Do you ever have completely the ‘wrong’ reaction to something? Then wonder why you are the only one?

In class today we saw a clip from “The Room” it was in the context of a film being so bad it was good and how the culture around watching it changed the experience.

However, all I could think was this was a class depiction of the beginnings of an abusive relationship. Maybe it was the clip and in context it wouldn’t appear like that I don’t know. I just found it very disturbing that people were laughing at the emotional blackmail and beginnings of physical abuse.

I didn’t say anything because of the ridicule I faced a couple of weeks ago. We watched this advert which I’d never seen before and until the end I thought it was for childline or something like that and the tag would be “emotional neglect is not ok” or something similar but apparently it was advertising John Lewis at Christmas. Other people were saying how the advert was all about love and family and I just hadn’t read it that way.

It really makes me wonder sometimes if there’s something wrong with me.

puddlejumper38 replied to your post “Do you ever have completely the ‘wrong’ reaction to something? Then…”

I know the film you mean, and although I haven’t seen it myself, my sister has and she was describing it like it was the funniest thing in the world. And… well… I agree with you. Things she was laughing at sounded pretty awful, and I think I should add that no one else in my family laughed either.

This is so reassuring thank you! It’s really nice to hear that I’m not alone.

I wanted to reply to you yesterday but I wasn’t on the PC. I really miss the reply extension when I’m on mobile. I’ve got so used to it that it’s annoying to realize it’s not an actual feature.

Can I have a time-turner please?

Too many things to do and not enough time.

There’s this scene on NCIS where Tony gets out of the car, walks three paces, screams and then gets back in the car – it feels a bit like that!

#cries#I know taking the time to write this post is self-defeating but gah I need to let it out somehow

In better news because I do try (operative word try) not to be negative, as what’s the point in spreading misery? I just went and got back my first piece of marked work. I was terrified going to get it because what if it sucked? And I’m not university material? But after reading “this is excellent” and “impressive” I think I passed that particular assignment.

So I didn’t even get an interview for the part-time job I applied for. No idea where I went wrong, and they don’t offer feedback on applications as they have too many of them to bother. I’ve no idea what the ratio of applications to positions was so I guess it could have just been a pure numbers thing.

I do feel kinda shitty though.

Random but I’m quite proud of myself. I feel like I’ve passed a test.

7.02 Once went up on Netflix yesterday. I really, really wanted to watch it but I had uni work to do. By the time I’d finished the uni work it was late. I could have stayed up but I decided to be sensible and that the episode wasn’t going anywhere.

I know this is silly and basic but I’m feeling very adult today. I probably won’t get to watch until Friday now so I guess I have something to look forward to 🙂

I’m trying out this productivity app and I like it and everything but …

I can’t cross stuff out.

Does that make me old? It’s just for me half the goodness of a ‘to do’ list is crossing off the tasks when I’ve done them. Just tapping the screen and having them disappear isn’t in anyway satisfying.

#actually in all honesty since starting uni i have been feeling increasingly old#although there is also the disturbing realization that there are kids starting high school now that weren’t born until after i graduated#how did i get to be so old? i still feel like i’m barely 19 and actually i can pass for 19 very few people believe i’m 27#i did the math and i’m closer in age to some of the lecturers than my fellow students#i printed out my timetable and i write my assignments in a diary rather than reaching for my phone#i still feel old though no matter how young i look#in fact i’d left the university for the first time before my fellow students started high school#they had a find us on social media slide and i didn’t know what half the icons were

worryinglyinnocent replied to your post:
I’m trying out this productivity app and I like it…

No, you’re not old. Well, if you are then I’m old as well. Actually, I’m 27 too so this is probably a moot point. Come sunday I will be making my ‘pre-christmas jobs’ list which is long-hand and usually runs to three pages, and colouring the ones I’ve done in highlighter pens is so incredibly satisfying.

Oooooh color coding? I like that! I have some amazing highlighters actually. I call them the best highlighters in the world because a) they don’t dry out and b) they somehow don’t get dirty, they are just always perfect. I have no clue where I got them but I always like having an opportunity to use them.

I hope you have fun with your jobs list! I’m going to plot how I can use my highlighters somehow 🙂 I mean the phone on the list is portable and efficient as it has all the data re: deadlines etc. in the same small space. It’s just not as satisfying, there has to be some sort of middle ground, hmm…

Morning all! 🙂

Induction week is now over – phew heh (that was tiring) and I finally have my schedule for the semester. Things will be a bit shaky for the first couple of weeks as I settle into the new routine. For the next couple of weeks I’m planning on timing myself so I roughly know how long it takes to do my prep-reading for class etc. BUT this weekend I’m going to try and get myself organized. I feel like I have enough intel now to plot out a loose plan for doing things.

I’ve been really rubbish last month or so because I felt like I was in a holding pattern, like there was no point in starting a new routine really because it was all going to change once I started uni. Well I’ve now started and I’m super pumped (and still somewhat terrified) but I’m going to try and ride the wave of positivity and get myself sorted. I’m someone that has to have everything squared away before I can start, if life is too ‘up in the air’ or haphazard then I’m just frozen in fear about forgetting stuff etc. and can’t do anything.

So yeah I’m still here, and stuff will be happening, just bear with me while my life completely changes 🙂

Guess who is grinning like an idiot because it’s day one and I’ve already got homework? Yup it’s me 🙂

#i probably won’t be this excited about it in a few weeks although i hope i am because it’s a nice feeling#oh by the way i know my queue has run out i’ll repopulate it when i get a chance

Hey everyone *waves* I know I’ve been really quiet lately, I’m alternating between giddy excitement and terrified anxiety. My uni course starts on Monday and Urk as I said terrified and excited 🙂 however before then I’m going away for a couple of days. I’m back Saturday night so on the off chance anyone messages me – I’m not here 🙂

Once I get into the swing of my new routine I’m sure I’ll be more active again. Have a great week everyone!

Hehe I think I might have been a teeny bit too excited 🙂

I got my online registration email for my course today and I immediately ran to do it – quite literally! I was sleepily checking my phone early this morning (which is a sunday) saw it and bolted out of bed. I went through all the steps …. aaaaand yeah I don’t think they were quite expecting anyone just yet. All the stuff up there is about last year.