mariequitecontrarie  asked:

Saturday: What gets you excited while writing?

I have to be honest (which is sad because I’m trying to be all peppy here for some unknown reason) – ok yeah long sentence sorry. Erm right yes answer! I haven’t felt excitement when writing for a long time.

Buuuuuuuuut

Back in the day when words happened I think the answer would be – because it hit my buttons.

Or to put in a more sensible phrase – when I write what I love. I mean that’s why genres and stuff exist right? So people can easily find stuff like what they already love, so they can immerse themselves in it. You know what I’m talking about – repeated things that just you like.

Like Between Two Fires – that seriously hit so many of my buttons, it was like a pure me fic and I loved every second of it.

So TLDR indulgence fic? I get excited when I write what I love.

To this day I remember how this four-way crossover fic just poured out of me. Absolute rubbish? Probably. But it merged together the 4 shows I was watching at the time and I laughed my way through writing it, my fingers could not type fast enough, I was literally cackling with glee.

More to the point it wasn’t just what I loved – it was that I was free when writing. I wasn’t worried about quality because that ridiculous nonsense probably wouldn’t appeal to anyone else (though I did post it on ff.net). I wasn’t writing for a deadline, or for other people, I was just gleefully rolling around in what I loved and having a damn good time.

I think a lot of excitement is lost due to pressure and fear – alotalot of fear, like I am freaking terrified most of the time. I want everything to be awesome and nothing ever lives up to my expectations so I feel like I suck and I’m a useless failure and that makes it damn hard to be excited, to want to do creative stuff because what’s the point if it’s just going to suck anyway?

Oh boy that got deep. I’m going to shut up. TLDR the second because I write too much – zero pressure and what I love = excitement.