So I didn’t get to the John/James flashback in the end as John decided to have a mental crisis first. I mean that was what provoked him to remember their first kiss but I didn’t realise it was going to take quite that many words…

This was the first POV I’d done with John because I wanted to leave it until later, I was trying to plant clues for people (what people? nobody’s reading this /facepalm) to guess what happened in Praxis and this scene basically confirmed it for anyone familiar with canon. Though obviously it will get totally confirmed, and John’s questions answered, when they eventually return to Praxis.

Poor man. I have flavours of Bucky Barnes and Teal’c in there because they both had some killer lines about guilt and forgiveness. I know that scenes with just ‘thinking’ aren’t very dynamic but while John is desperate to talk to Helen and James he’s also terrified of what they’ll say. Which is valid because they aren’t ready to hear it yet.

Anyway tomorrow the actual flashback! Man this fic is one long mess haha. Oh dear. You know I did at least get an itch to write a oneshot Sanctuary fic today. I started thinking wouldn’t it be nice to write an AU where John was never cursed. I was thinking John and Helen’s wedding day (in which James of course would be whispering the vows along with them) which would be as tooth-rottingly fluffy as you can imagine. I might just have to do that.

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