I GOT INTO UNI!!!!

You guys are the absolute best! Thank you all so much! 🙂 I’m so excited eeeek heh, this is going to make such a huge difference to my life. It’s a massive step for me and even though it’s corny (and I’m sorry for that) I’m going to borrow from Once and say I’m viewing this as the start of a happy beginning 🙂

I really couldn’t be more pleased. Induction events start on September 25th. That’s just shy of 7 weeks or 48 days and counting (if I’ve done my math right – good job I haven’t applied for a math course heh). Not that I’m counting … oh who am I kidding I’m counting! I can’t wait to start!

Anyway now my anxiety isn’t at eleven hopefully I’ll be able to crack on and write some things! *hugs all of you guys* Thank you!!!

joylee56 replied to your post

Congratulations!

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Yaaayyy!

mariequitecontrarie reblogged your post and added: “I GOT INTO UNI!!!!”

YES!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! Knew you would!!!

Awwww *hugs you all* thank you so much!! Eeek I’m still so thrilled about it! 🙂

scribbles-by-kate reblogged your post and added: “emospritelet replied to your post CONGRATULATIONS! worryinglyinnocent…”

Aw, you’re welcome! I remember when I went back after a good few years away from academia. I was like you, so anxious until I got the news, and then I was so excited and couldn’t wait to start. It felt right :)I hope it’s a wonderful experience for you 🙂

Thank you so much! Yeah I’m 27. I dropped out of uni six years ago so it has been a while. I definitely can’t wait to start! It does feel very right 🙂

grace52373 reblogged your post and added: “emospritelet replied to your post CONGRATULATIONS! worryinglyinnocent…”

It took me awhile and a lot of soul searching on deciding what career I wanted to pursue but when I went back, I was as excited as you are! Congratulations!

Thank you! 🙂 Yeah I really feel like I’ve got it right this time. With hindsight I know I took the wrong course last time. I mean the right course wouldn’t have helped back then, too much other life stuff going on, but it’s different now. It’s a second chance!

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WOOOOOOOOOOOO! We’ll be in school at the same time. That’s super great. If you don’t mind telling us, what are you going to study?

*HUGS YOU TIGHT*

Yay! *hugs you back just as tightly* I saw your post briefly when I was on mobile but then it disappeared, and I’m sorry I have a brain like a sieve and the next time I was on the PC I’d forgotten *hides in box of shame* Massive, massive congrats! I will super miss you if you do leave, or go incognito. I know we don’t talk often but it’s always a pleasure. However, I completely understand and I wish you all the luck in the world! I hope it works out fabulously for you!

No I don’t mind saying in the slightest 🙂 I applied for “English Literature with Creative Writing” but because I haven’t previously studied English Literature I didn’t qualify. However, they offer a foundation level, so an extra year of study making it a 4 year course. So I’ll be doing the “Bridge to Humanities” this year and then progressing to my dream course next year.

I’m not disappointed by this because it’s right. I would much rather gain solid footing than be floundering in the deep end, all at sea and not understanding. Plus I’ve been out of education a while, out of the world generally, and an easier introduction can only be a good thing. It’ll give me an extra year to get on my feet and really be able to make the most of the course.

I think part of me is still a bit stunned. I wanted this so badly and now it’s happening I’m dazed going “for me? really?” because wow, I can’t believe it! I’m nervous obviously, a little bit petrified to be honest that it’s not going to work out, but I’m very hopeful and I’m certainly going to do my absolute best.

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I completely feel you on the “for me? really???” I feel just like that. I giggle randomly and have little capers around my house, or down the sidewalk if I’m not careful. I will miss you very much if I have to disappear. I think there may be some people I reach out to after the death of this blog because we’re close enough that I feel safe to do so. I do so enjoy our little exchanges and I would dearly love to meet you some day.

I think taking your time and doing the in depth study is the way to go because you get the chance to dig into the material and into yourself in a way that a rushed program just cant’ offer. This accelerated, or intensive crap is, to me, just that. I think going too fast robs you of the chance to do your very best work.

That sound perfect for you, I can just see you loving the hell out of your program.

I’m so, very, very happy for you. *hugs*

For myself, thank you very much. I hardly know what to do with myself these days because things are so amazingly awesome. I feel like I have the chance to do the thing I have always dreamed about. Well, you understand. I know you do.

