I just realised I’ve been going mad over Seven/Raffi but there’s little rambling on here. I’ve been rambling all over the discord instead. Anyway, I still haven’t watched last weeks episode (damn UK delay) but I saw a spoiler and I have THOUGHTS and feelings. It hurts and I’m actually going to make it a post this time.

Right so Seven said that she tried to join StarFleet when Voyager got back from the Delta Quadrant but they wouldn’t let her – instant agony! All I could think was of the first Voyager episodes when Seven was so desperate to rejoin the collective because she didn’t want to be alone – she wasn’t used to it, and she needed connection – and Janeway told her that the crew would be her new collective. They were individuals, but Seven would be one among many – she wouldn’t be alone. That was what Janeway offered her if Seven stayed.

I’m going fucking feral right now at the thought that Voyager got back and the crew went their separate ways. They had families and lives to return to – BUT SEVEN DIDN’T! Seven only had the crew of Voyager but it was alright because Voyager was a “StarFleet crew” and she could transfer her connection to the larger whole – AND THEN THEY TURNED HER DOWN!

Now I could write a freaking essay about how bloody stupid that was. Especially given what StarFleet eventually did with the xB’s and integrating borg tech into their own ships. Surely a ex-borg that had been free the longest, and was already loyal to StarFleet would have been useful? But I digress.

Adrift, alone, with nothing but her skills and her need to affirm her humanity Seven joins the Rangers. All she has is the work. She’s good at it but it has to be lonely. As a Ranger she works alone. There are other Rangers but it’s a big galaxy – a bit of the old “one riot, one Ranger” going on. She meets and helps lots of people but the connection is fleeting – she doesn’t BELONG anywhere – and it’s the belonging that Seven needed/searched for and then are they really telling me for 20 fucking years (or however long it’s been since Voyager?) that Seven didn’t have it?!?!?

No bloody wonder she’s having issues with commitment, and needing to keep moving or be vulnerable. The one damn thing she wanted – to join StarFleet – the thing that she made herself VULNERABLE for – and she lost it. They rejected her.

Oh the agony.