It’s been three and a half years and I still miss Marvel Heroes.

I loved that game and it got shutdown, went offline and there is zero access. I will never get to play it again. When I bought the game, I bought access for the length it was online. There was nothing permanent about it.

I dislike that. I like to hold onto things and revisit them. The nature of the world with subscriptions rather than owning, means things are transitory. That’s sad.

Because it leads me back to the fact that I miss Marvel Heroes and I can’t do anything about it.

I’m watching Loki and I remember playing Loki in the game, and casting the illusions and teleporting between them. I remember playing Iron Man and my favourite button was the circular move he did at the end of Iron Man 2 which cut everything down. Taskmaster was my favourite to play I think, that had such a good mix of abilities, including a Captain America bouncing shield one. I play a paladin in Warcraft and that has Avengers shield. Clearly that’s my thing.

I’m installing the Assassin’s Creed games again on the new PC. It made me think about the movie I watched recently, and how cool it was that I saw so much I recognised from the games. When I like a TV show/movie, I like to be close to it, crawl inside and become part of it. I suppose that’s part of the attraction of fanfic. I’m creating in the world so I’m imagining it, getting closer to what I love. Not sure that makes sense.

I have a couple of options for Star Wars at the moment. There is Jedi Fallen Order which I own, though the Origin integration does worry me. There’s Swtor which one day will shut down. There are Marvel games but none hit the spot quite like Marvel Heroes did 🙁