAT CAN I OFFER YOU TO GET SOME OF THAT ANGST?! They’re so happy, why do I want to see an AU where they suffer?! Feels are so weird! *side eyes self* I love this verse so much I just want it all!!!

An AU of an AU fic I’ve only referenced and not written. Is that even allowed? I mean I thought perhaps I’d gone too far when I wrote a sequel to a fic I’d not written yet. Besides which AU version did you want?

1) Where Belle thinks Gold has feelings, agrees to his ‘just sex proposal’ and then afterwards tries to talk to him about it. He denies he feels anything towards her, because he thinks she doesn’t have feelings. It’s possible he’s quite rude as a self-protection thing. Misunderstandings ensue and outright misery.

2) Where Belle thinks Gold has no interest in her beyond scratching the itch with someone discrete. Gold thinks that Belle only agreed for much the same reason given the hours that they both work, and how difficult it must be for her to have a relationship because she works so much. They both secretly love one another and massively pine while pretending they don’t care, and that it’s just about the sex.

I have no idea how to resolve either one off the top of my head. At some point they need to be honest but it’s working out what triggers that confession and reconciliation. What do you think? The second scenario is a little bit similar to two other AU’s I already have.

The first is the Business AU (Sweet Masquerade) where basically it’s just sex and they are both fine with that but the longer they are together, the more intimate it gets and feelings kinda emerge gradually. Because it’s a gradual thing it feels natural and there’s no big ‘realization’ moment, they just sort of slowly share more of their lives until they have a relationship as well. Maybe one day one of them remarks on it, but it’s not a big thing. This is 99% headcanon as I’ve only written that one little oneshot, and I don’t have any actual plans to write anymore in this verse, but sometimes I write more anyway when prompts happen.

The second is coincidentally the fic I haven’t written, where I wrote the sequel first. It’s GoldenLace and I’ve actually almost completely outlined it, I just haven’t written it but I will (I mean it’s all planned!). It’s just sex, and then when they realize they are getting too close, by mutual and unspoken agreement they stop seeing one another. Then by accident a few months later they bump into one another, admit how badly they missed each other, and start up again. They still don’t talk about the future much but they have dinner and talk about themselves/likes and dislikes etc. in addition to the sex. Then one day their relationship is made public, and that’s when they admit the feelings.

I have a long list of things to write but I’m happy to add to it, if you tell me what you’d like 🙂

Costume Party!Belle, if Gold had proposed sleeping together before he was taken, how would you have responded? Would you have taken it because you thought that was all you could have? Or would you have rejected the idea because you would have wanted all of him not just his body?

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I … I’m not sure.

Without hearing how the proposition was made it’s difficult to know. If there had been any suggestion that he had feelings then I would have agreed, thinking that we could talk about it. Knowing Cal as I do now, I suspect that would have been a disaster of misunderstandings, especially if he wasn’t honest because he was trying to protect himself from being hurt.

If it had sounded like the clinical “we’re two consenting adults, it’s just a biological urge, an itch to scratch” then I hope I would have said no. Being so close to him, and yet so far away, would have hurt. From what I know now, it would have hurt us both. However … the temptation to just pretend, and also not to lose him…

Basically I’m glad it never came up. I think it would have been painful and ended badly and we might never have got it sorted, and wound up as happy together as we are.

(OOC: The angst potential!)

Random thought that won’t leave me alone. I think I might have mentioned it before but I forget.

I’m convinced that Tiger Lily’s story about being a fairy, and the stuff with the Black Fairy etc. was supposed to be Tinkerbell’s story. I mean Tink was the fairy on Neverland, but maybe the actress didn’t have enough time because of iZombie so they had to give that story arc to another character.

I mean think about it. Tink tried to help Regina ‘find love’ and return from the dark side when no other fairy would. Given what happened with Fiona, perhaps Tink would have been searching for proof that love could save even the darkest of souls, perhaps she felt guilty about what happened. Tink couldn’t fix the Black Fairy, but she could save the realms from the Evil Queen. It would also have explained why Blue was so hard on Tink for ‘interfering’ and stripped her of her wings and banished her to Neverland. It has echos then, from one incident to the next, and of course Blue banishing ‘problem fairies’ to dark realms where time runs differently.

Don’t get me wrong it was fine that it was Tiger Lily. It’s just from what I remember from Peter Pan, it didn’t really seem to fit her story. I could be wrong though, I’m not that familiar with Peter Pan.

Costume Party!Gold, before you and Belle got together and before being taken prisoner, did you ever think of Belle romantically? And if so did you ever think she could return your feelings? (Or did you ever think of her in a short term kind of fling and you didn’t want to ruin what you had?)

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I was never the playboy type. I embraced the ruthless, dangerous side instead and didn’t let anyone get close. Women were a risk, not least because of the inevitable ‘kiss and tell’ articles. There were a number of fake ones anyway because people want their fifteen minutes, they certainly didn’t enjoy the lawsuit and injunctions my lawyers filed because of their lies.

Belle was always different, infinitely more dangerous but I couldn’t bring myself to fire her. I knew her well enough to know she would be discrete, and yes I did consider a short-term affair to get it out my system, and then a generous severance package while she found a new job when it inevitably ended. However, I never could summon up the courage. I didn’t want to lose her, not her smiles when I did something right, not her scolding when I worked half the night; she fit into my life and made it so much better.

I suppose I had a rather large case of denial. It wasn’t until I was taken prisoner that I admitted to myself that I’d somehow fallen in love with her. I never believed for one second that she could possibly return my affections. I resolved that if I lived, if I managed to escape, that I would never tell her. If I did then I would lose her from my life completely. I would rather have kept Belle as a friend, than not had her at all.

Fortunately for us both, there was that incident at my factory. High on adrenaline, and the rush of survival, I kissed her (although Belle maintains she kissed me) and I admitted my feelings. I tried to apologize, I wanted to pretend it hadn’t happened, but Belle wouldn’t let me. She said for a genius, I was an utter idiot. We’ve been together ever since.