So I want to do stuff but I feel tired. Is it real fatigue? Is it mental? Does it matter?

It’s like can I push and make myself?

If I don’t then I will wonder if I could anyway.

But I do feel tired. There just aren’t the spoons.

And the tasks aren’t done and I do want to do them. They pull at my heart and nag at me and I feel guilty because it’s not like I don’t have time.

Except I’m tired (but am I really?)

Ugh. I don’t know what to do. I would very much like to not feel tired, can that be arranged?