@rowofstars thank you so much for the tag! 🙂 I wasn’t sure whether to do this for Rumbelle, Rumbelle + anyelle, or all Once fic. I’ve gone with all Once fic in the end so basically my entire AO3 🙂

What are your five most popular works by kudos? (in descending order)

1) Painting Layers of Love – [Tumblr, AO3]
Kudos: 128

Belle French lives alone and she likes it that way. She’s lived alone ever since the terrible car accident which killed her mother and claimed her eyesight. Belle spends her days painting, in complete solitude, until one day she wakes up and hears movement outside. Somebody has moved into the cottage next door. She had grown comfortable in her solitary existence until Mr Gold crashes into her life. Now her future is uncertain, like a blank canvas, waiting for her to apply the paint and decide what kind of story she is creating.

With this story I kinda feel like I’ve created something bigger than me. It started by accident, I wrote a little ficlet to go with a prompt aesthetic and I deliberately left the end open. Shameful confession time, I did that deliberately because I hoped people would ask for more. It was soon after I joined the fandom and I guess as I was new I felt a little invisible, I know I shouldn’t try and justify the deliberate baiting by having the ficlet end on an argument, as that’s probably wrong. Like I said shameful confession. Anyway I didn’t plan this fic, it just sort of evolved into a monster WIP and it means an incredible amount. I promise, I know I keep saying that but I do mean it, I will update at some point *hides*

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I had a random fic idea today. I was watching Countdown. Now I know that they film several episodes in a day and are just pretending that it’s “see you tomorrow” but they do have the same presenters. I wondered to myself what happened if they were ill. I figured if at all possible they would suspend filming until they were better rather than find a substitute.

THEN I wondered what happened if news presenters were ill because that was live, so they would have to find someone else. Then I went a step further (hence fic idea).

The newsroom canteen accidentally served some bad food, knocking out all the regular presenters with food poisoning, which takes at least a few days to recover from. The only people left with any training to present the news are Belle, who is paying her dues and hoping for a job as a correspondent overseas as she always wanted to travel, and Gold a former presenter who lost his nerve and has stayed in the editing room ever since.

Can they make it through the week without disaster? Will Belle be able to help Gold find his courage? Will Gold be able to help Belle find what she has always been searching for? I don’t know, that kind of thing 🙂

I also had an idea for another drawing. As if my hand doesn’t already hurt enough heh. There has to be a better way of doing the block coloring. I will have to look into that! I want to improve as much as possible after all.

Does anyone else wonder sometimes if their brain is subconsciously punishing them? I’ve never had the courage to say type that out loud before because it just seems so patently ridiculous. I know what I need to do so just do it and if I don’t do the thing, then there’s no-one to blame but me. I need to take responsibility when I suck and not muse like this over my brain punishing me.

Seriously though is it possible?

Last week I was dying to do this drawing project but I told myself PRIORITIES and that fic came first. Fast forward a week and a few words have been written but nowhere near enough. I’ve had ample time to finish the writing projects but it’s just been a big nope on the focusing.

So is my brain sulking? Is it going “you wouldn’t let me do what I wanted so *sticks tongue out* sucks to be you, I’m not going to cooperate” – like I said patently ridiculous. It’s not like I can just do what I feel like all the time. I mean priorities but telling my brain to grow up if it’s sulking isn’t working.

I’m relatively sure (or at least I hope) that if my priorities were actual priorities (aka stuff with an actual deadline, as opposed to just fanfics I want done) then I would actually do it. It’s just like fanfic vs fanart = brain sulking in the corner.

My poor friend who usually gets these type of rambles from me isn’t online yet heh, so that’s why my dash is getting it. Honestly the AMR fic at least does have a deadline aka 2 days! Stupid brain *slaps self* write damn you!

Writing is going slowly. Seriously didn’t I use to be faster at this? I guess it’s like a muscle, if you don’t use it, then you lose it.

Also I freaking love Lacey

Lacey is just so damn fun to write 🙂

#I love Lacey#lacey is a sass queen or at least she is in my head and i certainly hope that’s coming across on the page

Right *cracks knuckles* I have two fics to write/finish and post before the end of the month. That’s … 5 days … oh shit *cracks knuckles harder* (not really I can’t actually do that, it just seems like the thing to say) LET’S DO THIS THING!

… a story by me.

This fic is just getting longer and longer. I have more than enough to give you chapter one of probably about three tomorrow but I don’t think I can bear another story with the incomplete tag. The shame of those I haven’t updated in forever cuts too deep.

BUT it’s ok because I have another idea! Which will be shorter! I can write it and still post something tomorrow! It’s continuing a prompt verse even! Except … what happened between then and this fic? *head meets desk* because clearly something will have had to happen for Lacey and Gold to go from sort of flirting friends to established relationship.

Yeah I’m starting to get the feeling there might not be fic tomorrow.

#i think i live in that box of shame at the moment#where does the time go