Well I just finished my third fic for Rumbelle Order in the Court thanks to @worryinglyinnocent. I wrote myself into a corner, and thanks to them my plot got fixed 🙂 Anyway, I still have two more ideas for that event, but the Divorce and Escorts one I’m never going to finish because it could be novel length. The other one is Lachacy Community Service which is a possibility but I’m not feeling that idea today.

However, looking at my list now and knowing I can write anything without guilt (ok there is a fair amount of guilt) I’m thinking perhaps my GoldenLace idea for next months smut Monthly Rumbelling prompt, because apparently writing things I can post isn’t a thing anymore.

Seriously, I have five finished fics and nothing to post, but hey why not make it six? At least I’m writing again, or at least I am today, the experiment lasts a week for a reason – I suck at consistency. Anyway, we have partial success so let’s go with that 🙂

Another random writing post I’m afraid. Yesterday, when I sat down to write, it didn’t go according to plan. Today started off even worse, with a blank document and a blinking cursor for waaaaay too long.

I keep finding myself booting stupid puzzle games that don’t take long, then refreshing tumblr, then back to staring at the document, before my brain wants to take another vacation and the cycle starts again. I’ve always had this tendency but last year I managed to train my brain relatively effectively and now it’s like I’m back at the beginning. My focus = zero. Seriously, my total amount written each month is going steadily down rather than up. It’s not a good trend. It’s frightening me.

There’s one more week left in March, and then it’s Camp NaNo, so I’m going to try something potentially stupid. I’m utterly terrified at how it’s nearly April, and all the things I haven’t done, but for the next week I’m not going to police what I write. I’m not going to say “you should be writing X”. Instead I’m going to write whatever I feel like so long as I write something. The goal is to remember how to focus. My target will be pure word count, the actual project is immaterial.

This is how I kickstarted my writing last June and that surge of productivity lasted six months. So you know how I said I wanted to update my WIP’s by the end of the month? Yeah I really seriously do but I want to remember how to word even more. If I do remember how to word then I will hopefully be able to update faster again in future. Sort of short-term bad for hopeful long-term gain.

I’m going to shut up now, but that’s my plan. Here’s hoping it works because I really, really have waaaay too much to write to be as unfocused as I’ve become. Seriously, it is terrifying.

My word counter says I’ve written less than 300 words. LIES!

Well obviously not but still really?

How did it get to be March 22nd? *panics* alright as I said yesterday I clearly need a little outside incentive at the moment. I don’t know why posting here seems to focus me on writing but until I can do it for myself again, I’m just going to be irritating. Apologies for that.

On today’s docket, at least 1k on a non-fandom project and then I should really work on WIP’s. Seriously the 22nd, how? Under My Skin hasn’t been updated in almost seven weeks, Painting Layers of Love in almost four. I feel terrible about that, so lets try for an update on both before the end of the month at least. I’ll do Under My Skin first as that’s been neglected the longest.

Right plan made!

#hopefully i’ll get my writing discipline back soon and then i can stop with these random posts