*sigh* I think if my gambit for peace had failed then I would be dead, not Maleficent. If I had been going to kill her, then I should have done it when she was weak from the fairy dust. I couldn’t kill her without trying to strike a peaceful resolution first, and I really couldn’t kill her when she was helpless. I know that’s very foolish, and that it gave Maleficent a chance to attack me first, but it just would have felt too much like murder.
That isn’t what you asked. The problem is I can’t see that I would ever have gone to see Maleficent with murder in mind. However, leaving aside how such a circumstance would arise, assuming that I had Maleficent at sword point, and the only way to secure Avonlea’s safety was her death, could I kill her? Yes, for Avonlea I would. The life of one villain, who sealed their own fate by murdering countless innocents, in exchange for the safety of everyone in my kingdom? That’s not even a question. Why should the innocent suffer so one person, and a murderer at that, can live?
If it had come to that, well there’s a saying – “Just because you’ve done right, doesn’t mean you have to feel right.” and killing someone should never be easy. If there had been no sleeping curse, do I think I could have met and fallen in love with Rumple? I don’t know how exactly, but I like to think that true love would eventually find a way, and that our paths would have crossed.
I realize this is just a thought experiment because it didn’t happen, and I can’t see how it would have done, but one thing I know for sure is that if it had, then Rumple wouldn’t have thought any less of me. He would have definitely still loved me because I would still be me. What we have to do doesn’t change who we are. Would I believe I was worthy of his love? I have no doubt that I would have felt horrible at having had to take a life, but life is messy and real.
Rumple has done things he’s not proud of, we’re both human. Besides you can’t be worthy of love. Love isn’t about deserving, love just is, no matter how flawed people are or how many mistakes they make.