I was thinking yesterday about tasks.

I am very good at writing lists. I always know what I ‘should’ be doing (that doesn’t always translate into action but *rolls eyes* anyway…). I have a list longer than my arm and it feels overwhelming.

I have tried making “tasty tasks” so attempting to break down each task into bite-size chunks that can be done in half an hour or less. I have tried scheduling time for tasks on the calendar. I’ve probably tried every productivity tip that google has ever deemed to throw at me.

The problem remains. If I block time then if I don’t start bang on schedule I’m inclined to throw up my hands and go “stars don’t align” and just not do it. If I don’t block time then if I manage to accomplish anything then it’ll be the tasks that have some kind of external pressure (so uni work, domestic chores etc.) but I won’t ever do the things that I really want to do – writing! Or drawing practice or reading (it’s been 84 years since I read for pleasure).

Yeah I know in the time it took to write this post I could have read a couple of chapters or something but that’s another problem in of itself. Whatever I do, I’m always aware of what I ‘could’ (or even worse SHOULD) be doing and that is soul-crushing because I like my video games, I like my TV, I like my Lego. Those activities aren’t as ‘worthy’ but they are important to me, I don’t want to lose those either.

Answers on a postcard. Anyone got any ideas on how to balance the endless grind of life?