I’m so very happy for you! 🙂

Yeah I do understand. I feel the same about my course. So *happy dance* all around I think! If you are ever in England feel free to let me know. It’s a small enough country we could probably meet up somewhere 🙂 There’s a few of us on this side of the Atlantic, if there’s enough notice we might be able to Rumbelle shippers unite or whatever people call these meet-ups.

Heh I’m re-reading this response to make sure I’ve responded to everything, and I’m just re-reading the “I hardly know what to do with myself these days” line and oh yeah! That is the exact feeling. It’s like woah, I’m dizzy with disbelief at the awesomeness and how can it still be seven weeks away? I just want to dive in and get started and enjoy this new stage of my life.

*hugs you* It’s just all so great. Hopefully these positive vibes will flow around the fandom and more people will have great things happen! I would love that, I really like it when people are happy! 🙂

17. Who was your first OTP and are they still your favourite?

Posted on August 8, 2017 by Sam

Jack Malone and Samantha Spade – Without a Trace

Oh the fanfic I wrote. I was deep into this fandom. It was my first fandom. I ran a fansite, I made up music lists (complete with art for CD covers), I did fanart generally with wallpapers and icons and stuff(it was early 2000′s it’s what people did). I wrote countless metas. I screencapped episodes and uploaded galleries as a resource. Oh I made fanmixes where I interspersed dialogue with music, I also made actual fan videos. If it was a fan thing, you name it then I did it. Ah can’t forget the fanlistings! I never was lucky enough to run the actual relationship one but I grabbed whatever I could get e.g. key episodes.

So yeah I really was very deep into this. Then I fell out of love with the show. I don’t know if they had a change in writers, showrunners, or just a change in direction. I adored the first two seasons and season three was ok but season four? It was like watching people pretending they were playing the characters I’d come to know and love. It just didn’t feel right.

Basically I quit the show. I stayed on the edges of the fandom for a long time afterwards, finishing up fanfics etc. but I closed down a lot of what I was doing. That was less to do with the show/pairing and more to do with where my life was at. I was 16, I was graduating high school, I wanted to write more original fiction. That was basically the start of when I got out of fandom. I was out for about ten years before Rumbelle pulled me back in.

In answer to your question, no they aren’t my favorite anymore. Rumbelle has that honor! Do I still ship them? Well it’s been a very long time since I’ve even watched the show (I’m getting nostalgic now, I might have to pull out my DVD’s) but I can’t see why I wouldn’t still ship them. I’m not active but I haven’t forgotten why I fell hard and fast for this pairing.

TMI: Ask Me Things?

TMI Tuesday

Posted on August 8, 2017 by Sam

Ask me about the show. Ask me anything about my fics, ask my characters anything. You can send me a word and if it’s in my WIP doc then I’ll post a teaser snippet. I accept prompts for any of my existing verses.

This week I posted:
Nothing BUT I am aiming to write today … I know famous last words and all 🙂 I’m having trouble focusing as I’m so worried about my uni application (I still haven’t heard) and being in limbo is just ugh. I need to know what’s happening! I know I need to be patient but that’s hard. Anyway, swords aloft, onward and charge in the war of words!

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Spiderman: Homecoming

Posted on August 4, 2017 by Sam

Saw this Wednesday night and dsjfgsdfjsdlkfjkldsfjklsd

I somehow managed to avoid spoilers and that meant that the surprises were 100% a surprise which led to me punching the air in the movie theater and just generally it made it a better experience!! Yes that was a very long sentence but asdjalskdjalskdjals I mean it was a keyboard smash kinda movie!

So spoilers spoilers, avoid if you haven’t seen it, do not click ok?

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Miracles Happen (Rumbelle Summer Vacation)

Posted on August 2, 2017 by Sam

worryinglyinnocent:

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Synopsis: Miracles happen … when you believe. A few years ago Rumplestiltskin and Belle grabbed their happy beginning with both hands. Neither of them ever forgot Belle’s desire to see the world; or the desire they share to show it to their son. Once Gideon is old enough they start making trips including a grand summer tour of England. They visit the North York Moors Railway and Gideon is entranced by the trains resulting in a rather sooty incident.

