So I need another hobby like I need a hole in my head buuuuuut tomorrow I am getting a digital piano 🙃

When I was a kid I had a keyboard. I got rid of it when I was 9 due to family drama. I didn’t give up the idea of learning to play and asked if I could have lessons when I was at high school. Somehow that morphed into clarinet lessons (which mystifies me to this day as how??). I was thoroughly unsuited as an asthmatic as I didn’t have nearly enough puff for a wind instrument. It didn’t last and I haven’t touched a musical instrument in 20 years.

In that 20 years though I have listened to piano arrangements of songs, or listened to songs with a strong piano melody, and imagined playing. Last year when I started visualising living in my own place I thought about getting a piano but decided against it. I mean it really wasn’t the time with all the other expenses and besides I was – am! – going all in with art. I already struggle to balance art and writing and games and Lego and reading etc. Something else is just crazy.

But I have this picture in my head I can’t shake of the peace of playing on the piano, of losing myself in the melody. I reached out to two places in my town for lessons but neither have worked out thus far. It’s possible one will in time but I have a character flaw of impatience and decided I would try and practice on my own in the meantime.

It could all go horribly wrong. I am scared and excited all at once. The keyboard comes with a free few months of FlowKey which is a learning app and I hope that will be good to get me started. I always try to run before I can walk, and throw myself at that brick wall of endless frustration. I have a list of songs I want to learn to play which is probably horribly ambitious. Have to see how it goes.