Does anyone else wonder sometimes if their brain is subconsciously punishing them? I’ve never had the courage to say type that out loud before because it just seems so patently ridiculous. I know what I need to do so just do it and if I don’t do the thing, then there’s no-one to blame but me. I need to take responsibility when I suck and not muse like this over my brain punishing me.

Seriously though is it possible?

Last week I was dying to do this drawing project but I told myself PRIORITIES and that fic came first. Fast forward a week and a few words have been written but nowhere near enough. I’ve had ample time to finish the writing projects but it’s just been a big nope on the focusing.

So is my brain sulking? Is it going “you wouldn’t let me do what I wanted so *sticks tongue out* sucks to be you, I’m not going to cooperate” – like I said patently ridiculous. It’s not like I can just do what I feel like all the time. I mean priorities but telling my brain to grow up if it’s sulking isn’t working.

I’m relatively sure (or at least I hope) that if my priorities were actual priorities (aka stuff with an actual deadline, as opposed to just fanfics I want done) then I would actually do it. It’s just like fanfic vs fanart = brain sulking in the corner.

My poor friend who usually gets these type of rambles from me isn’t online yet heh, so that’s why my dash is getting it. Honestly the AMR fic at least does have a deadline aka 2 days! Stupid brain *slaps self* write damn you!