Note: Written for @rumbellesummervacation.

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Rumplestiltskin
took a deep breath as he climbed out of the drivers seat of the rental car. The
distinctive scent of smoke was heavy on the air, the twisting grey and black
plume rising from the steam train that was currently at the station. It had
been over four years since they had grasped their ‘happy beginning’ with both
hands. They hadn’t ventured far from Storybrooke when Gideon was a baby but
Rumplestiltskin had never forgotten Belle’s dream to see the world.

Now Gideon was
older they had started to take regular trips. Belle had a long list which
spanned all seven continents, including a lot of places in England, so
they’d embarked on a ‘grand summer tour’. For the next few days they would be
exploring the North Yorkshire Moors, starting today with the heritage steam
railway.

“Papa! Papa!
Look!” Gideon bounced impatiently on the spot, excitedly pointing at the train.

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For all the holidays I spent in Yorkshire I don’t think I ever went on the railway. I loved this, so sweet and so typically rumbelle. I liked the little touch of Belle viewing her make-up in the same way as Rumpel viewing his suits, and the fact they both let go of that armour.

This has made me so nostalgic for my own family holidays from when I was a kid!

Awww thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed the fic 🙂

Now excuse me while I fall over in horror that you never went to the railway! Hehe 🙂 I made the banner with my own vacation snaps, I went looking in my folder and I think I’ve been 4 or 5 times. Pretty much every time I go to Yorkshire I spend a day at the NYMR. It’s one of the longest steam railways in the country so it really feels like it’s worth it. You go on some heritage railways and you are on the train for all of five minutes.

Anyway, if you go to Yorkshire again heh, I’d highly recommend 🙂

Miracles Happen!Belle: I’m so happy that your dream of seeing the world is coming true. So, you’re in the North Yorkshire Moors. Do you plan to see Haworth Parsonage in West Yorkshire (I suck at geography, so I’m not sure how far you are from that) where Charlotte Bronte wrote Jane Eyre? I know you love books, so I thought it might interest you. Well, wherever you go, have a wonderful time!

Posted on August 1, 2017 by Sam

Belle: Ooooh no I didn’t know that! *checks online* It’s about two and a half hours from here … but I suppose when we leave to go … oh there’s a museum, oh Rumple …

Rumple: I take it we’re making a detour? *smiles*

Posted on August 1, 2017 by Sam

Miracles Happen Fic Rambles …
… well alright not really fic rambles but a related rant

My official reason for not including a gift shop segment is because I think it’s fairly predictable that Rumple would buy Belle and Gideon anything they wanted. My unofficial reason is I’m still bitter about the change to the Thomas the Tank Engine models. I feel so old complaining that they “don’t make them like they used to” but I have the proper diecast collection!

The new ones are plastic! With detachable magnetic tenders! So very wrong. I mean I’m not a kid anymore but I confess I used to still buy models I didn’t have to complete my collection when I visited heritage railways. Then they changed the models and I couldn’t do that anymore. So yeah I didn’t write a gift shop section in case it turned into a several hundred word rant about the models.

I mean I’m not a proper collector. My models are in a plastic tub under my bed, not in boxes or anything. The ones I’ve had since I was little are dented and chipped where they have been thoroughly played with. I just … it’s weird, I’m not a train enthusiast exactly because I don’t know anything about them. I like the smell of steam trains, I like visiting heritage railways but that’s kinda it. I think it’s just like a nostalgia thing, a touchstone to a happy thing from my childhood. The models were usually less than $5 so it’s not like it was an expensive souvenir either. Ooops I’m all grumpy now.

In happier news did you know that the proper Thomas the Tank Engine series is on Amazon Prime? The one narrated by Ringo Starr that was filmed with models and not “new” animation. Geez I really don’t like progress do I? *hides* It’s not something I would ever sit and watch myself but if/when my cousins eventually have kids, I’m going to introduce them to it hehe 🙂

You can see why I didn’t make this my authors note *rolls eyes at self*

TMI Tuesday

Posted on August 1, 2017 by Sam

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– Miracles Happen (Rumbelle Summer Vacation)

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Posted on July 29, 2017 by Sam

My focus has been shot the last few days. Everything has felt like too much effort. I actually spent about two hours this morning literally just sitting and basically staring into space. Why do that? It’s so pointless. Wtf me right? I haven’t even been posting the facts/challenge in the NaNo cabin last couple of days because I’ve felt so blah. I am actually sorry for that.

