I was just scrolling this blog (I hit follow after) and I was reminded of this writing craft book I read. I’ll have to search for it (I think it’s on my kindle) but the part I’m remembering was:

“challenge your first idea”

because the first thing that pops into mind isn’t necessarily the best fit. Now I’ll defend cliches (tropes) so I’m not hating on them but I did accept the point that the stereotype could be challenged with why?

For instance in my case as I was scrolling this blog I was thinking of an original story and my cast of characters and wondering if maybe I went with my gut, my first idea too quickly when it came to them. I was wondering if maybe I should have asked why a little more, and if maybe I could do something about it.

My problem though is I get attached. I have tunnel vision. Once I have thought of something I’m not good at brainstorming options, it’s like my brain says “you have your solution” and its very resistant to changing it. I get locked in.

Anyway I don’t know this is what was in my head and so I’m rambling about it. Sorry by the way if these rambling text posts are getting more frequent I’m trying something new. I need to let go of my perfectionist tendency. Like sometimes I’ll say in tags “oh I could write an essay about…” but then I don’t because I feel like it’s been said before better, or it’ll take more effort than I have in me to write a decent post about it. But why? Challenge that too. As can’t I just blurt out the thought? Not everything has to be justified, this isn’t uni I don’t need to research references or even worry about being wrong because “it’s just my opinion dude” and if I want to ramble about it then why can’t I?

So yeah. Unfollow or blacklist my rambling tags (I tag everything thoroughly) as I’m trying to embrace that yeah this is me and that is ok.