Another random writing post I’m afraid. Yesterday, when I sat down to write, it didn’t go according to plan. Today started off even worse, with a blank document and a blinking cursor for waaaaay too long.

I keep finding myself booting stupid puzzle games that don’t take long, then refreshing tumblr, then back to staring at the document, before my brain wants to take another vacation and the cycle starts again. I’ve always had this tendency but last year I managed to train my brain relatively effectively and now it’s like I’m back at the beginning. My focus = zero. Seriously, my total amount written each month is going steadily down rather than up. It’s not a good trend. It’s frightening me.

There’s one more week left in March, and then it’s Camp NaNo, so I’m going to try something potentially stupid. I’m utterly terrified at how it’s nearly April, and all the things I haven’t done, but for the next week I’m not going to police what I write. I’m not going to say “you should be writing X”. Instead I’m going to write whatever I feel like so long as I write something. The goal is to remember how to focus. My target will be pure word count, the actual project is immaterial.

This is how I kickstarted my writing last June and that surge of productivity lasted six months. So you know how I said I wanted to update my WIP’s by the end of the month? Yeah I really seriously do but I want to remember how to word even more. If I do remember how to word then I will hopefully be able to update faster again in future. Sort of short-term bad for hopeful long-term gain.

I’m going to shut up now, but that’s my plan. Here’s hoping it works because I really, really have waaaay too much to write to be as unfocused as I’ve become. Seriously, it is terrifying.