I was alright last week when I was doing about six things at once. I still think I could have done more, and that I could have done things faster, but things at least got done. This week? Not so much. It’s like if I only have one non-critical thing to do, my subconcious decides it’s naptime and doesn’t want to do anything more strenuous than laying on the couch watching TV (I wish I was joking, I know I’m awful).

Anyway, this morning I opened up my fic for the Rumbelle Vacation event. I’ve been trying to write it all week, it’s not going to be the first fic in the world and it’s certainly not going to be the longest, there’s literally no reason to have procrastinated on it this badly. It got to about 2pm and I still hadn’t done anything so I was like screw it, I’ll try something really weird.

I have two monitors so I opened up a video game in one window and kept the fic open in the other. I chose a boring activity in game (archaeology and leveling pets) so there’s a lot of flying around, not much doing anything and nothing that I can’t ignore if I get a flow going.

I wrote 1k in an hour. When I’m on form I can do twice that, so it’s not anything to jump up and down about, but it’s more than I’d written all day. Actually it’s nearly as much as I’ve written all month (this month I tell you). So I have no clue why I’m writing all this down and you are probably wondering the same (if you’ve bothered reading this far) but I just found it amusing.

Another few hundred words and I’ll have this fic finished, which given that I have to post on Tuesday is just as well heh 🙂

theoneandonlylittlebird reblogged your post and added: “My focus has been shot the last few days. Everything has felt like too…”

So I read all of that and so sorry you’re feeling like this…

BUT OMG??!!! you can write 2k/hour? Like holy shit you’re speedy! When things are good I can write ~1k per hour… I stare off into space for long periods at a time, the type then repeat. I wonder what focus like that would be like???

Seriously, that impresses the crap out of me.

But stepping away from my shock and awe, sorry you’re feelin’ less than stellar. Big hugs!

Awww you are sweet, thank you! Good news I have finished the fic! I need to title it, write a synopsis and read through it to check for errors, but the draft is done at least 🙂

Anyway, I haven’t done 2k in an hour in a long time, I might be capable of it but it doesn’t happen very often. Besides it’s not really about speed, it’s about the individual writers process. Like you probably put a great deal more thought into what you write, so you probably produce a much more polished first draft. I’m very much run, run, run and then I often wind up with a mess I have to fix. That’s what works for me. I find blank pages harder to deal with.

I know some people that write a lot faster than I do. Writing is a journey. It’s better with friends because who doesn’t like company and encouragement? But everybody’s journey is still different *hugs* I hope that made sense. If you want to try and get faster than time yourself. Do sprints of say 15 minutes at a time and track how many words you write. Over time I promise the numbers will go up, but only do that if you want. Like I said it’s not for everyone. Only do what works for you! 🙂

Song Game

Posted on July 29, 2017 by Sam

Top Songs

@theoneandonlylittlebird thanks for the tag! I love music 🙂

Rule: List the top ten songs you are listening to nowadays and tag (ten) mutuals

Well I could off my iTunes top 10 most played but it says “nowadays” and I just got a bunch of new music so I think I’ll do half and half…

I don’t want to be sad – Simple Plan
Jet Pack Blues – Fall Out Boy
Coin for the Ferryman – Nickelback
Shut Up and Dance – Alex Goot & Jake Daniels
Put Your Hands Up – Matchbox Twenty
Wonder Why – Rides Again
Odd One – Sick Puppies
I’m a Bitch – Shania Twain
I’l Be Your Man – James Blunt
Once Upon a Lifetime – Ronan Keating

I can’t believe I didn’t include any Thousand Foot Krutch on there. They are my current favorite artist. You know I think that’s because I would have just wanted to put entire albums. Oh wow there’s no Tobias Regner either 🙁 can we extend this to the top … 50? I might stand a chance of including something from most of my top artists then.

Tagging: @rowofstars, @sarashouldbestudying, @mariequitecontrarie, @little-inkstone if you want, ignore if you don’t 🙂

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