Urk I have forgotten how to word.

Seriously!

I suppose I deserve it after writing next to nothing all year, and then trying to write a) an original story and b) something partly started, I’m picking it up in the middle for crying out loud! No runaway fun with the beginning.

Still this is painfully slow, like I’m shocked and appalled at how little I’ve done when I was hoping instead for shock and awe.

I was hoping to start the first day with a bang but this is more like a whimper, a little pathetic plea of suckage. Disgruntled! That’s the word, that’s what I am.

Hmm this is not the status post I wanted to write. I wanted buzzing excitement and success. Boo hiss. Soon! Only way is up right?